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My Lapband Journal
 

AMAZING aftercare!

February 7th   Today i woke up with the same kind of extreem restrcition that I had yesterday, but worse. Yesterday at noon I had one ounce of milk and burped and gurgles on it for hours. Today I didnt dare drink a thing, then I found I was gurgling and burping (on my saliva obviously) I got scared. I felt I should try to NIP this swelling in the BUD. It was FINE, until my period started and it should be fine after. BUT NOt if I let it swell upon swell upon swell until Its gone too far. NOW, to get a slight unfil, would only cause more swelling and I would end up losing most my fill anyway. So of course I dont want to do that. That already happened in November and I spent ALL THESE months NOT losing any weight and saving money to buy another fill. The way to NIP it in the Bud before it gets out of control... (in case I found my self choking and sliming and spitting on my own saliva, which is ABUSE of my band) Is to take antiinflamitories in huge doses. Seeings how I couldnt even sip water.. I needed it intraveniously. I went to Urgent Care and I told them my story and I got a BIG ol DOSE by needle. Now I have a prescription for HUGE doses to take at night when I am open, to see if it helps the AM swelling!! JUST WHAT I HAVE ALWAYS WANTED!!!!! I WAS SO WORRIED.. I WANTED THIS SO BAD. I though NO one would ever listen, ever care enough.. The doctor was soooooooooo Nice.. He was totally interested, he felt for my port, he asked me a ton of questions, he was very thoughrough.. and SIMPLY, I COULD TELL.. HE CARED. HE wanted me to continue to have success on this thing and he knew I lost 70 pounds (he spoke to my primary care doctor) and He saw some dehydration in my mouth (how, I dunno..I mean some dryness, Not dehydration) and Anyway.. He said COME IN ANYTIME I NEED IT intraveniously!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! Which obviously would be when I am having problems sipping anything.. Which shouldnt be a probelm once my period goes away. I HAVE BEEN SO LUCKY with this aftercare... SO lucky not to be judged and dismissed and not listened to.. SO lucky to have such caring and compassionate doctors.. MY FILL DOCTOR is like not even an hour away.. she just told me to NEVER not come in due to lack of funds if I need a fill.. TO NOT go all those months needed a fill.. she will work with me.. SHE also said if this fill OR any fill isnt enough and I decide I want another one within a week and a half or so.. SHE WILL GIVE ME MORE, NO charge! She also said if the lady who makes the appointments says there are no openings.. TELL her I am coming ANYWAY and JUST COME>. WOW WOW OWWO My own primary care doctor is new to all this, and he is so open to learning and working with me. (he is the one who told me to go to urgent care, cuz it was easier to get the IV that way instead of at his office) He has NEVER failed me.. EVEr Now this Doctor at the Urgent care.. He didnt know much, but so willing to listen and look things up and well .. YEAH.. WOW PLUS, remember in JUNE I had to go to the ER.. cuz I had choked for hours on pills after being filled in Mexicool. and they filled my with antiinflamitories (but it was too late for that) and they used a spinal neddlle and having NEVER done a unfill on a lapband before, they all rallied around and unfilled me.. (on the phone with Ortiz to guide them) ANYWAY I FEEEEL SO AMAZINGLY CARED FOR>. :) :) :) :)
Nykee

Nykee

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Nickysmom's Lap-Band Journal
 

Approval

I called Dr's office yesterday to see if surgery was approved by insurance company. Nibia said yes Oxford approved the surgery and I am to be there at 6:30 am on Valentines day for 8:30 surgery.   Wow, I'm excited and nervous at the same time. I'm scard to be put to sleep again, hat that feeling and throwing up when I wake up. BUT I can't wait to get thinner. Thin no but thinner would be great! I know I will miss the tast of many of my favorite foods. God how am I going to do liquids for 2 weeks???   I know Eric is going to go crazy with me having yet another surgery. I feel bad because he's been through so much with me over the years.
Nickysmom

