Frustr8

You wisk we had more an thumbs-up,emoji,on the bottom - that's what I am awarding you!

Come to think of it so does my bariatric clinic, intimidated me at first, you see I spent years being weighed and found wanting, yeah it sounds biblical but I don't mean it,exactly like that. You I ow I would try and try, make my paltry losses and there would be an undertone I hated " You know you could do better. You just don't try hard enough!" And,i was always trying level best hard as I can.! And like the Biblical King, I was not good enough for what God planned. Now post surgery it is :-,finally,my fist bump time, and that is pleasing.. Some thing,i do fear, and maybe I should not verbalize it,but I shall. I understand the rational of an anorexic, the sense of power as pounds melt,away rapidly, it is finally like you Can Have Finally Control, it is a thin thin line between health and sick applications here and I feel teetering,on the knife edge. You know I did watch this show a lot of furst, same sick fascination many,people have at an traffic accident, just cannot help watching, even though the. pain , wounds are so evident. Now, Tomkitten still likes watching, I will not turn to TLC willingly. It just doesn't feel,right to me anymore.

And that's who covered mine in Ohio. And I think @ Bluesheeler is. in Maryland. We will get back. to a common purpose after Saturday, we have a foot ball game coming up, His Terrapins versus my Buckeyes. I of course think my team will win handily, he probably doubts it. I feel sorry for the Rutgers fans, the Scarlet Knights aren't doing TOO GOOD this year.

Well i for one enjoyed reading your story, I will be a happy follower of your story as it takes place. Stacy I have broad shoulders to cry on if it becomes necessary, at 72 I have. survived a lot of things, if I didn't participate in everything I sure watched them. I'm a good friend when you need one. And welcome again, we have a nice group of people here, we love to help.

And if he doesnt, the loss will be his-emotionally, yours physically. And we know the real winner here, YOU!

flatus, my days of foetus, Praise God, LONG OVER! Oh for an editing ability on Bariatric Pal, be5a app doesn't have it!

?-amentary here. Tried to cutting back to 1 Miralax daily, if your team says 2, do 2. This Am I awoke to flatus, of such a degree Tomkitten said" What was THAT sound?" Silly rabbitt?you should know by now So I marched into the Chamber of the Porcelain throne there to await occurrences. Such occurrences were not forthcoming, oh I tried, I said "Rectal muscles- Wakey Wakey!" They yawned out 1 puff of foetus and there I set and set. Oh I could feel the stool sitting right inside the opening. If it had a face , it would haven been smirking. No fleet enema , I was sent a mental message - Colin responded with Message unaccepted- please rephrase and resend! So i, and I shudder to relate this, greased the opening with Vaseline and then summoned all abdominal muscles not busy doing something else, 1-2-3- PUSH PUSH PUSH, And Finally it popped and plopped, a little more vigorous shoving and relief was obtained . But back to the 2 times daily, M.O.M. evening of second day, I might as well resign myself to the fact I shall not have spontaeous ?for a long time. And I am a 10 week old RnY with structure issues, and a puny liquid diet. By far NOT average, average is as close to inferior as it is to superior,and I fancy myself as superior, worthy of glory , praise and wonderment. Too many years of second string, second-rate, some man's slave/flunky/wife. Now Frustr8 shines clearly, brightly and with her own Star Power!?Twinkle Twinkle Frustr8's star, can you see me now shining far?

Are you anywhere near the border? They are popsicle brand, just get a picture going through my mind AND WHAT IS THE PURPOSE OF THIS JOURNEY, MA'AM? POPSICLES SIR, SIMPLY POPSICLES!? ROFLMAO?

As you probably know Kathy I had a bawl-fest a while back. What triggered it? A poster in her hospital's gown, mesh hat on her hair, ready to transport to OR, saucy left thumb extended in the air. And Tomkitten, nurses or anyone else considered my feeling enough to tAke one. I do have ones afterward, gown up over my face showing my surgical wounds, but how do you know it's really me? I could have bought them off another Baiatric website, I do hear tell there are others. So since I cried myself to the edge of dehyration THAT. DAY, I shall comemorate another future day. The day Dr Noria gets my Strictures fully dialated, my ulcers are in abayance and I finally can go onto a pureed/soft diet, Precious Pouch can grow up and become the adult Turkey Egg Roux en Y pouch Dr Needleman designed her to be. Sometimes I wish I could rip her from my abdomo- chest, spank her soundly and then replace her back in! I know I am smaller, the chairs I no longer get stuck in and need to be pulled free testify to that, and I am down 60+ pounds since the end of July. But having it spread over such a wide area makes it not as apparent to J9e or Jane Schmoe in the street. And I tell myself as I upchuck almost every evening " Its worth it! It's worth it!" and when all bets are in it will be!

