I had my lapband procedure on April 11, 2012, I have to say was not expecting to feel that much pain when I woke up in recovery that I actually needed morphine. Since that day I really have feelings of regret is this really worth the pain, soreness, and unability to pick up my 2 year old. But it is done and I am already down 6 pounds which is kind of the brighter side to feeling regret of this decision. While I know it will all be worth it in the end I just seems like such a long haul right now. I have been handling this liquid diet pretty good but now I am just starving and I want to eat everything in sight. Im so sick of crystal light, jello, ices, and broth. Does anyone have any suggestions on mixing this diet up to get me through my last few days??
I know the proper thing to do is follow this diet, I am really scared to go off and eat something I am not supposed to but I dont know how to handle it anymore. Right now im at the point where I put food in my mouth just to taste it I chew it up and spit it ( I know its nasty but it satisfys the taste). My family sits down for dinner and Im italian the typical sunday dinner spread was put out, and Im smelling this food seeing I wanted to rip out this damn band and eat everything in sight lol!!!!
It's amazing that what I've heard all along about not being hungry post-op is sooo true! I'm 3 days post-op and I could care less about food or eating right now. My hubby is sitting right here eating a bratwurst sandwhich, chips, and soda and it is not bothering me in the least. I looked at the sandwich and thought "Oh that looks good" but then moved on in my mind to something else with no real difficulty. Now there's a side affect of the surgery that I can live with! lol
Easter #2 was yesterday! Yes Easter #2. This is what happens when you come from a close knit family, that's huge! You have to plan holidays on different days of the actual holidays!` We've had Christmas in Jan. for years!
I love getting together with my family, not everyone was there, which was sad, but it was still nice to see those who did come! It was nice! We had a HUGE Easter egg hunt for the kids! There was probably over 200 eggs, and only about 6 kids. Needless to say they made out like a bandit. LOTS of candy! So much candy it was kind of sad. I did well though, and did not touch any of it!
Then we had the big Easter egg hunt. It's a money egg, that you have to pay to hunt for. 2 dollars per person. This egg is hidden the night before, and everyone can hunt, kids, and grown up. The money goes into a jar, so the egg is empty. Whoever finds the special egg wins the jar of money. This year there was 28 dollars in the jar. It was pouring rain, and there was several people out looking for this egg for 28 dollars. I however was not one of them. I sat on the couch and watched from a distance. Wishing I could be out there with them, but knowing that physically I couldn't. And you have no idea how much that killed me. I hate watching life from a window. And that is what I am doing watching life through a window, watching as everyone else carries on, hunts Easter eggs, plays and runs with the kids. Rides bikes, flies kites and enjoys life to the fullest. I watch from a couch or chair because physically I can't do it. And this kills me! I hate this so much. I know it's one step at a time. But those steps are so hard..and painful! I look at my life and feel like a failure. I can't do anything, I can't get a job, I can't make money, and I can't have a life of my own. Because of this weight. This prison I've put myself in. I don't want to live like this anymore! I want to be free.. but I can't do this on my own.
I feel bad begging people for money, especially people I do not know well. Which is why I haven't been doing my fundraising any more. I figure if people wanted to donate to my cause they would have. I was even told that WLS is not a good enough cause to donate money too, the risks are too high, there isn't enough proof that it is 100% effective, and that sometimes it's just better to be overweight. Well thank you for saying that my life isn't worth it! That stung. But then I realized how uneducated, an uninformed this person was. I mean we live in a society where media tells us what to believe, and most people believe what they see and hear on TV, and instead of finding out the facts for themselves, they go by what they media says.. and that's that. (I mean look at our Government and that mess! Not going there though..not in this blog).
My dad had mentioned at one time that they could possibly get a loan and have it paid off in three years, if he and my mom stopped smoking. Well after hearing "stop smoking" it was never mentioned again. I guess it's better if we all three die together, than get healthy with each other? Because if that's the case, and they could pay off the loan in three years with what they save from not smoking this surgery could save three peoples lives! Not just my own! It could prevent me from having diabetes, high blood pressure, and being stuck in THEIR house under their support for the rest of my life. And it could keep them from getting lung cancer, or having to live with a hole in their throat due to throat cancer! Why wouldn't you pick that road? I don't get it? If I started to lose weight, I could get a job, because I cannot work right now due to my weight. I could eventually take over the loan payments.