Nickysmom

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luvlif's Journal
 

2/7 LUVLIF

"Even though you may want to move forward in your life, you may have one foot on the brakes. In order to be free, we must learn how to let go. Release the hurt. Release the fear. Refuse to entertain your old pain. The energy it takes to hang onto the past is holding you back from a new life.   What is it you would let go of today?"   - Mary Manin
luvlif

luvlif

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luvlif's Journal
 

2/7

I LOOK GOOOOOOD!!!!!! TODAY SEAN SAID I LOOK LIKE I LOST WT. AGAIN I SMILED & SAID "YUP" KUTTI HAD TO HEAR IT IN THE NEXT ROOM HE HE HE! WENT HOME 4 LUNCH @ 3.30. HERE I'M BITCHIN' THAT I HAVE NO RESTRIC BUUUT! I HAD TO SLOW DOWN WHILE EATING MY LUNCH & COULD'NT FINISH MY COTTAGE CHEESE HA! THEN, I LOOK @ MY REFLECTION IN THE MIRROR BY THE DOOR, MY SHOULDER BLADES SAID"HELLO!". (I GUESS I SHOULD SHUT UP) THEN I TRIED ON MY BL LEATHER JACKET... IT FITS..I BUTTONED IT UP! B.1 ENG MUFF 100 + CAPONATA 30 = 130 L.3/4C COTTAGE CHEESE 135 + 5 CRACKERS 60+1 SLICE BOLOGNA 20 +1 HOT DOG 50 = 245 = 395 SUMMER IS ONLY 3 MONTHS AWAY!
luvlif

luvlif

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My Lapband Journal
 

NSV Complete list, updated as I go.

Work in Progress   I been using my computer (posting, emails, etc.) from a chair for a month now. I guess I must say I am in a comfortable rocking chair thing with cushions. BUT its UPRIGHT and so am I.. lol   (Oh for those who dont know.. I always had to post from the couch, then later I got this neat lounge chair chaise (spell?) due to pain as I have some back injuries)   I bleached my hair three time in the last two months.. and to rinse it out, I leaned over the tub and rinsed it in the tub facet.   I mean I HAD to cuz I forgot my fancy disabled people shower thingie at my old place. (damn it, that was expensive!)   And it was basically easy. I mean it wasnt easy. But it was WAY WAY WAY easier. Compared to before, it was a SNAP.   I have had to do this before (use the facet) and it has left me in tears. I have had crisis interventions over this in the past. (I have to do my hair like every couple months)   I either couldnt reach the facet it well enough to rinse thouroughly and fried my hair, absolutely could not hold my possition and had to leave the area before I was done, cried alot, needed someone to come with a picher to help me, had to get in the tub and let the bleach run all over my body and ect ect... lol, seems like alot to go through to dye my hair, but thats life ya know.. you do what you gotta do and you dont think about it.. UNTIL NOW when its so different.       I can lay on the couch for more than an hour.   This couch from goodwill..It has two reclyning chairs on the ends.   I couldnt lay on it. It was extremely uncomfortable. (the mechanics inside, undetectable to the normal sized..)   I tried and tried to get a place on this couch because Um I NEED to lay down and I need to be in my living room.   I tried until it was completely clear that in NO way could I use this couch. My family loved it.. Its a pretty cool couch for everone else.   I only had the chaise lounge chair that I could tolerate for semi long periods and it wasnt sufficient. I could only sit on the couch about an hour in its upright possition with the reclyner out. (not quite upright.. lol) And EVERY time I regretted it (pain pain pain)   I had no where to "be" in my own living room if I was "bedridden' that day, I actually had to be in my bed.. and I dont like being isolated like that.   So... My stuff was in storage.. I just got a new place... and GUESS WHAT..   I went to lay on the couch.. and I could. AND I CAN.. I HAVE A PLACE TO BE IN MY OWN LIVING ROOM NOW! WOW   My Watch is loose.   My friend gave me the watch in christmas of 04, she got it fit for me and it fit perfectly. Now its always upside down, dangling and at least three links could be removed. I dangle it everytime I need a pick me up.   I can weigh on a normal scale and the scale at the ymca becasue I am under 350 pounds now. Nuff said.   I had my first Orgasm from a Man, that I didnt have to help one bit. I am 35 and having my first one, unassisted. I thought it would NEVER happen. I was OBESE by age 16 and not sexually educated before that....Three kids by 19 and never did enjoy sex. and it was dead ever since because I felt so crappy about myself.. I almost never even touched myself. I felt so discusted. NO looking even.   This O happened with a good friend who has never done anything wrong to me, who I have been seeing casually for over three years and who I have become increasingly comfortable with. (26 yr old hottie too) Last year on my 34th bday, I was able to have 7 multiple O's with him, (I did it, but it only happened cuz he was there and he was OMG AMAZING)   So.. Its a mixture of my becoming increasingly comfortable with him as well as with myself.. In fact, the whole sex thing was so much better that also made me ready and capible.. This was never due to HIs lack of skill, I know he has the skill, I have known that from our first time. But I was dead and his skills mean nothing if I am dead. I am still in shock.. I mean you go 35 years and your mom and sister and best friends ALL know you have never had an orgasm from a man.. and that last year was my first one with a man at all (assisted) (and I date plenty, and many have tried and tried well) AND now, its not my story anymore.. lol. (I havent even told them yet!)   Sex..Details later..MAYBE, kinda new and feeling too personal.. BUT ITS HUGE.       WORK IN PROGRESS
Nykee

