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Gosh I'm behind. Here goes: 4. Done. [emoji850] 5. Happy, kind, incredibly intelligent with an IQ off the charts (I'm sure that's what they say, don't they??) 6. I'm pretty good at assimilating information and communicating it to others (I should do, I spent years training how to do exactly that)

I was a chubby kid but my mum had (still has) an eating disorder and is stick thin. I sometimes wonder if I subconsciously put on weight as a kid because my mum wouldn't. Who knows. I have never not felt conscious of my size, even though as a child and teen I was "just" overweight, not obese. I remember when I was young, maybe 6 or 7, my dad telling me that I couldn't wear frilly things because we (me and his side of the family) were not built for those types of clothes (when I got married it was frills to the max. I looked like a frilly merangue). My mum took me to Weight Watchers when I was twelve and all through my teens. I actually got down to a normal weight at age 15-16, but because of my body dysmorphia I just couldn't see it. My most mortifying moment in school was when an idiot drama teacher had us all sit in a circle and we were supposed to call ourselves by the thing we hated most about ourselves, so when it was my turn I summoned up the courage and said "Miss Big". He said "big what?" so I repeated myself. He again asked "big what?" I couldn't fathom why he didn't understand. I was dying here, as being big was the thing I've always detested bout myself and saying it outloud to other people, TEENAGE GIRLS at that was panic - inducing. So, after a pause I thought I need to say something so I said "err.. Miss Big gap in my teeth" (I have a small gap between my two front teeth which doesn't bother me in the slightest) so he thought I was taking the piss and I got in trouble. Oh the shame! Looking back, I couldn't see I wasn't big but when you are constantly told you're overweight by an anorexic mother, what chance did I have? So I put it all back on and in spades, especially in my early twenties. By getting married (met hubs on Internet) I think I was about 125 kilos. My husband has never known me as other than morbidly obese. I cannot imagine what it would be like to be a normal sized person, but I'm keen to find out!!

Smooth sailing here. Its been a dream in comparison to other surgeries I've had.

Ha! What I save on no crap food, I spend on vitamins and protein bars *sigh*

Welcome - talk about a wakeup call. I'm so glad your husband survived! It's an exciting time for you coming up. It's tough but totally worth it! (This time last year I was 83 pounds heavier. Had bypass surgery in October, best decision ever!)

Phew, passing up the icecream on date was tough. You are strong!

Lads, today I found sugar-free choc chip bickies and I didn't buy them coz NoJunkFood!

1. I've been overweight my whole adult life, even more (except for a couple of normal teenage years and even then I had body dysmorphia). But I'm a generally optimistic person, the glass is almost always half full except when I think about the state of politics. Then it's empty. There is no glass, there never was as I stare into a nihilistic void of pessimism. 2. I think I have a nice, friendly face. I'm always told I look much younger than I am but I never wear makeup (hate the feel of it on my skin) and the only thing I wash my face with is water (three to five times a day coz #muslim) so I have a very clear complexion and hardly any wrinkles for my years. 3. I'm caring. I usually am happy to go out of my way to help you except when I feel like I'm being taken advantage of (ending on a preposition, oh my!) For all the points above الحمدلله.

Ooooh yeah, I know what you mean about clothes being longer. I couldn't understand why my pants suddenly dropped an inch, then I realised!

Favourite facial feature: my eyes. I have green eyes which although they are on the yellow end of the green spectrum rather than the blue, they're rather unusual to have, statistically speaking, so I like them!

Look peeps, I LEFT FOOD. I was in town and ordered porridge for brunch with this fruit compote thing (not at all sweet) and they brought a huge bowl out. So I only ate until I thought "that's enough" and I left the rest. Well done me!

Oh gosh that looks amazingly good

Lol, I feel ya

Gosh you have lovely eyes!

*looking doubtfully at all the copious blobs of fat on my own body *

Ahhhhh - so much to choose from!

Woot woot [emoji322]

Much better calorie value

They can do that??? How do they get the fat to stay in the new place? I can't even imagine? I am woefully ignorant.

Awwwwww thank you, back atchya

I swear autocorrect is driving me crazy. imma stop correcting my auto correct and just leave the wrong words on. It will make for some more interesting SMSs. I tried to type welcome and it came up with McInerney. Gah!

Welcome! You sound like good people!

I'm only doing some of the Self-love challenge coz I try not to make selfies with my face public anymore (not just on BP) but here is my current one. When I first bought this dress it was tight on me!

What a fabulous change! Well done

Quite an eye-opener!