IDK..I just need change! I feel like I'm hoping for nothing, and wishing for something that's never going to happen. I wish I could just win the loto or come into some money.
Well this blog had very little to do with Easter huh? But I do feel better getting this out and in the open.
Did anybody get the number of the semi that just ran me over? My feet look like sausages that are about to bust out of their stuffing....they also kinda look like that time I thought I would be able to fit into this dress that I wore in college and ended up getting kinda stuck and having to do some advanced yoga moves (of which I don't know), and practically roll around in Crisco (just kidding...or am I? *waggles eyebrows*) to get myself out of it.
The alarm rang yesterday morning and up I popped with a whistle and a bounce in my step. We were ahead of orders at work and today was going to be a great day! Granted, I kind of had a budget-making panic attack the night before, but my mom talked me off the metaphorical ledge. Anyway, off I go to work and I'm there for a couple of hours when my boss runs up to me and asks me if I'm willing to go to another store 1.5 hours away because they need a cake decorator. The store had just opened and their cake decorator had an accident (not job related) so they were going through grand opening with nothing. Needless to say I wasn't exactly jumping at as I had PLANS for that evening (nefarious, minion-assassin-garden-gnome-needing plans for world domination!) and didn't want to drive 3 hours round trip. So then she sweetened the pot and said that our store manager would have me get paid time-and-a-half. Which is nice, but still not enough. Then she said they would also give me a non-taxed bonus. *grin*. Yeah, so I can be bought for that, plus paying my traveling expenses! I race to the other store and proceed to work a 13 hour day. Sheesh, my feet are STILL killing me!
Tomorrow I work and then drive to VA to spend the night as my last class and pre-op doctor's appointment starts at 7am on Tuesday. It's hard to believe that my surgery is week after next! WOOT WOOT!
Ladies and gentlemen, I would continue but I'm about to fall over I'm so sleepy. May you all have a fantastic Monday full of fun, adventure, and dragon hunting!
I am a little over two years out from my banding and did well the first year and fell off track. I have gained 35lbs back and am getting back on track. Any words of wisdom? Has this happened to anyone else?
It seemed like my band never really worked as far as giving restriction..i would get a fill it worked for a week or so then nothing, got tired of counting caloriesl..etc..now regreting it.
I have recieved approval for my surgery!!! I am so happy right now. I must admit when I initally got the approval I got scared and had to ask my self is this really what I want to do. After that 2seconds past my answer is YESSS!!!. Now I can really start my program cause I was so scared of not getting approved that I wanted to keep the weight on in case I had to jump through some hoops. Crazy huh? It actually only took 2days for the approval to come through. Now my journey really begins. My last appt and preop work up will be on May23 and my surgery is scheduled for June 5!!!!
Overall this weekend has been pretty great. I think I freaked myself out a bit on Friday because I could not have felt worse. I was on the verge of calling my doctor. My right side seemed hard to the touch and really hurt. I was so unbelievably uncomfortable. I'd looked over the info from the doctor's office and it says to call them whenever you don't feel right and are in pain. Well this whole experience has been awful, so I wasn't sure if this was what I was supposed to be feeling or if something was wrong. I decided to go to bed and call in the morning if I was still the same. Saturday was like a brand new day. I really felt amazing - I cleaned my house, rested for a little, and actually played outside with my kids. I hadn't done that in a week and it felt so good to giggle and laugh with them. Today was another great day and I'm really hoping that this is how I'm supposed to be feeling. I still feel a little discomfort, but I'm thinking the staples have something to do with that. I really wish they had told me they were going to use staples. I never thought to ask. I took 3 of the bandage coverings off tonight because I didn't know if that's what was bothering me. The incisions look good and I can't wait to get the staples out on Wednesday. The info from the office says I can leave the incisions open, or cover them with bandaids if I want. Does anyone have any suggestions for it? I feel weird leaving them exposed, but I think the air will do them some good.
Oh yeah, and I'm down 22 lbs. It feels great!!
I was band on 12/28/2010, and my start weight was 239lb, I lost down to 198lb, then I started throwing up, Gerd, and abdomen pain. I have gained 22lb back. I have not changed anything. I still eat write I follow the eating plan that me and the dietitian set up for me. I go and get the ultra sound on wednesday to see if my band has slipped. Any help in understand more about band slippage will greatly be appreciated.