Nykee

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hopefull's Lap-Band Journal
 

Tuesday, Feb 7, 2006

Today I am up a couple of pounds from the water weight gain from salty foods and junk over the weekend. Today I am feeling more in control:clap2: , I hope it lasts., I will try hard. I went grocery shopping and bought my protein. Those out of control, need to push food into my mouth are so intense and sneaky that they are here before you know it. Missed the onset cue. :phanvan AM 3 bites cereal and millk coffee, splenda, cream
hopefull

hopefull

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My Lapband Journal
 

Period. "cuz I can" Reese

ITS MY PERIOD!! YEAH. I got the cramps around 10pm and just now found some pink. So... I am gonna assume its my menstral. Now, I just feel so much better about it all. I dont know for sure, but I have a feeling I can stick to some lower calorie eating for a few days now. I didnt want this Journal to be about all this crap.. BUT, I guess it will be what ever it is... Go with the flow. ............. Tonight I almost went to the coast with my daughter.. she jsut got back today, but had to go back cuz Dono forgot his wallet in her car. I was gonna ride along. But in the end chose not to go. I was debating whether to go, cuz I know it would be painfull and it was a quick trip, not for any certain kind of fun or activity, but I have been bored and it was something to do.. Plus I could stay at my friends house for the night and thats something to do too.. BUt my daughter said "cuz I can" to something I asked her and I acted like I didnt want her company..... Well, that was obviously me using that as a way to justify my social anxiety and sheer lazyness and fear of pain. All of which I HATE allowing to control me. I layed on the couch and watched Southpark all night, helping Cry with her nonexistant family tree and fighting with Ambree to do her chore. I coulda been in bed with my friend feeling all calm and relaxed knowing the ocean was nearby and feeling wonderfully small. I have a date this weekend with Reese. I AM going, no matter what. If I find a way to weasal out, I may as well give it all up and But I am nervous. I think its gonna last Saturday to Monday cuz his work schedule. Well, I will talk about this later.
Nykee

Nykee

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My Lapband Journal
 

Restriction kicking in?

