LoseIt!

I've been working hard for the last year and especially the last six months to stop making things "all about me." Meaning, I would not analyze what so-and-so meant by saying "blah blah" because most likely, it had nothing to do with me. I used to be very defensive and analyzed EVERYTHING! I've been working to change that about myself. Mainly because I found that when I was sad or upset, I turned to food. If I could stop getting sad or upset about things...turning to food wouldn't be an issue. Today I feel myself wallowing in that old pattern. Just now I started to write down the 2 or 3 things I'm obsessing over and they looked SO silly in writing that I deleted them. I'm glad I have this forum to write out my thoughts so I can just let them go. Everyone has bad days, but I want to focus my life in a way that creates more good days than bad. My life is blessed and so happy! Just because not everyone does exactly what I want to do when I want to do it... Tonight is my first night back (in 4 weeks) with my personal trainer. I better get it all out by then or he will beat the whiny out of me!! Have a good one!

By posting out here and laying out your problem, you are already on the road back. You know what you have to do and I know you can do it! Make your appointment, consult with your doctor and make a plan. You have the tools, but they don't do much if we don't have our heads on straight. Now that you are fired up, you can move forward. Good luck! We are always out here if you need us.

You got me with jogging part. I was like - DANG - until I finished reading. You're funny!

You CAN do it! Take it one day at a time or one hour at a time if you have to. The more you think about what you are being denied...the more you want it. (At least that is how I work!) Think about what you are being given or from a positive perspective like that. I know you can do it!

You are an inspiration, Luckydog! I couldn't be happier for you!!

YAY Maggs! I'm glad it is going really well for you. And YES, I totally had those thoughts. In fact, even though I'm losing 1-2 pounds a week quite steadily, I STILL have those thoughts. It is totally normal. Hope you are 100% very soon!

That's awesome!! I've been thinking the same thoughts. Plus, my cable is out right now and instead of being mad, I'm glad that I'm not sitting on the couch as much. Keep it up!!

Congratulations Kdee!! Thank you so much for sharing your story & success! It is so inspiring to hear from those who have been at this a while. I'm so happy for you!

For those of you that read my blogs, you know that when I started my exercise "jumpstart" a few months ago, I had to completely psych myself up for it. Every day I focused on the challenge I had made for myself and "winning". I started exercising somewhat regularly about 6 or 7 years ago when I joined Jazzercise. I would go sporadically, sometimes 6 or 7 times a week and other times not at all. It was the first time I remotely enjoyed exercise since the days of intermural sports in school. Jazzercise helped me keep somewhat on track until I just lost it in January 2009. I still Jazzercised, but I was not watching my food intake at all. Well, I was watching, but I wasn't doing anything about it! I gained 30 pounds in 2009. By the time December 2009 came around, I weighed 285 pounds (from a "normal" or 225-255). My feet hurt so bad that I wore Crocs to work every day. My knees and other joints would hurt when I worked out. So, I didn't work out in December or January. I just couldn't. I had my surgery on 1/27 and by the end of February, I was ready to start moving. Once I started exercising in earnest (Jazzercise, Personal Trainer, elliptical at lunch), I started feeling much better. As the weight came off, my feet didn't feel quite as bad and the other aches and pains started to subside. I noticed that about one month in, I stopped "making" myself go exercise. At that point, I wanted to go. There were a lot of times, that I could've talked myself out of it, but I KNEW that I would feel better when it was over. About a month ago, I decided to start jogging. I thought it would be fun to make a goal of jogging a 5k. Let me make sure you understand...while I had started to feel better exercising, I hate to run. I HATE TO RUN! I don't understand the point of it, it is boring and I can't do it. A month ago, I said something to that effect to my sister-in-law and she responded in a way that said I was proving that I could do a lot of things I didn't like and that I thought I couldn't do. The challenge was on! I started with a mile a month ago and yesterday I went 1.71 miles. It occurred to me last night on the way home from Support Group, that I am craving it. WHAT?? When the heck did that happen? I realized last night that I had no plans to work out today. I have two work outs scheduled on Wednesday, but not for today. I kind of panicked. Then I was confused. Ha! I guess it is a new phase. I'm not sure how long it will last, but I'm grabbing on with both hands! Funny hazard of working out: I was jogging on my home treadmill. I don't have a small MP3 player, just my bulky iPod Classic. When I'm running outside, I carry it in my hand, but when I'm on a treadmill, I put it in the cup holder or on the tray. I was going along and a song came on that I like. I threw my hands in the air (not sure if I was dancing or just excited...heh) and my iPod flew off the tray and down to my feet. I promptly stepped on it and jumped up because I didn't want to break it. I knew that was a bad idea as I started to come down on the (still moving) treadmill and flew off of it and into the desk set up behind it in my office. As I sat there, I thought that "death by treadmill" was just kind of sad and wondered how long it would take my friends to find me. Fortunately, I was totally fine but a little embarrassed. A few days later, I was jogging at the gym and had another iPod flying incident. This time I let it go and calmly got off the treadmill, picked up my iPod and got moving. The next day I smartly invested in a tiny iPod Shuffle. I guess I finally learn!! :tt1: Have a great day everyone!

