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T-minus 7 hours and counting

I have 7 hours until I have to be at the hospital for my surgery. I am extremely excited and nervous all at the same time. I am a mother of 3 boys dropping them off tonight was one of the hardest things I have ever had to do. On the drive home I started to think what if...what if I don't make it out of surgery tomorrow? What is going to happen with my boys? But I have to think positive. Besides being obese I'm not EXTREMELY unhealthy. I have followed all of the rules, done everything I'm supposed to do. Sitting here hoping for the best! Wish me luck!! Tomorrow is the start of a new life!

mom2phoenix

mom2phoenix

 

Feeling Pretty Good!!

Yep... can you believe it? I'm back! I'm feeling pretty good today - except pretty sore... but no worries - I stuck to the pre-op diet (no problem there.. and totally avoided temptation!!) AND best of all? Just finished with my workout! Yay!! Actually I got up this morning - forced myself out of bed, did some morning stretches to warm up and then jumped on the bike for a bit and went for a little ride.. That definitely woke me up!! However today at work - I noticed I was still a bit sore (even after doing cool down stretches) so of course I was determined to make sure I got some cardio in... I mixed it up though - I just danced.. heh heh...a bit weird right? Yep right here in my living room.. just turned on the music and danced.. and you know what? I had FUN!! and wow was I sweating... I soooo love Pandora's Latin Workout Radio.. that kept me going for a good 30 minutes and even better? I burned a cool 350 calories whoo hoo!! I love that I made the purchase of a heart rate monitor - at least it gives me an idea of what I am burning - and when I need to step it up or slow it down!   I think for this whole 'exercise thing' to work for me - in addition to keeping myself in a routine of my cardio workouts on the bike and the elliptical along with the weights to tone - I think I will have to have some fun too.. and I'm thinking dancing should do it! It was a bit weird for me (as I've never been a GREAT dancer) but hey.. I'm MOVING this body of mine and enjoying every minute of it... pretty cool... found something new...   Anywho - Just wanted to keep the lapband world out there updated.. Thanks again to all of you who keep me inspired!! Toodles!!

beabenitez1978

beabenitez1978

 

I just took the shame out of this choice!

I planned this surgery for a year. I dreamed about it for a lot longer than that. So, when my surgery finally got approved and scheduled, I immediately hid it from almost everyone close to me. No one at my office knows I was sleeved. Only my husband, best friend, 2nd Mom (my mom's best friend.... She stands in for my Mom), and one brother (of five siblings). Everyone else knows the "vague truth" story.... A procedure done to remove some of the fat in my liver and "roto-rooting" to discourage more fat build-up in my otherwise compromised liver. Still.... Sort of the truth. So, what's the big deal? Why am I hesitant to just say, "yeah, I got sleeved to lose weight?" Why is there shame around that? Is it because John Q Public who has always been height-weight proportionate is quick to judge it? It's the easy way out, right? More admiration and respect goes to those who lose weight on their own and keep it off. Right? Somehow, this is cheating?   It's cheating to sacrifice 80% of a vital organ for the REST of my LIFE? It's the easy way out to never get to enjoy a big Thanksgiving meal with my family EVER again? I'm taking a short cut by undergoing general anesthesia and getting punctured - not once - but five times in the gut? It's just a vacation for me knowing my hair is going to fall out and I can only hope it grows back?   Right. Still, I feel the social stigma of the shame that goes with. Today, I've been reflecting on this. And this is the peace I'm making with it.   Society says they admire a person who loses weight "on their own." This includes people using appetite suppressants. An appetite suppressant is just a tool to prop them up, but THEY are the ones doing the HARD work. THEY are having to change their eating habits and choices. They couldn't do it without the appetite suppressant. It is a needed tool to accomplish their ultimate goal - lose weight.   The sleeve IS AN APPETITE SUPPRESSANT. The difference is, IT actually WORKS, and works for the long-term FAR FAR FAR better than any prescription drug that is swallowed. And, I'm not adding chemicals to my body. I'm not forgetting to take it, or changing my mind about taking it, or dealing with unpleasant side effects. I have an appetite suppressant THAT REALLY WORKS! And, after the weight comes off, I won't rebound like most people do who "do it themselves" (according to John Q Public).   So, I am thinking that we Sleevers have a responsibility to TEACH others. We have every right to hold our heads up with pride for being COURAGEOUS ENOUGH to make this lifelong commitment to change a lifelong brainwashing about healthy-eating and healthy-living. I refuse to accept any snide remarks from anyone. I will communicate pity to them for their ignorance and lack of evolving. And, I'll certainly offer to enlighten them on how one should think about their health going into the 21st Century.   Sleeving isn't just giving me my life back. It is SAVING my life. I'm not ashamed of myself. I'm PROUD of me! I found a RELIABLE tool to use to lose weight. The most reliable tool available.   This is the hardest work I've ever loved!
 