Well, Its 8pm and I am STILL having problems.. sipping tomatoe soup and its sitting in my throat.. ugh.   EITHER its my period a coming, OR the restriciton has "kicked in" like many people have described it doing to them.   I will give it a couple of weeks.. Making sure not to irritate it to the point that It hurts or causing the chest pains. LASt thing I want is an unfill.   But OF course if I get the pain, I WILL get an unfill ...   I am KINDA excited and QUITE frusterated.   I want to lose weight like I did with my last fill.. BUT unlike my last fill, I am not so happy and overjoyed about NOT eating.. They called it the honeymoon period and I thought it was divine majic or something.. lol   I cant imagine I would get an unfill to simply be able to eat.... BUT, I also dont see it as impossible..   OF course.. 25 pounds or so will losen the band anyway.... well thats what happened last time..   MY calories have been averaging 2500, my fat 100 and my carbs 300.. I have GOT to be under that today.. But thats what I thought yesterday. lol   ..........................................   Today we had an appointment with Joe.. and tomarrow is the school and the center. Dawn goes to her thing on wednesday. Lots of changes. I need to turn in my request to MOVE!!!!
Nykee

Nykee

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ReneBean's Journal
 

2/06/06 - Happy Band Day To Me!

Well, at last. The surgery is a done deal. And to my intense gratification, I never felt a moment of embarrassment due to any of the staff at the Surgery Center of Richardson. I felt quite at ease - and at 7am - there just weren't that many spectators - just the lovely staff.   Apparently, it is a miracle that my liver hasn't just given up the goat and stopped functioning. According to Doctor Fox, even after losing 15 lbs on the pre-op diet, my liver was still big, fatty and misshapen. (uh - yeah, just like the rest of me!) So, now, I can move on with the rest of my life as a banded person.   Personal goal: NO PB's!!!   I am sipping some lovely beef consume as I type and I am vowing to myself to do the best I posssibly can to follow the post-op diet to the letter. I can live for 4 days on protein shakes and beef broth, no matter what my brain says. I mean, my BRAIN said I needed a cheeseburger on the way home from the surgery. I can see we are going to have to have some words, my brain and I.   After that, I gradually move into what I would call mushies - but Doc Fox calls "full liquids". I think sugar free pudding and yogurt qualify as mushies...By day 8, I can have mashed potatoes, cream of wheat and bananas. By day 13, I can start with scrambled eggs and baked potatoes. I can survive this, really I can. All I have to do is totally avoid tv or any advertizing for the first week.   The Spirometer is a big old pain - but I guess I will do that, too. I don't want any collapsed lungs or diaphram issues. Well, I have to get up and walk, now...   Sip a little, Walk a little Sip a little, Walk a little SIP SIP SIP Walk a lot, Sip a little more...
ReneBean

ReneBean

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hopefull's Lap-Band Journal
 

Monday 2-6-06

Bad day all around following hectic weekend. Very tired this am. Did not take concerta...Also note to self. Been thinking about TT and when to have it. Did I self sabotage myself today. Had 2 icecream cones, little debbie oatmeal pie....4 little tiny cookies, swig of choc milk...just like old days. Haven't done this in months. I have to wonder why. I have been plateaued for a week or two. HMMMMMMM Terrible Golf ball pain after swigging spaghetti with butter left over in daughters plate. PB'd three or four times. UGH Start over tomorrow. :think :nanahump:
hopefull

hopefull

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luvlif's Journal
 

2/6/06

UGH AUNT FLO SUCKS! B 1 EGG 70 L S CHILLI 220 + 1/2 POT + 5 NUGGETS =645 D ENG MUFFIN 100+ 2 CHEESE 50=795 WATER WALK WEIGHT:phanvan
luvlif

luvlif

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Dawg's Lap-Band Journal
 

2/6

Monday weight was 273 but I am holding this out until my official weigh in. Also saw 272.   I am going to increase my protein. I think I am losing too fast.
dawg

