Less food, same calories. Grrrrrr

FEBUARY 6th

So, yesterday I felt like I could hardly eat at all. I never had a meal.

I sipped on milk and broth all day.. and around 6pm I was able to chew and spit some chicken and then I had some applesauce and pop and milk and almonds and candy.

BUt it all added up the same as every other day.. About 2500 calories, 100 grams of fat, 300 carbs...

So I didnt like that. It really goes to show how things can add up.. Like I had chocolate chips, two at a time.. but WOW the calories really added up and I had the smallest amounts of pop and those calories added up too..

Had I left out the pop and chocoalte chips, witch would of been so easy. I might of had a lesser calorie day for once..

Its been 4 days since I been loging my food.. and it seems like two weeks for something..

I think tomarrow I may break down and weigh myself.. I wanted to wait till the 14th but tomarrow I will be in the town that I can weigh on the real accurate scale.

Maybe if I see how far I am from Goal (75 pound of loss by Feb. 14th) than I will kick it in this last week??

I MUST BE 340 POUNDS... I JUST MUST.

I could drop 10 pounds in a week, if I really tried.. BUT whats the use? Just to say I made goal? I would just gain it back anyway.

AS USUAL.. I cant get a fill cuz I am too tight in the AM.

PLUS I am eating around the band anyway I can.. how obvious is that!