Well, today I fought the temptation to get on the scale! I have been working my ass off and I really hope when I get on the dang thing that it shows some results.
I just feel like I am stuck, like I always get after 30-35lb weight loss and I wonder if I will ever be normal.
I thought I needed a fill, but today at lunch I didn't eat much at all and had PLENTY of restriction. I guess it is because I am eating the right things... Hamburger Helper slips right thru my band so I am staying away from it!
Well, today was day 4 of taking the 4 flights of stairs at work! Ugh, will it get easier? I just can not wait to put that pair of size 20 jeans on that I bought. I will know that I lost weight when I can fit into them!!!
Well, the time for my probable surgery is getting closer so I thought it would be a great idea to record my thoughts/feelings/emotions as I begin this journey.
It's weird because part of me can't even believe that I am at a point where I need lap band surgery. Surely it can't be true but it is and now I've decided to embrace what I hope/believe will make me feel and look like the woman I am on the inside.
How come I can be so narotic....I'm up searching the boards looking for someone else that thinks their port could be screwed up by too much coughing. I'm going to call the doctor tomorrow just to set my mind at ease..cause this fretting is going to drive me to divorce....poor hubby.
Other than the cough and the sworeness that comes with it...I'm feeling much better. If I get through the night without a fever I think I'll be home free.
Met with the nutritionist and started the pre-op, liver-shrinking diet. Starting weight 307
Sleep study - have sleep apnea, 30 occurances an hour
Got the CPAP machine.
PreAdmit at St. Al's, finally exam by Dr.Cahn. Weight 293.8
Weight 291. Checked into St. Al's at 10:15am, prepped and in surgery at
12:15pm. Stayed overnight, hubby stayed with me. He broght the laptop and played my favorite music all night. What a sweetie he is. Gawd was I thirsty. Nothing by mouth until after the barium and swallow tests, so.. we had to swab my mouth with a sponge on a stick that we dipped in water. We called it the lollypop.
Went home late today. The hospital stay was awful. Nursing staff was rude and neglectful, and we suspected one was either drunk or on drugs. Very glad to be home, although I came home with a burn from an accident in the OR. Seems the surgeon was handed a retractor straight from the onclave, which burned thru his glove and he dropped it on my stomach. I now have a 3 1/2 X 1 inch second degree burn right next to the hernia incision. :mad:
Rough week. Sick of protein shakes. Drinking broth, water and slim fasts too. The band of pressure around my chest just under my ribs is horrible. I'm so sore. How do people go to work one week later?? Hubby keeps reminding me I also had hernia surgery and a second degree burn. The port sticks out funny. Its weird to touch it. I think the burn is hurting the worst. Can't get out of bed alone yet. Sleeping on my back only.
Getting out of bed on my own now, painful but doable. Still sleeping in my back. The skin around the burn is so red and sensative that I cant stand for anything to touch it. This makes sleeping difficult, as the covers rub on me all night and wake me up. Im also going stir crazy! Convinced hubby that I'm ok to drive so we went for a two hour drive around town tonight. Ahhh.. relief. Now I will start driving him to work again. Yay, a bit of freedom.
Feeling better except for the burn which has been dripping a clear yellow liquid mixed with blood. Will see Dr. Cahn tomorrow. So hungry for solid food I can hardly stand it. I dont think I can force down another strawberry banana protein shake. *gags* Getting out of bed alone now. Hubby puts on my socks for me. He's been so wonderful, pampering me every step of the way. Realized I was only eating half of the protein I was supposed to be eating. Uh oh. Time to up that from 30 grams to 60. On 500 calories? Good luck!
Saw Dr. Cahn today. He was very upset and concerned about the burn. He said he was going to call the Vice President of St. Al's to make sure I was taken care of. He also called a Wound Care Specialist in St. Luke's and they should be calling me to have me come in. Dr. Cahn said everything esle looked great. All incisions fine, he took off the steritapes. He also said I could start on soft foods. Yay!!
Came home and my son cooked me some Malto Meal. I put some butter and Splenda in my 1/2 C. serving but it wasnt all that great. For lunch I had 1/4 C. cottage with 1/8 C. appleasauce. It was the best cottage cheese I'd ever tasted! For dinner? A can of tuna with fat free Thousand Island dressing. What a treat. And for 32 grams of protein, it's a great meal. Didn't have to have the protein shake today. Hit 60 grams with food. Hoorah! I can have 800 calories a day now, but I think it will take a few days to work into that. It seems like so much food now!