dawg

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My Lapband Journal
 

Less food, same calories. Grrrrrr

FEBUARY 6th So, yesterday I felt like I could hardly eat at all. I never had a meal.   I sipped on milk and broth all day.. and around 6pm I was able to chew and spit some chicken and then I had some applesauce and pop and milk and almonds and candy.   BUt it all added up the same as every other day.. About 2500 calories, 100 grams of fat, 300 carbs...   So I didnt like that. It really goes to show how things can add up.. Like I had chocolate chips, two at a time.. but WOW the calories really added up and I had the smallest amounts of pop and those calories added up too..   Had I left out the pop and chocoalte chips, witch would of been so easy. I might of had a lesser calorie day for once..   Its been 4 days since I been loging my food.. and it seems like two weeks for something..   I think tomarrow I may break down and weigh myself.. I wanted to wait till the 14th but tomarrow I will be in the town that I can weigh on the real accurate scale.   Maybe if I see how far I am from Goal (75 pound of loss by Feb. 14th) than I will kick it in this last week??   I MUST BE 340 POUNDS... I JUST MUST.   I could drop 10 pounds in a week, if I really tried.. BUT whats the use? Just to say I made goal? I would just gain it back anyway.   AS USUAL.. I cant get a fill cuz I am too tight in the AM.   PLUS I am eating around the band anyway I can.. how obvious is that!
Nykee

Nykee

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Julie*'s Journal
 

February 6

This Friday is my pre-op appt and the first day of my 10 day liquid fast. I find myself wanting to enjoy "every last meal" and then find myself thinking that I am being ridiculous. Isn't the goal a new attitude with food? I have only been working on this for years now!   I am so hopeful that the lapband is going to be the thing that finally helps me to get control. I read about others successes and I don't even dare to hope you that soon it will be my turn. I just want to get the show on the road- the anticipation is killing me.
Julie*

Julie*

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vinesqueen's Journal
 

The Band is taking the easy way.

so many of our bansters, our celibrated Rabbits, it really does seem like magic. It has worked almost like magic for my husband, who most definately is a Rabbit.   Something that has me viewing eating as a chore many days MUST BE MAGIC. Something that has given me back my life MUST BE MAGIC. Something that has given me back my husband MUST BE MAGIC.   In many cases the only difference between magic and technology is understanding the science. Since they don't know exactly why the band work, because they only theorize that because of the way the band is place people feel satiated.   This is in some respect the easy way. I mean, I can't even begin to count the number of people who've lost 50, 75, 100, 150, even 200 pounds with the band. For the first time ever for so many people, they have success. THEY HAVE SUCCESS. Not only have they lost the weight, but they have kept it off. They have success. THEY HAVE SUCCESS.   This is from a thread earlier from this evening. http://lapbandtalk.com/showthread.php?t=14566   So, what's so wrong about taking the easy way? Why does it make it better if it's a struggle than if it is easy to lose weight. Is the weight loss less valuable, less worthy of celibration than if every ounce is a struggle like mine? Need to start an entire new thread.
vinesqueen

vinesqueen

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Tattooed TX Mommy's Journal
 

Started exercising today!

Started exercising today with my friend Tara. She came over today and we each did 20 minutes on the bike, 20 minutes on the elliptical machine, 80 crunches on the AB Lounge, free weights for our arms and my Pliates machine. I am going to be sore in the morning but it is going to be worth it. :nanahump:
Kathy473

Kathy473

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My Life Change
 

My first skinny dream...

So last night my dream starts out with my trying to make arrangements for a babysitter. Don't really know why, but I can tell my friends are different, don't know why.:nanahump:   So the dream progresses, we get rid of the kids. My friends leave the house. That is when I catch a glimpse of myself in a mirror(a dream mirror of course).:nanahump:   I put on my new lingerie, my first real lingerie, that won't double for a fishing net.:kiss2:   :shade:DH looks really happy...the rest is x-rated.
mini_me

mini_me

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My Lapband Journal
 

Found NUMA and Mortal Chase!!

