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razzcatt's Blog
 

Lightbulb!

I am finally learning how to work this band properly! I have been banded for 10 weeks now and up to this point have been letting the little guy try and do all the work with no results other than the scale going up by 4lbs. I have read on here that the band is a tool that you have to work with; but I guess I never really got it and was hoping that I could still eat whatever I wanted, just less of it, and still lose weight. After the past few weeks of being frustrated and still hungry, etc, I called the nutritionist on my support line. We went through my food journal and she gave me a few great tips. She asked me to really follow the diet guidelines for one week before deciding to go for the second fill as she didn't want the band to be too tight. (I currently have 8cc's)   Well, I commited to that and am happy to say that after only 2 days, I have already dropped 3 lb and have no crazy hunger/cravings either. Hmmm, maybe these people really DO know what they are talking about. Whatever it is, as long as the scale keeps going down, I am one happy bandster!
razzcatt

razzcatt

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roeroe's Blog
 

reputation?

On my profile, next to reputation, there is a number 1. what does that mean? how do you get a reputation on this forum? did i offend someone
roeroe

roeroe

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JessIsTiredOfBeingFat's Blog
 

Putting my big girl panties on....

New to this blog thing. I'm hoping that this outlet will help me get a control of my life, emotional eating and weight loss. So here we go...   We all have our baggage...I'd say there's at least a 99.9% chance that that is the reason that you and I are here, right? I've been fat all my life. I made a huge leap to change that in 2008 when I had the lap band. For the first time in my life, I was eating healthy, exercising and feeling super great--inside and out. Then in 2009 late in the year...I got something lodged and all my saline was taken out. Ever since then I've never been the same.   I've really been struggling. Balancing work, getting out of an abusive relationship, school, family issues/death, a new relationship, etc. My anxiety and compulsive/emotional eating is at an all time high. My breaking point came last week, when I had an anxiety attack that was triggered by my low self-esteem. My weight and food is on my mind all day, every day. I'm in nursing school and getting married in March 2012, I don't have the space in my life for this and I've gotta fix it.   I've put off and put off going into the doctors due to fear and anxiety...I didn't want to feel judged, or shamed. It's hard to explain. But I've put it off for 60 lbs. I threw out all my fat clothes over a year ago and now my pants are tight. I WON'T BUY FAT CLOTHES; not happening!!!!   So right after I joined this, I got busy at researching my insurance coverage on behavior health to try to help with my emotional eating...I keep hearing that we need to fix why we're eating. Weeeell, get this...they don't cover therapy. Rude! So then...I took a deep breath (I have HUGE anxiety issues) and dialed my doctor's office. His nurse actually answers. I just blurt it out "I'm a patient, I've had my band since 08, fallen off the wagon, gained 60 lbs, I'm very embarrassed and overwhelmed. Can you offer me guidance?" With tears welling up in my eyes, if hear her reply..."Jessica, thanks for calling. We probably need to get you a fill and we just adopted a support service. Call Betty and let her know what's going on then call me back to schedule" so I call her. She's a-ma-zing! I'm crying again after I blurt it out...She tells me to take a deep breath and that we need to get back on track and that I've taken the hardest step. Informed me of the newly formed support group that meets on the 25. Told me to start a food log, shoot for 60g protein, 64 oz water and get a fill. Bought my journal and appointment set for the 20th!!   I'm up late right now. Just finished my studying and usually I'd be snacking but I'm not...I'm on here. and now, off to bed.   Making the Change, being the change. Jess
JessIsTiredOfBeingFat

JessIsTiredOfBeingFat

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Journey Begins
 

Less then 12 hrs....

I check into the hospital at 6:30 am tomorrow morning and suregery is at 8:00 am!!! I am feeling really excieted and scared all at the same time like wow this is for real the day has finnally come!!!! I read so many blogs on here trying to plan on how am i going to feel how am i going to react to it all, when will I start to feel better??? I know everyone is diffrent and handles it in thier own way and I can only try to be prepared so much...Im staying positive and so ready to start my new journey, tomorrow will be chapter 1 of my new story!!! Wish me luck and I will try to get on the computer with an update as soon as I can. Thanks everyone for all the positive and negative blogs I am ready!!!!
Wear your Passion

Wear your Passion

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I-wanna-be-a-loser's Blog
 

1 month, 3 weeks, and 3 days.