Saturday, my DH and I hooked up our trailer, loaded our zero-turn mower, and headed to the church. I mowed while he did the weed-eating, and picked up trash around the property. Afterwards, I couldn't stop talking! I had the most energy that I've had in a month, and I think because of being outside, and the physical activity, it got some endorphins bouncing around inside. He was laughing because he said he hadn't seen me this "pumped up" in a while, and he was glad to see it. - He always knows what to say, and that's why he's a happily married man -- go ahead and ask him
Today, Sunday, church was wonderful, and after we got home, we both laid back and chilled. That is until the storm was blowing in. So it was a quick run out to the barn to put up all the animals, when suddenly the 70mph winds hit. Thankfully we had just gotten everyone inside, so we hung out with the chickens, goats, and ducks, until the unbelievable downpour slowed enough.
I guess this means that I'm going to have to mow our yard this week. Thankfully, I am up to the task!
My energy level is better than ever, and I'm really looking forward to what this next week brings.
Well I finally had the surgury. Do not feel bad at all except for the gasiness which I think is terrible. Will be glad when it is over. I have stucl to the liquie diet but did get a mcd milkshake today. Already tired of the protein shake flavor.
I have lost 4 pds. I sit and think of things I could possibly eat but am afraid to stretch the upper stomach. Did anyone eat this first week.
Im on day 7 pre op liquid. Im getting on better than before. I can honestly say the biggest hindrance is my environment. Everyone around me who knows about my upcoming op is acting off with me. Its like they're all treading on eggshells while trying to offer minimal support (Since Thursday, my mother father brother and his girlfriend have ordered 5 take aways, brought in 6 giant bags of chocolate, crisps, popcorn, other fizzy drinks to name a few of the supports they're putting in place) today my father cooked a family meal and invited my other brother and his wife up. I asked him to start serving before they arrived so I could say I had eaten because he knows I decided to keep my decision to get the op private and he completely dismissed me in front of the others in the room categorically stating that he wasnt changing dinner plans. He had said he'd eat with me after everyone but just didn't call me down and he ate with everyone else. I stayed in my room an hour and a half just feeling so low and let down. It's like my mere presence was an annoyance to his family dinner plan.
I have also overheard them talking about me and criticising my efforts, saying how I haven't exercised and it's in a week. It's on my mind to really get into exercising and I had planned a gym visit tomorrow after work. I feel like they're having such a negative impact on my mental state in the run up to the op. I actually can't wait for them to go back abroad on Fri before my op on Monday. And then ill be all alone which one would think woud be a worse alternative but it cant come quick enough.
I feel so so low. I am at rock bottom. I cant stop crying once i think of how isolted and alone i feel. My brother hugged me earlier and i just wanted to sink into his shoulder and weep. But i cant tell him or anyone how im feeling or why im so down. I know it cannot have escaped their notice how bad I've been feeling but no one will reach out to me and I feel insulted at how 2dimensional they think I am- they think oh she must be in a mood because she can't eat when it's not that at all- I'm ok without the food, of course it's tough but I just feel so misunderstood and isolated. I am apprehensive about this whole process, it's something I'm trying to get to grips with mentally. I want to succeed. I wan to change but i terrified about doing it alone- of having no real support. ,I hate how I'm viewed and how little respect I receive from my family. I have no credibikity with them. They just think I'm an ogre. A grumpy fat ogre strung out for food. Lip service and generic statements are easy to give but the reality of the support is Non existent. I am alone but worst of all I've never felt so alone. I don't know who this depressed person is. Is it normal to feel this emotional?
Any advice on how I can go forward would be greatly appreciated.
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Day two of the Liguid diet and I have to admit I have already cheated. Garlic cloves are a weakness!! Had about 8 cloves and some onion slices. Candy is not my weakness, thank goodness but I have to be strong. I was a little weak yesterday but I had such a big day. To top it all off I had a "31 Party" (may I add I did awesome) then I had to go to work for a few hours. Today my stomach is hungry but I am fighting through it. I put rubberbands on my bottled water so I can keep track of how many bottles I drink. Seems to be a good system for me considering I can't remember
Has anyone experienced a sore throat after surgery. I am 4 days post op and my throat is extremely sore...I did have a cold going into surgery, but I did not have sore throat. Other than that, I feel fine. My incisions are healing nicely, minimal gas. Any thoughts?