I found two long lost videos of my son and my boy on the internet.   I am so happy about that.   Now I got to find the ones of cry and amb..   I write this incase this is the brightest point of my day.   Havent done much thinking yet, cept of food .... it is almost 3pm and I am not open yet.. GRRRRRRRRRRRRRRrr ME want JUICE!! From fitday: Current Weight Your weight is 345 lb as of 02/05/2006.   Weight Goal Your goal is to weigh 315 lb by 02/14/2006   Goal Progress You are currently 30 lb above the target weight.   The deadline for your goal is 9 days (1 weeks, 2 days) away.   To meet your goal you need to lose about 23.33 lb per week.   LOLOLOLOLOLOLOL GOOD LUCK LOLOLOLOLOLOLOL
Nykee

Nykee

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lianna's Journal
 

Feb 5

Superbowl Sunday   breakfast- protein drink lunch- low carb tortilla with ham and skim mozerella rolled up   Will be taking a crockpot of teriaki meatballs to the party later. I figure 3-4 meatballs and something off the veggie tray should do me for supper. The alcohol is a different story. Taking a bottle of Merlot with me, empty calories but oh-so-good.   Yeah right~~~I ate so much crap today. chips and dip, brisket, beans, tortilla chips and guacamole, etc... Gotta getta grip tomorrow.
lianna

lianna

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chameleon's Lap-Band Journal
 

Superbowl Sunday....

Well, Its 10 days till the workshop, I am planning on having my surgery at Cleveland Clinic with Dr. Phillip Shauer. I am probably being too hopeful at this point about being allowed to have the surgery, I still have to be approved by the ins. co. as well as the dr.'s. I guess I passed the preliminary requirements though since they called me back to schedule me for this work shop. It did take some time though since after reviewing my information they also had to get the ok from my oncologist who would not give the go ahead until after my latest set of scans which turned out to be fine (Thank you God:rolleyes: ). I know I meet all of the basic stuff, ie: being at least 100 lbs over ibw...I'm about 135 over, having at least a 5 year history of obesity....try 18 years, having tried numerous commercial and Dr. assisted diets/weight loss programs...well lets see....how big can this journal entry be....started with amphetamines when I was 17 and not even fat, I thought I was but I wasn't at 5'7" and 130 pounds! then did the dexatrim thing that was so popular back in the early 80's. Then the Hilton Head diet (which is actually a pretty good plan if you are disciplined enough to follow it), The whole Susan Powter gamut, (great lady, a little bit of a man hater, but a great motivator),Then Mayo Clinic, Then more dexatrim, then Weight watchers (Great plan for those who enjoy the public rewards and patting ya on the back thing...but really the best plan out there today), Cambridge (yuck yuck and more yuck), Then optifast (Lotsa Money and Lotsa Yuck), Then the grapefruit diet, the cabbage soup diet, More weight watchers, Atkins, South Beach, More weight watchers, Revisited Susan Powter (just for a pick me up and because I was newly divorced and I was also a man hater for a little tiny while and then, because I really love sex and men and being in love, I just evolved into an ex husband hater-pitier), Interspersed in all of these commercial attempts were 3 Hypnosis attempts (Can you say too cynical to let the power of suggestion to be anything but a joke), One 3 month stint with redux (I lost 40 pounds in 3 months and didn't even have to try, of course it was ripped from the shelves after people started to keel over from pulmonary embollisms, and hear valve damage....wouldn't ya know it....the only thing that hs ever ever worked and it has to kill people!!! I am so twisted that I searched and searched for it on the black market even though it was deadly....Such is the power of the promise of weight loss and beauty...it's my heroine), the how can I forget Xenical....Oh Xenical the diarrhea drug...there is something to say about shitting yourself at will, or even not at will...It's lovely to put on a pair of panty hose and just have shit oil dripping outta you like you're a leaky oil pan....no not a pretty picture, I only lasted for about a week with that...I had to be at work every day, I didn't have the luxury of laying in bed all day with a diaper on!, the list goes on....ritalin, trim spa, Dr. Phil, metabolife (before and after ephedrine), and I am sure that I am forgetting another 10 or so. The weight history goes like this: 17 127 19 130 20 151(had my daughter) 23 163 26 178 27 199(had my son) 30 223 32 247 33 207 (redux!) 34 214 35 221 36 223 37 237 (breast cancer) 40 245 41 272 (quit smoking! metastisis of breast cancer to lung)   So...here I am, still alive and healthy except for the cancer which is gone or hiding right now, high cholesterol, and a herniated disk which waxes and wanes. But heres how I see it. Cancer or not I still want to feel good about my body. I may not be a good long term risk for the insurance company to invest in this surgery because I could live for 2 more years or I could live for 40 more years money's on less than 40 granted but whatever it is, I want to hold my head up high and enjoy the rest of my life being active and riding jet skiis with my son and boating and swimming with my husband. I love life and I want to do this so I hope the math doesn't stop them from giving me this chance, cuz if it does, there is no way I can afford it on my own. OK I'm off my soap box and getting ready for the Big Game!!! Go Steelers!:clap2:
chameleon