Till I am banded... I paid the $1000.00 deposit, filled out all the forms and talked to my GP about getting the lap band today. She said since she knows about my constant gain, lose, gain, lose over the last 5-7 years she is supportive of me getting the lap band. That was a huge relief!! I though for sure she would tell me to try and diet again... WooHoo! Another person to add to my support circle!!     I am practicing chewing lots, eating slowly, only eating if I am hungry, and eating smaller portions more often. I also am working out like crazy. In the last 4 days I have played 3.5 hours of volleyball and ran 5 km. Woot!!!! I would do more but I have a 6 month old that requires a lot of attention!!! I love him to bits!! I can't wait to be healthier and chase him around the back yard when he starts to walk.       I am scared and nervous for the surgery because there will be no turning back AND what if I fail??!?!?! I don't want to fork out $17,000 to fail!!! But I have hope that controlling my portion sizes with this tool will help me lose the 70 pounds I need to to be healthy! I do eat healthy - just to much food at each sitting!! mmmmmm baked chicken boobs!!!       Everything seems to be falling into place - now I have to book my flights!!!
I-wanna-be-a-loser

I-wanna-be-a-loser

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Sarah8807's Blog
 

Officially banded!!!!!

Just got home from the hospital. Surgery was yesterday. It really has not been too bad. The next day (today) has been a little more painful. Mainly my port area. It doesnt hurt at all when I walk or when Im standing...But omg when I sit down its a sharp pain. I have the liquid pain meds which seem to be helping. I've lost 14lbs as of yesterday when I was weighed at the hospital. I stayed 24 hours and that was great. So far so good. Other than the port pain. I walked A LOT after surgery so I havent really had any of the dreaded gas pain
Sarah8807

Sarah8807

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EastTnBarb's Blog
 

OH BOY...IT BEGINS

I hadn't realized that is has been so long since I wrote on my blog. I do want to keep up with my progress (it will be progress) so here goes. Sept. 28th I went for all my pre-op testing, registration and classes for my October 19th surgery. Talk about a great harvest, this is going to be the best fall in my life. Today 10/6/11 is my 4th day of my pre-op diet (I started a couple of days early, why wait) and it hasn't been as bad as I thought. I do get tummy growls but it is usually because it is time to eat something. Neat how the body will let you know what it needs. Wish I had been more in tune to it before now but we will have the tool to help get healtier in a few days. I have been getting the house ready for the new eating habits and God bless my Lovey's heart (husband) he is on the path with me. He is eating healthier even our dog Charlie is getting better low calorie dog food and walkies. We all are benefiting from this journey. I am trying to think of everything I will need during and after surgery and this web site is a God send for the information. I am excited about a lot of the NSV's that I have been having and the clothes are falling of me now. I will have to go get some smaller ones just to have something to wear during this losing phase. I feel great phsyically and trying to stay postitive mentally. I am already off my high blood pressure meds and my diabetic meds. Now if I can get rid of the high cholestral and sleep apnea machine, life will be so much simplier. Time for more chicken broth so I will "blog" more later. This is the beginning of a new life for me and I can't wait for the adventure.
SmokyMtnGal2011

SmokyMtnGal2011

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putasleeveonit's Blog
 

The sleeve is my last hope...

but something about the idea of getting sleeved in two days seems a little too surreal... like it's too good to be true... I feel like something will go wrong at the last moment. Like maybe my pre-op test will show something crazy and my surgery will be canceled, making my trip to Mexico a colossal waste of time. I don't know why-- I've been so blessed in my life, but a part of me always feels like things won't work out for me. Like a negative outlook or something.   Not only that, but I've done my part to sabotage everything. Even though I wanted to do a pre-op diet, I completely failed in that effort. Completely and utterly. The sleeve is my last hope, but my fear right now is returning to Atlanta, fat and unsleeved.
putasleeveonit

putasleeveonit

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zil's Blog
 

NEW MIDDLE NUMBER - YEA ME!!!