Well, I've been on an emotional roller coaster since deciding to have surgery. The first time I decided to have surgery was in 2010. I was very uneasy with the doctor so I changed my mind. I found a new doctor and staff I absolutely adore. The emotions I have range from fear to excitement to extreme nervousness etc. I don't know. That is how I found this site. I was looking for people that could understand my emotions. My family doesn't understand. Part of me wants to change my mind right now, the other part of me wants to do this and change my life. My initial decision to have surgery wasn't right. I was doing it for my mother and sister. I just technically wanted to fit in with them. I can't even admit that outloud to anyone. That is the part that makes me want to cry. They are really close, I've always been a daddy's girl but sometimes I wish I could go shopping with them and they wont tell me I'm to big or that makes me look fat. So after overcoming those feelings I had to regroup. I've been having bad dreams because of my nervousness and I have a extreme low tolerance for pain. I'm 25. I have no kids and no serious health problems except that I am obese, that was my decision maker. I wanted to prevent any major health problems and fix my life right now. I've always been bigger and yo yo my weight. I receive criticism because everyone says I'm to young to have this surgery and I need to exercise and stop eating etc... Don't they think I have tried that? Originally when I made my decision the person I am dating did not support me. We actually broke up for a while because they wanted me to change my mind. I knew that was something I could not do. I was tired of pleasing everyone and doing what they wanted me to do. Yet, on the other side I am doing what my mom pushed me to do. I chose my own surgery. I did not want a lap band or to have gastric bypass, I did my research and this was best for me. Did anyone else go through extreme emotions before surgery?
I'm still unsure if I will keep the surgery a secret - just my husband, daughters and 1 close friend know now, or if I will share the experience with others.
For some reason I am struggling with sharing the news. I think I am afraid of how people will judge me and what they will say/think about me. That makes me wonder what I think about it myself - am I embarrassed or ashamed ?
On the other side, I think it would be really cool and therapeutic to share the experience with some and be able to blog about it. I want to share this journey but I think I am ashamed of what I let happen to me. That I let myself get so out of control and overweight.
I think I have a lot of things I need to figure out and work on before I make a decision that I can't change once its done.
last night I took my first shower since surgery.could'nt wash my feet sent hubby to store to get me something so i have clean feet. he came back with this thing that looks like a flip flop with brushes inside very good idea. still on only drinking fluids no protein shakes till monday. stomach growls alot but I look at it and say "get use to it buddy". My Dr. wants you to drink 1 oz. every 20 minutes and consume 64oz. daily lol that means 3.75 hours sleep. will discuss this with him monday. I really am enjoying reading everyones post it keeps me grounded. My Dr. wants all his patients to attend groups not the way I want to handle this personal journey of mine. So peeps you are my group LOL. I see there are alot of nurses on this blog which is one reason I will continue being one myself
Hello everyone!
I had surgery Nov 21st 2011.. I am 47lbs down.. I have lost a total of 19 inches. I have been stuck at 213ish for 2 months.. I feel like I am still seeing the weight loss but just not on the scale. Anyone else have this experience?
Thanks,
I consider myself an intelligent woman, but sometimes I really wonder where my marbles are! So I decided that I was going to be 'Proactive Girl' and start weaning myself off of solid food now instead of going cold turkey on Tuesday. Of course, I was more of the philosophy of "I got this" and jumped in with both feet. That scream you heard yesterday at about 3pm? That was my metaphorical chicken broth parachute getting a hole in it and metaphorically dropping me on my a$$.