chameleon

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Confessions of a Nervous Bander
 

Confessions of a Nervous Bander

*~Otherwise known as "Hopeful One Day, Scared The Next"~* :hungry:   Reading through erosion posts, pictures of infections, stories of slippage and removals, I sally forth to my meeting with the Psych doc and nutritionist, with what amounts to this month's rent money in hand to pay for this visit.   I don't take this surgery lightly. I was actually able to have this done by a different surgeon back in the Fall. But I needed more time to make sure I was doing the right thing. Let's be honest, going under the knife to be able to lose weight is a huge step, and a serious one.   I went to a support group meeting of this other surgeon and I was shocked at how quickly and without real research these people went and had this done. I was asking questions that we discuss here in the meeting none of them had a clue about. That shocked me. I guess for some the promise of being thin is enough.   Not me.     Yes, I am terrified of the actual surgery, going under anesthesia. (will I be that 1 in 1000 that won't wake up?) but my fears center more on what is going to happen after the surgery.   Will I heal? Will I become infected? Will I get pneumonia? Will it be freaky because there is a freaking device wrapped around my stomach? Will I become dehydrated?   And farther out: Will I pass out from PBing? Will I have terrible pain in my chest like some people? Will I erode? Will complications from erosion in my stomach kill me?     Emotional: Will I enjoy life without my food? Will I ever be able to enjoy food again? What will life be like without being able to just drink and eat whenever and however like before? What will I do with my time without it being centered on eating and cooking? What will I do with my thoughts and emotions that can't be comforted with food anymore??   So, my first hour is with the nutritionist. I am completely overwhelmed and set on edge by this meeting. If the seriousness of this surgery didn't hit me before, then it did now. I am a vegetarian, so getting protein is going to be paramount. The fact that I will have to be on a low carb diet was not what I expected. As a vegetarian, I eat carbs in beans, whole grains, etc. From the food choices I have, it seemed to me that food enjoyment is really going to be out the window. Yogurt, cottage cheese, tofu, protein drinks. And water. That will be my diet. I was prepared for a change, but not this drastic.   What unsettled me the most was the water bit. I can hold off drinking at meals, but I guzzle water. ALL DAY. I used to be very athletic and I drank and still drink over a gallon of water a day. And I chug it.   When I don't get my gallon in, I feel dehydrated and can actually feel sick. SO this is a real concern for me. I just don't see how I can keep up the levels my body is used to all these years with a sip, sip ,sip sip all day.   So coupled with all that I have written above, and the fact that now I am just waiting on a surgery date has me up at night.   Am I doing the right thing? Will I be doing my body more harm than being fat if something goes wrong?   Anxiety and fear is riding me out. But every once in a while during the day I'll see a woman who is slim and I think "I can be that now. I actually have a chance at achieving that" or see an ad for travel and think "I can vacation now and not be miserable that I am so fat"   But most of all this is about getting healthy again. I can feel my body struggling and getting sick with this weight on, and I'm only going to get bigger because I am a food junkie and I have PCOS.   To be continued.....
NeenBand

NeenBand

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Dawg's Lap-Band Journal
 

2/5/2006

Weigh in day: C. 276.5 N. 274.0 --------- D. -2.5   I need to up my protein a little. I will continue as I have been this week and I will get a new reading. If I have lost greater than 2 pounds I will increase my protein by 32 grams (can o' tuna).
dawg

dawg

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