December 26th is my Birthday, @Jean9, what a neat birthday ?? present for you and me by extension. we will both have something to celebrate that day! Happy SURGIBIRTHDAY to YOU in Advance!???

@Smurf, have a Smurfalicious surgery & Recovery! I'm not telling Gargamel where you are and I hope no one else does! Best Wishes on your SURGIBIRTHDAY fr9m Central Ohio and ME!????

So of us are and were a real caution, but we are are realigning, reorganizating into something the ? has never seen before. And yes , stuffing the phone under my butt so no one would know it was Me, the resonates for me. Remember I flipped my gown up, wanted to see if they had drawn on me with Magic Markers, actually done surgery, or had anesthesia just put me to sleep for a good nap. Hardly slept at all for 48 hours being excited. about this monomentual REBIRTHDAY I was going to have! Another FYI, my youngest yeah the Tomkitten, had fallen down neighbor's unrailed stairway, had a suspected head injury, was in our local" band aid station" so named for generalized ineptitude. Why do we go there occasionally? it's easy to get to, close by. We'll surely even they know how to do Neuro checks? Kept trying to shine penlight in TK eyes to check pupils, he keeps shutting them. They tried everything short of prying his little eyelids open, mind you he was 2 months short of 3 years, finally gave up and sent him to Nationwide Children's Hospital in Columbus , 48 miles away, let them play with him. Asked TK later, you see he may have only been 3 but easily as verbal as a 6 year old. Probably would have told them himself if they had only asked instead treating him like a particularly interesting piece of beef roast. "Mommy , when I closed my eyes, the headache , bright lights and pesky people went away, I could pretend I was at home with you, Daddy,and my toys. I love you Mommy". And 30-some years later he still is proud to tell me that!

Less than20, less than 18, Frustr8 is coming , fast as the downhill slide takes me. You mean there are tops you couldn't Breadtfeed out of the armholes? Oh Yippee Skippee Do Dah Day Big Mama can Hardly wait, and remember I am realigning into Chickee Baby, it's NEVER TOO LATE!⏰

Doomed! Listen to me the poster girl for doom and gloom, move over Betty Grable, move over Raquel Welch, Frustr8 is now here. 10 weeks since my surgery today, still on a Stage2B diet, can't even keep down all the Stage 2 food choices, crouched over the Buzz Saw blade , plaintifully pleading " Lady Parts don't drop, I don't want to become an "IT"!!!

Well you have me sitting there to keep you company. I had acute pancreatitis in May 2015, still idiopathic, love that word, medicalese for "Duh, WE don't have any idea what caused it either" and my gastro says there was minute changes in my pancreas , more likelihood of diabetes or worse setting in, so like a watched pressure cooker I'm watched to see if the gauge flies off! Don't Worry, that's like Don't look at the Elephant in the Room. ?there IT is Anyway!

Always happy to pray for others,? prayer can make you feel less alone, the world needs love, prayer for sustainment.?

So glad they did, don't want nothing bad happening to my bari-buds!??

Yeah you have a very valid point, a high % age of mine I would not have as friends, but family, you either want to hug them to death or pound them to a pulp. Not many middle ground in my two sides. I am just glad the cousins who told me to kill myself have now predeceased me, now I still have a batch that think I'm too fat and a bunch that think I'm ugly because I don't share their amount,of pigmentation. Not my fault I am fair, red-headed and can't tan, those are my Daddy's side, I take more after mama's except I look more and more like my paternal grandmother, just a different color palette. Oh que sera, sera!

What kind of powder was it so I can duck it? Nobody should have to be into nasty and vile if there is an alternative!??

Bonebroths are nice but cook vegetables like onion, celery , carrots, even mushrooms until tender in them. Sure you will have to strain them all out, but they leave a nicer taste. Also do you have a fab taste like , taco , Thai etc? I took my beef one day, added a shake of acceptable teriyaki, yummy to me!

OMG I think you're the Trophy? for today! Are you doing okay now?

And after Thanksgivings , Canadian last month, US this month, comes Christmas,?? Chanukah ?and New Years.??? Anybody starting to make those plans too?

Stricture, retention band, gastrointestinal malfunction, whatever the Going Name today, bad to consider, worse to have. My? prayers? are with YOU!

Maybe an added pen name, Darling Hubby is South End of North-bound ?.I figure he done earned it!

Sounds probable to me,if not actual maybe the areas whose nerves were pinched?