I agree with Sandra. That is great!! Now that you are a month out, you are probably ready for your first fill. If you haven't already talked to your surgeon about the timing for your first fill, you should do that. Keep it up!!

Oh goodness, I think I would have issues with the snakes too!! You are doing so well and it continues to inspire me. Excellent!

Sounds like you are going at a good rate! Exercise is always good and you know your body loves it. Keep it up!!

So now that I have lost my first 50 pounds, I feel like myself again. I have been overweight all my life and well over 200 pounds my entire adult life. At 235, I weigh about 20 pounds less than I did when I graduated from college. I would say that the bulk of my adult life was spent weighing 225-255 lbs. Sometimes I would get a little lower and sometimes I would get higher, but that was my "normal range". So right now, I look and feel like "me." As I lose these next 50 pounds, I will be making the journey to my high school graduation weight. This is an exciting time because anything more than 10 pounds and I will be "skinny" me. I got down to 200 pounds twice in my adult life but didn't stay there long. It will be such a pleasure to get there this time knowing that I'm going to blow right on past it! It is hard to believe that I am 5 months into a new lifestyle and I'm going strong! I would have never lasted 5 months on a "diet". I have attached a head shot and a full body shot from the very beginning (mid-January) and from today. I'm so pleased! Today I restart my exercise focus. This week my plan is to see my personal trainer twice, Jazzercise twice and do the treadmill work at least twice. I have a support group meeting tonight and they always get me fired up! I have a couple of friends that I met through Group and I always look forward to seeing them. Have a good week all!

Keep your chin up, VG! I know where you are coming from, but 5 pounds gone is 5 pounds gone. Giving a little super focus to your menu and work outs...I have no doubt you will have a stellar month! The fact you are so close to 100 pounds is just wonderful. Keep at it!

To me having fun on vacation makes everything else worthwhile!! Now you can work on yourself until it is time to go on the next one.

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Sounds good, girl! 60+ pounds is nothing to sneeze at. You are going the right direction on this lifetime journey. Keep it up!!

That's awesome, HB! It is so great to have a good support system. Glad you can move forward the way you want!!

Good luck, Maggs! I try to be stylish, but I remember not caring about much from the time of surgery until about 2 days later. Ha! Can't wait to hear how it goes!

I don't usually post on the weekends, but I had to today. My scale read 234.2! That means I am down 50.8 pounds. YAY!!! I am so very excited. 50 pounds in 150 days!! I realize that I have a way to go, but this is such a big goal. I just have to stop and take a moment. Have a great weekend!

Oh, Lucky, I'm SOOOO excited for you!!! What an amazing journey and results. You are an inspiration!! Lots of good things to remember in your post.

I got up this morning and stepped on the scale as I do every morning. I weighed 235.6 which is six tenths of a pound from my next major goal of losing 50 pounds! Still have a bit to go. No worries. I continued to get ready and as part of that went to the bathroom. Without TMI, a lightbulb went off above my head and I weighed again. 235.2! Only 2 tenths away from my next goal! I almost wanted to cut off a finger. Ha! But then I realized that whether my scale read 235.6, 235.2 or 235.0 this morning, I still look the same this morning. My true goal is to feel better and to look better. That .2 will come off and when it does I will be very excited! But no frustrations, because things are moving steadily in the RIGHT DIRECTION! And that is what is important. I hope you all have a WONDERFUL weekend!!

I LOVE SYTYCD! Such a great, fun show. Good for you on all the exercise!!

Oh goodness, do I know how you feel! When I first started with my trainer, it was all I could do to focus on the task at hand because I was thinking about everyone looking at me. The more I went and better I got...I don't even think about them anymore! Keep on, keeping on!!

I eat almost everything my friends eat. I don't eat a lot of bread because it gets stuck. Honestly, I wish I could have given up bread before the surgery, but I never have the will power. Now I have no choice, but I'm okay with that. If you would have told me that pre-surgery, I don't think I would have believed you. You do have to be ready to change, but if you are careful and pay attention to your body, you can eat most anything.