FINALLY, when I weighted myself this morning, there was a new middle #. I know it might not seem like much to anyone else, but I have been struggling to get out of the 260's. Finally made it to 259 this moring. I was so happy.   I have been lucky enough to find a walking/biking partner in my neighborhood. We have decided to bike 3 days a week and walk the other 2 days. That will be good for me (and her).   One thing I finally had to do was make a sign for my desk that says, 'I am NOT hungry!!!' ' HUNGER IS A FIGMENT OF MY IMAGINATION' Worked for me all day yesterday. Working on reading it numerous times today, too.   OK, so off to my daily routine.   GOOD LUCK FELLOW BANDSTERS AND SOON TO BE BANDSTERS.
zil

zil

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Newbie Sweet Toni
 

Don't tell God how Big your storm is, tell the Storm how Big your God is.....(KATEYEZ0208)

I've heard the quote before but in this time of my life i certainly didn't apply it. If there is anyone out there like me, having fear, doubt, and worry it is definitely time to STOP! I can think of a ton of reason why i shouldn't have bariatric surgery, but i can think of a ton of reasons why i should. My sister said to me the other day "IF YOU HAVE THE SURGERY YOU COULD DIE, IF YOU DON'T HAVE THE SURGERY YOU COULD DIE". Im gonna lay it out there, IM SCARED! Im scared of being cut, i'm scare of being sick, i'm scared of being put under and never waking up, im scared of sutures busting, or a leak or malfunction. I'm worried that i'm not making the right decision, that maybe i can still do it on my own. Yes if you can't tell I can be a worry wort! Its usually silent, i don't share it with anyone until it almost eats away at my insides and i just have a breakdown.   Has anybody else felt this way? I'm feel like im the only one who has felt this way, which i know i'm not!   Those words up there are soooo true, tell the storm how BIG YOUR GOD IS!!! Refuse to doubt, refuse to fear, TRUST IN GOD. This is not a decision i've taken lightly. Its not something i decided on yesterday. So why do i doubt, why do i fear? WHERE IS MY FAITH?   So from this day forward i vow to trust instead of doubt. I will believe instead of worry. I will remove fear and replace it with faith.   No matter what happens, i know EVERYTHING will work out fine
Sweet Toni

Sweet Toni

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CAMMYD's Blog
 

3 MO. Post - OP Visit with my Surgeon 10/5/11

Yesterday I visited with my surgeon for my 3 month post op check-up , I have lost 49lbs (7 since my 2 mo. post -op blog) , my surgeon says I am over 40% of my weight loss goal now at three months!!!!!!!   Honestly, I have to say its hard to believe I have achieved that mark because , I still see "Me" and all my imperfections when I look into the mirror. When I look down , I see the same belly, hips, and thighs that I've always seen. My clothes tell the story because they are falling off of me. But my perception hasnt shifted to see a "new me." I walk more, work out and I feel great , but I just don't see a that much of a difference personally. My surgeon however was very reassuring and commented before I left "wow I can't wait to see you in three more months , I may not even recognize you !" My mind internally commented "Really, I mean come on now .....REALLY?"   I was thinking my progress is slow , yes I know it takes time and hard work , both of which I have vested , I just think I am having way too many stalls and such small little drops in weight from week to week. Anyone feel like that besides me ?   Thanks for sharing your imput , I will post my three mon. photos soon , thanks for your support everyone !!!!!   Two fingers, One Love ! CAMMYD*:-)
CAMMYD

CAMMYD

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Sweetybabs' Blog
 

Waiting for the insurance approval.... hummmmm!