So yesterday starts and I'm feeling all virtuous that I replaced both breakfast and lunch with one of my approved food groups. I can have things like broth, carnation instant breakfast, sugar/fat free pudding, under 5g sugar/fat free yogurt, cream of whatever soups etc. I just can't go over 20g of protein so that my liver shrinks away to nada. Of course I had run out of time the day before to get anything from the above list, which would make you think that I would just put it off for a day. Me, do something like that? Surely you jest! Luckily I had chicken broth that I had doctored with some cream of whatever and strained. So I had that for breakfast and lunch. Now I work in a busy store where I'm on my feet all day, work next to a hot convection oven which turns 'The Batcave' into 'The Alcove Of Despair From Over 100 Degree Temp', constantly moving, carrying 50 lb bags of whatnot and I've pedometered myself at walking about 3.5 miles at work in the course of an easy day. Can anybody guess what happened? Yep, all of a sudden the world got nice and bright and kinda floaty. No, I didn't faint or have the vapors (southern women don't faint, we engage in mortal combat with the floor) but I did get so birdbrained that when I got done putting gas in my car I forgot to put the lid and hatch back on the gas tank. Or I would forget what I was going to the back of the store for. So after talking to my dad, who had this surgery 2 months ago he kinda clued me that it was not one of my better ideas. Also, more water is needed when your body doesn't have enough fuel.
So today starts Day 2 of Easing Into The Liquid Diet. I went to the grocery store yesterday and got provisions so that I don't do my best Gone With The Wind impression at work. It's my long shift today so here's to hoping!
I hope everybody is having a phenomenal day and that your weekend is bright and shiny!
OKay here it goes.....I was banded on 03-28-12..Got through surgery just fine only had pain for about two days. 2 1/2 weeks out I feel great and pretty much healed. My issue is I don't get my first fill until 04.26.12. I have been trying to stick to my diet, and eating healthy with small portions but I am so hungry, and find myself starting to eat more and more and not feeling full like I did right after the surgery. I had originally lost 25 pounds and now I have gained 6 of the pounds back....ugh...any advise or ideas are welcome....
I was given the opportunity to escort a group of fifth graders to Washington, DC this past week. I almost turned it down because I was only 2 weeks postop and I wasn't sure how I could mange the eating on the trip. My husband convinced me to go (it is not everyday I get an opportunity like that...I was replacing a sick teacher who couldn't make it.).
My diet at this point is only clear liquids and protein. Dr. Kelly recommends not adding mushies until day 20. Lots of other people report eating food earlier so I wasn't hyper stressed. I was trying to keeping the operation quiet so I was trying to not draw too much attention to myself!
I brought protein powder to add to OJ every morning and that is what I had for breakfast each morning.
Lunch and dinner was a little tricky. Lunch the first day was provided by the bus company and I just took the turkey off the sandwich and chewed that up into mush and ate it. That went down fine but the cheese stick did not (harder to chew into mush). Our first dinner stop was a buffet. . I ate barely anything (enough to make it look like I was eating). My stomach did not do well with that. It just felt uncomfortably tight. Luckily we did a lot of walking that night through some monuments and it loosed up. The second lunch was really late (2 p.m.) and I ordered hummus at a greek place. It came with warm flat bread (red light food!). The hummus went down fine the bread not so much so. Dinner was at Medieval Times. I did the soup (and attempted a couple bites of the bread) and ate maybe a tablespoon of chicken (did pretty good with that). The next day we did lunch at the Smithsonian and I was really disappointed at my options. In hindsight I probably should have eaten a McD's smoothy. I ordered chicken nugget happy meal. When I say "ate it" I had four french fries and peeled the breading off the chicken nuggets (4 of them) and attempted to eat it. Those did not sit well in my tummy. Turns out that upstairs in the dining area I could have had a yogurt parfait (not advertised downstairs). Dinner that night was a the Pentagon Mall. I had wild mushroom soup (outstanding) and a bit of frozen yogert. Lunch on our last day was at the Golden Corral. Barely ate anything and stopped before feeling uncomfortable.
I'd give myself a grade of "C" on my eating on the trip. I don't think anyone thought I was too odd for not eating more. Most people know that I have been trying to lose weight since the beginning of the year. We walked a ton on the trip. I am going to weigh myself tomorrow morning to see if there was any weight loss on the trip due to the exercise.
I am happy to report that I barely felt hungry at all!!!!
I'm going to back to liquids until my 20th day and then I'll stay with mushies.
I'm literally almost crying reading this. Mostly because I'mon this pre-op diet and these last two days have been difficult... but also because I needed this! Thank you! Congrats! And a BIG congrats on quitting smoking a second time! It was hard enough to do it once... So - when I say BIG congrats... I mean BIIIIIG congrats! ❤️
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