A long awaited update.

I haven't posted on this site in so long, nor have I been active on the boards, and it's not only because of finals, papers, projects, and my thesis, but because I feel guilty.   I haven't worked out in over a month. My diet? Completely out the window. I've eaten pasta a few times and potatoes. I got stuck with a giant box of left over candy from a school project and ate a lot of it. The scale went up to 231, but now it's back down to 224. I'm not taking my supplements like I should and I still haven't gotten my blood work done because I haven't been home. My hair loss is still going on but it's not that bad. No one can even notice and some days I can't either.   Recently, I went out drinking, and let's say getting used to the lower body weight and the fact that liquid goes right through your stomach is a nightmare for consuming way too much alcohol and having nothing to throw up. So I learned my lesson the hard way. I shouldn't even be drinking anyway, but I'm young and graduation is around the corner. I just need to limit myself to one or two drinks.   I've been so blessed to be able to have this surgery and I feel like I'm wasting it. I'm so busy with school work, but once it's all over, next week my butt is getting back to the gym and this time it will be for good because my home gym is so much better than my school's gym. I'm more comfortable there!   I really wanted to hit that 50 pound loss for graduation on the 20th this month, but it might be possible the week before graduation to lose a few pounds to get close. I also have my 55 mile bike ride with my dad, and I think it's going to really test me because I'm out of shape again. (Heh, maybe I've never been in shape) but we're taking our time and spreading it out over two days.   So that's what's been going on in my life. I hope everyone is doing well.

castiel

castiel

 

I'm gonna start singing because this fat lady (me), is OVER it!

"It ain't over till the fat lady sings"   So, I think I'll write a song about this struggle and drama and love/hate relationship with food and my experiences with being obese....errr, I'm FAT...then I'll sing it and it'll be OVER. Ha ha ha... well, maybe not.   Maybe I'll change the saying to "It ain't over till the fat lady sleeves!"   There are so many things I can't do, or choose not to do because of my weight. It's like a prison in ways (weighs)..and self-imposed sometimes, other times because of things I can't control.   Some things are just literally impossible to do. Like running, fitting into a roller coaster seat, etc. Other things I won't do because it embarrasses me to do it or I'm afraid of being judged (wearing shorts, having my picture taken) Silly and sad and vain at times, but true.   Singing is one of those things in my life that people say I should do more of. Why don't I?   It's because of my weight. I absolutely LOVE to sing, and I believe I'm pretty good at it. My husband even bought me a guitar last Christmas and I attempted to learn to play it three or four times till it made me cry trying to hold it and play it with nearly no lap and a belly that looks like I'm about 7 months pregnant. Then, of course, I feel guilty because it looks like I didn't totally adore him for buying it for me - he loves me to sing.   Of course, being overweight doesn't prevent me from singing, physically speaking, other than I seem to have more limits on my lung capacity. There is, however, the lack of energy, and being depressed about being unable to lose weight without WLS and be healthy and realizing how it affects my family and my goals and our future... all add up to mean I don't feel much like singing these days. I admit the way I look affects my self acceptance and esteem. What's there to sing about? Yeah, and the occasional pity party.   So, WLS is my "swan song"...lol. I'm gonna be the fat lady singing that my losing battle with FAT is OVER. I'm gonna use this WLS tool to kick the BUTT of obesity in my life!   And, this got me to thinking about all those "little things" and "big things" I will be so very happy to do again, or things that will be different (in a good way), whether it's because of the physical limits, or because I choose not to because of my weight and size and my feelings of guilt and frustration for not keeping myself healthy and fit.   So, the parts of my life or things that will change or improve when I am at my healthy goal weight --- (from 295 to 150-ish)   Energy - Hugs - Clothing - Shoes - Less pain - Marriage - Travel - Sleep - Pictures - Singing - Swelling - Exercise - Activities - Social life - Family get-togethers - Summertime - well, here's some detail...in no particular order and by no means complete:   1. I can walk into a "normal people" department store and find a cute dress that fits me. How happy I will feel... because I will always remember what it was like before, at 300 lbs....   (No more crying in the dressing room, I have to get a bigger size? good grief, how hard it is to move around just to change clothes because I'm sweating and it's a small space and the mirror is mean to me.)   2. I can wear cute shoes. I can wear strappy sandals. I can wear heels. I can put shoes on without holding my breath.   (No more "supportive" shoes for plantar faciitis-hopefully, so no more heel pain and knee pain, hip pain that presently prevent the heels and cute shoes I want to wear)   3. I can sleep.. fall asleep for a nap anywhere... spend the night anywhere. Sleep will be good.   (No more CPAP needed. Sleep Apnea cured.)   4. Climb stairs, walk fast, walk all day shopping   (No more getting totally out of breath to the point I black out or wheezing like I am dying)   5. Fit in things/seats.... - be it plane, train, roller coaster... or restaurant booth, movie theater, desk chair, swing, stadium seat.   (No more fear of breaking a chair, not fitting and being told I'm too heavy, no more pain in chairs that are not big enough for me, no fear of the terribly judgmental looks from passengers on a plane or train as they see me get on - hoping I'm not sitting next to them...uugghh)   6. ENERGY ... Oh my, that one applies to so many areas - or every area of life.   7. Sex ... I'll leave the details unsaid - but this is a priority. It's gonna be better than my present weight allows it to be.   8. Mom & Grandmother things - My grown children are close to marrying age and in serious relationships which means upcoming weddings and not too many years till they'll be having kids, too. The thought of being healthy, energetic and active for the future is great motivation here too.   9. Long life - My husband and I have been married three years this July. It's not our first go-around, and we have a LOT of things to enjoy as we grow together and we want a long, enjoyable future - not one filled with pain, health problems and limitations.   10. I'll SING - I have committed to pursue this talent in a way that will be personally fulfilling and hopefully inspirational. It's not that I can't sing now, while I'm overweight... but I feel as though losing my excess weight will be like a curtain lifting to reveal the "me" I've been all along, but finally I admitted needing help to find again.   So many more... but for now, that's what I'll remind myself of today. This is why the surgery will be worth it. The pain, the challenge, the new habits, the struggles, the day to day choices, the realization and commitment to the lifestyle changes, and the milestones that may come slowly.     Flutterby (it's gotta be what butterflies were really called first... there it goes, fluttering by) and I'm coming out of this cocoon too... soon!