My bariatric program has been shaky to say the least when it come to organization...but the doctor and other people involved have been GREAT! We are now down to the final approval from UHC. I am turning in the 5 yrs of weight history today...and then we sit and wait! (And, PRAY)   I am confident everything will go well...I have maintained all the rules and regulations...and have jumped through all the "golden" hoops! So ...no worries right?!? Humm....I wish!   I am so ready to move into the next phase! I have lost 45 pounds already just by following the diet plan! So my eating habits have already changed and I am prepared for the new way of eating when the VGS is done. I already eat small portions, drink 30-90 grams of proteins a day...and get plenty of liquids. So...all that's left is the surgery! All hanging in the balance with UHC!   Praying for a quick approval!!!!
Sweetybabs

Sweetybabs

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LovetheNewMe's Blog
 

Frustrated!

I just want to say, could we please have an auto save to our posts as we type. I just spent 30 minutes responding to a blog only to have it lost due to accidently hitting the back button. so frustrating, I will try again later. Am I the only idiot out here who does this grrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrr !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
♥LovetheNewMe♥

♥LovetheNewMe♥

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LovetheNewMe's Blog
 

Another Step toward Success!

Well fellow banisters I had my knee surgery today and now am back on my road to success. I started my journey today at 8am, I woke up this morning, nervous and scared and THIRSTY! Boy was it a long night, why is it when you know you can't have anything to drink you fine yourself wanting it the most. I arrived at the outpatient surgery center a head of schedule at 1045am. They took be back at 11am, checked my vitals, (nurse concerned because my pulse was only 44, I had to reassure her that this was normal because of my medications) They did a pregnancy test, I had to laugh and so did she when I told her I had already given birth over the past 11 months to a 75lb toddler. She looked at me like I was crazy, so this will be our little joke. I had 2 mg of Versed around 1:15, (what a wonderful drug, it allows you to relax and not remember or care what they are about to do to you) I was so humbled by the support of my friends and co-workers at the hospital, the all descended upon with their support and prayer at my bedside before surgery. I knew the moment the arrived that God had sent them to me to help me to relax and take away all of my anxiety. It feels so wonderful to have friends that support you, they have been such a blessing through my journey this past year and I know with out their constant support and praise this would have been so much more difficult. I woke up in the recovery room around 2:15 and was not prepared for the pain I was having in my knee. Not sure what I thought but I honestly thought this was going to be a piece of cake because I had so much pain prior to pain. My knee was on fire and it hurt all the way up my other thigh. But there was my nurse "Janie" she was so compassionate, she place ice on my knee, raised my head, and was so concerned over my pain and wanted to fix it. She gave me ½ mg of Dilaudid and 150mg of Toradol; she monitored my v/s frequently and finally after 15 minutes had my pain under control. I must admit I was nervous to take the narcotic, Dilaudid because of what happened post op with my Lap Band but Janie was so understanding and compassionate that I knew she would make sure I was well monitored and safe. I was discharge to the care of my husband around 240pm, now that being said. I know none of you know me but I am not used to being cared for, I am the care giver and make a lousy patient. He brought me home, placed me in bed, went to pick up my RX's and made sure everything was in my reach. (He had to go back to work and left me in the hands of my son Michael) Michael was wonderful, he waited on my had and foot all evening. He made my dinner, Chicken Picatta, vegetables and bread. I was so nauseated still and unable to eat but a few bites, I opted to take another phenergan and take a nap. I work around 9:30pm and was finally able to take in some food, but of course the finicky band like always only allowed me to enjoy about a ¼ of what I would normally eat. But it is what it is and it tasted wonderful. Awake again, pain about a 4, so ice, a pain pill and more liquids for me. I am so excited that I can again get busy in the very near future with my exercise program (however that looks) so I can seriously loss this last 25 lbs. Thank you to all of my bandster family and all of your support these last few weeks. I have been so fortunate in my journey with Lapland and want so much to help any of you struggling with your weight loss. I do not have all the answers but I can lend you support and tell you that being positive even in your darkest hour will help pull you through and help you to remain courageous and true to your journey. Remember this is for "YOU" and about "YOU" be true to "Yourself". YOU and only YOU know what you put in your mouth! Make this a lifestyle change and use your band to assist you during this transition. I dedicate this POST to my new found cyber friend "Arnetta". Please know that I believe in you and I know you will be successful. These first few weeks are hardest but you will find your inner strength. Prayers and cyber Hugs to all of you! Diane
♥LovetheNewMe♥

♥LovetheNewMe♥

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prettygirlhiding's Blog
 

It's time!