I napped on my side for a few hours! Woke up with my stomach hurting tho, and its been so sore since then. Bummer. I cant wait to feel normal again. Had to take meds to sleep last night.
Hubby took the batteries out of the scales last Friday, so we only weigh on Mondays now. I miss those damn scales! LOL Called Dr. Cahn today, still haven't heard from the wound care doc. Left a message with Sherry.
Jan 18, 06 - Somewhat of a good day physically, anyway. I went for a walk with John this morning. (1.5 miles = 20 min). I have stayed on track as far as food and water goes. Emotionally it sucks. I just heard from my daughter in Florida that she just miscarried. We are all devastated. She is doing fine but wrecked emotionally. SIGH!!
I go see Dr. Billy tomorrow for my follow up from the Erosion surgery in Dec. I will come and post an update after I get home.
Not sure how this journal thing works...but going to see if it helps. I'm in a funk, first step is admiting it right? I admit I've been stressed lately. Immediatly after enduring the Mother in law....who no doubt is the most judgemental condecending woman alive, Karah, my 5 year old develops a cold. Oh great..and I suppouse to take my very first plane trip to San Fransico with hubby within the week. So turns out she has Pneumonia, but seems better so off I go to San Fransico...which was wonderful and one of the most freeing trips I think I have ever been on. Mostly, because I was on my own during the day to travel around a strange city using public transportation all on my very own. I've never done ANYTHING like that before. It was great to see, hey...I am capable. I know that sounds silly.
Okay so get home, Karah is still sick, the dog has hurt his tail and had to go to the vet, and then I'm sick. I'm a little angry that all the work I've been doing to loose weight and nothing happens until I get sick. Then a friend points out I gotta look at nsv...so I start trying to find some. Isn't it funny how you can't think of any when you are looking for them? So I'm pldeging to myself...I will start posting my nsv in this journal. And once I'm over this cold, I'll start posting my food journal too.
WOW!! Will Alex B ever stop improving on this site. This is amazing and so much fun.
Jan 16,06 - Just got home from seeing Eye doc. I had some issues come up after I had a dry heave episode while in the hospital after having my band removed in Dec,05. I got a clean bill of health today. HOORAY!!
Eating still on track. Exercise taking a slow start this year due to sciatica having acted up. But it is subsiding now. Getting my water in every day.
Starting to get my jewelry biz off the ground. Wanna check it out? www.pemerridesigns.com
Checking this out...
1-16-06 Had some blood work done today, checking hormone, colestrol, tyroid...I told the doc about my visit with the shrink, he suggested Paxil. Tonight I'll start the stuff and see how it go's
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That was happening to me shortly after surgery and I NEVER had any issues prior. They told me it was due to me not taking my prescribed pills for indigestion. Once I started back that after about 3 days I felt much much better. Hope this helps.
Hi I had my surgery in April 2018 I had a lot of experiences like you. Before my surgery, I used to gulp down some water. That was my favorite drink. Since the surgery it's been really hard to get water down. My doctor said many have that problem because water is heavy. That's one problem I didn't think I would have. I'm not the one who like a lot of artificial sweet drinks. Definitely not drinks with aspartame. I would do some drinks with suraclose. like the zero calorie powerade. It's pretty good and goes down well. I drink teas and coffee as well and add stevia the natural sweetner to try to get in all my liquids. So liquids have gotten better for me after 7 months. Hope it gets better with you
I'm kind of surprised that only about 30% are diagnosed(?) with an ED.
I personally think everyone who needs WLS has severe problems with eating/food - if one wants to call that an eating disorder or not doesn't matter in the end.
My team is so weird. Full liquids are their own thing, and then purees and soft foods are thrown in together. I'm on that stage, which starts with cottage cheese and yogurt and ends with ground meat and soup/chili. The most "advanced" thing I've eaten was a couple (1 and 3/4 :)) of Ikea meatballs, which sat really heavy, but besides those, I'd say I'm around the middle of the list. Very moist tuna salad is fine, as are scrambled eggs (I mean, those settled weird, but I digested them, so I guess they're OK). I'm thinking of trying thin-cut lunch meat next; that sounds really good to me.
All I want in this world is the middle of a cheeseburger--I could let the bread and veggies go; I just want some ground beef, and cheese on it would be excellent--but I know not to push things that far, yet. The reward for going slowly is not getting sick, and that is a very compelling reward. :)