Flutterby

Flutterby

 

May 9th my first Nutritional class

Today is April 30th the last day of month.. May 1st will be here tomorrow. I am looking forward to May 9th my first nutritional class. I am so excited to finally face my journey. I am so happy that I have all kinds of support here. I hope and pray that this will work for me.. as I pray that surgery will work for all of you that are here for the same reason. May 13 will be my physical and then the 20th of May is the big day. Well, I will be back with more news on the 9th of May. In the mean time good luck to all my friends, follow directions, listen to your nurses, and exercise if you can. God Bless you all. Signing off Sheryl

sherylkay

sherylkay

 

Drink more Margaritas

This morning I bought a variety of Crystal light flavors and low and behold, there, on the top shelf, was Margarita flavored Crystal Light. I decided not to buy it but it is a thought for a different flavor.   I am trying to rule out anything I really do not like the taste of before surgery. I have yet to find a protein shake that isn't disgusting to my taste buds. I am going to try isopure next. Wonder where I can find those......   This week is dedicated to trying new clear drinks and other liquids....the best chicken broth, etc.   Once I survive the week of pre-op diet and the first few weeks after surgery diet, I can cope with anything.   Margarita's anyone?   Judy

judysbabies

judysbabies

 

I'm overweight! I'm overweight!

Subtitle: I'm no longer obese! I'm no longer obese! I never in my life thought I'd be so happy to utter these words! I weighed in this morning at 227.0. That calculates to a BMI of 29.9, and I'm no longer considered obese! I was 227.6 yesterday, so I knew it would be a matter of days. In less than 8 short weeks, I've moved from obese to overweight, have cut my blood pressure medication dosage in half, and stopped taking my prescription Prilosec. Next goals: I'm 3 lbs away from losing 50, getting off my BP med completely, and getting off my CPAP machine (AKA the medieval torture device). Another (perhaps less realistic) goal is to lose 7 lbs by May 13. May 13 is my 13th wedding anniversary, and I'd love to get down to the same weight I was then (220). It will be hard, because my weight loss has slowed this past week or so, but I know it's possible.

BigDaddyJoe

BigDaddyJoe

 

Bariatric Class #2 Completed & I Hit My Pre-Op Weight Goal

So yesterday I completed my Bariatric 2 class which was very interesting. We went over the post-op diet, protein and vitamins. I have to say that I'm super excited now; two more nutritionist appointments and I'm done! So all through class I kept wondering if she was going to take our weight. And sure enough, she asked everyone to stay so she could. I was so nervous because I had not been monitoring my weight so I had no clue what the scale was going to say. At my last appointment with her earlier this month I was weighing 297. When she weighed me last night I was at 294, talk about excited. And my goal for pre-op is 295 *doing the happy dance* Now, I just gotta keep losing. I'd like to be 280 before my pre-op diet and hopefully go into surgery weighing 270. I think that's pretty realistic, right?   It doesn't help that one of my clients sent me a box of cookies O_o...I'll just put them out for my co-workers, I feel so good about my loss I don't even want them!