For several years now I have been playing an awful head game with myself.... "Today is gonna be perfect, I am going to eat what I am supposed to and exercise for as long as I am supposed to, I am going to have the perfect weight loss day!" I didn't set out to intentionally lie to myself everyday, but I have been. Today while waiting for my consultation, I am forced to reflect on the days, months, years that have been absorbed by this lie. At 33 I am looking for some way out of this lie. I am facing the truth, I am facing the fear. I feel like this is the best decision I will ever make. I am deciding to live! To have children, to be happy, to stop hiding, to live the rest of my life to the fullest!........ I can't wait!
prettygirlhiding

prettygirlhiding

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KayyyBeee's Blog
 

Pre-op check up & testing

Yesterday I spent a couple of hours at the hospital to pre-register for my surgery on the 18th, to meet with my nurse practitioner, and to meet with the nutritionist.   The nurse practitioner gave me 2 prescriptions to fill before I get to the hospital so that I would have them when I got home after surgery; Omeparazole and Lortab Elixir. She gave me some papers with discharge guidelines and stuff to do or not to do before and after surgery. She asked me if I had any questions, and reminded me that I could call or email her at anytime if I needed to speak with her. She is frickin awesome.   I met with the nutritionist who gave me the guidelines for my pre-op fast. I already had them, so what she told me wasnt a shock or anything. She expressed that most patients lose the bulk of their weight in the 1st 9-12 months and that she really hopes I understand how important it is to stick to her guidelines and those of the surgeon. She said she has a good record so far with the surgeons - meaning all of her clients who have gone in for surgery have had "shrunken" livers. She threatened me, saying I better not mess up her record! I asked her if surgeons really turn patients away for having distended livers and she said that she's heard of it happening, just not to her patients. Imagine getting opened up for surgery, then closed back up and sent home because your liver was too fat? SMH. I would die! Anyhoo, she too reminded me that she was just a phone call away for any questions I may have even if I thought they might be stupid, I should ask her. She's kinda awesome too.   She highly recommends the Bariatric Advantage High Protein Meal Replacement Shakes and their control bar for snacking. I told her I didnt want to invest my money in that stuff, I preferred to go into my local Vitamin Shoppe and purchase my protein stuff. She gave me a list of things that were pretty good, and I ended up with with Nectar Chocolate Truffle. Delish!   I went down to the pre-admission testing office to give blood and have a cardiogram performed. My PCP will review my blood work and give the final thumbs up on my surgery (hopefully) and I'll be all set to go for October 18th!!!!   One thing that alarmed me during my discussion with my NP....she asked me how much time I took off from work and I told her that I would be back at work the following Monday after my surgery (surg is on a Tues). She asked me if I really thought that was enough time and I explained that I really dont have much time because I had to use so much of it to go on all these pre-op appointments! I sit at a desk all day and dont lift anything other than mail, so I told her I thought I'd be ok. My job thinks I'm having gall bladder surgery, so I may be able to squeeze an extra day off, but I'll play it by ear. Cant miss too much work, people are losing their jobs around me left and right, cant give them a reason to let me go.   Well, that was my day yesterday. I'll be traveling out of the country on family business, so I'll be taking my Nectar with me. I just hope they dont give me a hard time at the airport....
Sleevie WonderLand

Sleevie WonderLand

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Same road...different destination
 

Gaining momentum

Wow. In one week, I will be celebrating my 3 months surgiversay. I can't believe my new life. It is amazing and I am so greatful for having the surgery. In retrospect, I can see clearly how being so overweight was affecting my life in a negative way. You make your own destiny. I truly believe that. You have to be willing to reach for your goals and seize opportunites when they arise. Being fat made me reluctant to reach for anything other than food. This sounds harsh, but it was true, so very true. Being so sad on the inside and mad at myself was reflected in my choices, decisions, actions, words, looks, marriage. Once some of the heavy weight fell off, so did the heavy feelings and it has been liberating! Since the surgery, my husband has been crazy affectionate ( more so than he used to be), I have earned a promotion and a substantial raise at work, I am remodeling my house and adding a large addition, and better yet, my husband has decided to take us to Cozumel first part of December-will be my first trip out of the country! I really think that because I BELIEVE good things can come my way now, they are. Before my weigth loss, I would have dreaded a beach vacation before because that means swimsuits, I would have stressed about a promotion and gained more weight, I would probably still be indecisive about what I wanted to do with y house because I was fearful of making decisions so I just didn't make them. I have lost weight before, lots of weight, but I was always overshadowed emotionally by the fear that I would gain it back--and i DID, everytime, plus some. This time, I just know in my heart and mind, that WLS is the key to PERMANENT, MEANINGFUL weight loss because it has forced that hand of changing my lifestyle. I have NO CHOICE but to eat right and if I don't the consequences are very real, very rapid, and very lasting. Hair loss, weight gain, feeling crummy, bone disease, dehydration, and malnutrition are pretty serious tools of leverage for maintaing a better lifestyle when I choose what I fuel up with! I never thought I would get such a sense of empowerment and forward momentum after surgery--I guess because I couldn't believe it to be possible, but NOW, I can!
amandaRN

amandaRN

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roeroe's Blog
 

8 weeks to surgery with nothing but time to think.......

I weigh 288 pounds. I have tried many diets in the past and have lost weight, but I always gain it back to get back to the 290 area. not sure why my body seems to like that number. I know I hate it. I don't stop eating when I am full, especially when i made something or bought something that tastes great or that i hadn't had in a while. i sometimes wait about fifteen minutes and even though i am not hungry, i go back for more. i feel like i am asking myself so many questions.... how is the lap band surgery going to change this? how is the lap band going to not make me eat junk food or sweets as a meal instead of a wise protein choice? i can't seem to do that now. I lost 83 pounds in 7 months on weight watchers a few years ago and i used most of my 33 points each day on junkie food or bad choices, but i still lost weight because i kept to my points. but of course gained it all back. what is the answer to not over eating? i have read some posts from bandsters that found themselves a few years later back to the weight that they were before the surgery. what is the likelihood of this happening? skinny people just don't get what we go through everyday. why do we live to eat instead of eat to live? i am just sick of having to deal with this issue, how did we find ourselves in this situation? life is hard enough without having to worry about your weight. why do some people have this connection with food and others don't? maybe i should go into this like a recovery addict does- ONE DAY AT A TIME.
roeroe

roeroe

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Sweetybabs' Blog
 

Pretty faces..

Blogging? Humm..not sure I get the whole thing but here I go!   STATS: Married 5'8 Beginning weight: 351.8 (July 2011) Current weight: 307.8 (Oct. 5, 2011)   I am a southern lady living in central Oklahoma..married to a amazing man..raising our 8 children. That is the basics! I am having the VGS on Nov. 2, 2011 and truly feel this is the best decision for me! I just turned 44 yrs old...and have thought about gastric bypass for over 10 yrs now. Timing is everything..and this time is MY time! I had some issues with guilt...feeling guilty for being selfish..feeling as if I am talking money out of the family funds to do this...but when it is all said and done..the family will benefit from it too. Everyone is extremely supportive...I have the best husband ever...he is my biggest fan! I am very blessed!   Well....I have watch the VGS videos and have talked to many people who have had the surgery...all of this has made me feel good about my decision. I began the program 2 months ago...and have since lost 44 pounds...by doing the 1200 cals, 90 carbs, 80-100 proteins and 50 fats. I have lost enough weight now to exercise. I walk 1.5 miles per day! I have gone from a tight size 28 to a size 24 in just 2 months.   My decision to do this has nothing to do with the number on the scale. It has everything to do with my family. In May 2011 I was told by my doctor that I could not walk anymore...my right knee was almost bone on bone. The pain was unbearable. After weeks of feeling sorry for myself..I decided it was time to take control of this and correct it. On Aug. 2, 2011 I enrolled into the Bariatrics program. I have never felt so confident about anything.   My "Ahhh" moment was when I realize that if I didn't change..I would become a burden to my husband and children! I could never bare the thought of hindering this family all because I was FAT!   I am excited to exercise...which is a 1st for me! I love "speed walking" and I just bought Zumba! I have no natural given rythem..so time will tell!   My whole life...I have heard "You are such a beautiful woman..", "You have such a pretty face..." and etc. Well...I want to change that...I want the rest of me to match the "pretty face"! I want to shop off the racks...sit in a normal seat...and when people stare at me..it isn't because of my size! This is my journey...follow me as we walk together in this journey to regain "our" lives!   God bless each of you!    
Sweetybabs

Sweetybabs

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MsAnn6550's Blog
 

October 4, 2011

OK. So it has been 4 months since I was banded. I have been eating less and less. I weighed yesterday and my scale has not budged. Got so frustrated. I said screw it and made some pralines. Of course, hubby doesn't know that. I have hidden them and are secretly eating them without him knowing. Like a junkie or alcoholic hiding their drinking. Thing is, I know it's wrong but I do it anyway. No one one is forcing me to do it. I think to myself Just one more. Like a drug. I feel alone. Even with hubby in the house. And now he is admitting he needs to have surgery to repair a huge problem he has. I think I dread it more than he does and that is saying a lot. I remember how he was so many years ago with his other surgery. He does not handle pain well. It also doesn't help that he is a smoker. He is not pretty when he is in withdrawal. I feel guilty because I just want to run and hide. It's not like this condition arose overnight. I had some plans to go on a little trip with my daughter in a month, but he told me I may have to not go so I can take care of him. I figure if he has put it off for this long, he can put it off a little longer. Then I get to feeling guilty for thinking that way. Then I look for something to eat. Lord help me.
MsAnn6550

MsAnn6550

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LUCYCAT's Blog
 

NON SCALE VICTORY

I can’t honestly say that I have experienced much in the way of victories since my surgery. Don’t get me wrong, I am very grateful for my 35 pound weight loss. I am thrilled to death that I can fit back into my size 16 jeans. I can wear women’s size 1x tops now. I even had to buy new tennis shoes because mine were too big.   However, I haven’t noticed much of a change in my life. I still FEEL the same. I still live the same life. I may have been a little guilty of expecting this thing to fix everything. My personal life fell apart just before my surgery. I guess I hoped that my personal life would get better when I lost weight.   It hasn’t. It hasn’t changed at all. My co-workers haven’t even noticed that I have lost any weight. Not one person that knows me has said a word about it…other than the two people that knew I had the surgery.   There was a meeting tonight. One of the guys I work with was there. I hadn’t seen TJ since long before my surgery. I was about 255 then. I am 210 now. He walked past me at the meeting. His expression was priceless. He came to a dead stop and his eyes got big. “Wow, you look…” (there was a dramatic pause as he searched for the right word) “…different”.   That was all he said. But it still meant a lot to me. The best he could come up with was “different”. But the way he said it really meant a lot to me. I’ll take it as a non scale victory.    
LUCYCAT

LUCYCAT

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forensicmary's Blog
 

Post op Day 6-Back to work

I am down 14 pounds (5 lbs postop).   I went to work with my clear liquids and protein shake. I kinda felt out of the loop just being gone for four days. I walked at lunch but then I became tired, diaphoretic and had a headache again. Not sure why the headaches but the only thing that took it away was Excedrin migraine. I did read some studies that migraines get better after WLS but the only patients in the study were bypass patients.   I had to leave work after 7.5 hours due to tiredness. My work was okay with that. I have had some problems with blurry vision since surgery, probably the medication side effects.   I am not hungry but want to eat. There really is no other way to describe it. I daydream about comfort food. It is not sweets that I want but meat and mash potatoes:( It really hit me today that pizza wont be on my diet anytime soon.   Also I find myself worrying about stretching out my stomach and wasting my money. Tracking my calories on LiveStrong helps keep me in line. Tomorrow is Full liquids woohoo!   There is a lot of internal dialogue with myself. I focus on how my stomach feels, whether I am full, what to eat next... The scale reinforces and validates me which gives me courage to stay on track.    
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