SamG

SamG

 

Back on the wagon

Yep... I was a little off this past couple of weeks... with my mini vacation - and crazy days at work - I wasn't putting in my exercise - nor my proper eating habits.. and the scaled DEFINITELY shows it.. Yes, lets face it.. I am a bit bummed... but I was talking about it with a co-worker of mine, (who is an avid runner) who reminded me that its okay - its going to happen. She reminded me that yes, I had fun, enjoyed my food (waaaay too much) but now its time to get back to my routine - a routine to a better life... and yes body! So that definitely gave me some motivation to get back to basics...   My eating habits have definitely taken a turn for the worst... I wasn't eating much through the day (my band is tighter in the morning) and so I was just 'surviving' on my coffee... and then? You guessed it.. eating not so great foods in the evening... so now? I'm going back to my pre-surgery menu - liquids and low cal stuff.. and of course I've gone back to logging my food and drink.. this is the ONLY way I know I will make significant progress...   I think the eye opener was this weekend when I went to put on my new favorite pair of jeans, and I couldn't comfortably button them!! haven't had that feeling in a long time... I mean what am I supposed to wear - when I got rid of all my really big clothes ( the only thing I kept was my comfy sweats that I wear when i'm just lounging... can't seem to part with those!!) So of course that was another motivator...   Anywho - I am hoping that just by blogging - (though I am not an active blogger by any means) that I can just keep myself motivated... Until next time!

beabenitez1978

beabenitez1978

 

4 days post band replacement surgery

So here I am, 4 days after full band replacement surgery. Feeling weird because I've done this before so I don't really relate to those who have just gotten their bands for the first time, but at the same time, knowing that what I'm going through isn't much different.   S why did I get a band replacement?   Well my band has been leaking for 15 months now, maybe longer. I was first banded in 2008 and had great success with the band, losing all my excess weight and more. In fact the band was so successful for me that I eventually had to make a conscious decision not to lose anymore.   I finally settled on a 'happy' weight of 128lbs and maintained for 3 years before one day feeling almost like something 'popped' in my belly. I was able to eat more for a while before hand but after that day, there wasn't anything I couldn't eat. I felt no restriction. So I took myself off to see my surgeon.   March 2012, I got port replacement surgery. The tubing had an obvious leak in it. All done. Leak sorted. Right?   Wrong. I still couldn't keep any restriction and soon they realised that, yes, I was still losing fluid from my band. This time, in Aug 2012, when I went in for a port replacement though, they didn't find any leak, so they didn't change anything, just sewed me back up.   Fast forward to early 2013. I have given up on my band working. I've gained 37lbs and with diet and exercise, I lose 15lbs of that, but it's annoying me, niggling me, that the band isn't working, so I make an appt to see my dr again.   I've lost fluid from my band. Again.   So after all that, 4 days ago, I finally got a full band replacement. I tossed up the idea of revising to a sleeve but decided to stick with the band because when it works, it works a charm for me.   Right now I'm really sore and sorry for myself. I remember feeling better far more quickly after my initial band op. They also moved my port from my right hand side to the my left hand side so I'm sore in both places now.   I've got some localised swelling but I'm hoping that it's subsiding. In the meantime, I'm having liquids, and have lost 2lbs already in 4 days, though I know enough not to really count those lbs in the long run!   I have a fill in 3 weeks so I'm hoping that I've now rejoined the band life for real.

lellow

lellow

 

That's what I've been saying!

This describes a high pressure system with banding. It's not good for our esophagus. It was published on a competing website, so left off that portion of the link. I also posted a link to his blog, which this is a part.   articles/choice-of-bariatric-procedure-a-philosophy-obtained-in-20-years-of-bariatric-practice-2/ Dr Michael Roslin   http://nwhsurgicalweightloss.org/blog/choice-of-bariatric-procedure-part-1-a-philosophy-obtained-in-20-years-of-bariatric-practice/   Excerpt: Most importantly, the band does not impact any of the hunger signals that we have been able to study. I also question its mechanism of action. The band functions to create a high pressure zone just past the esophagus, the tube that transports food from the mouth to stomach. As the pressure is raised, the esophagus has to work harder. Until the pressure reaches a certain point, the patient feels little restriction. Once too high, the pressure has an adverse impact on the muscular esophagus. This results in patients having heartburn or dysphagia when the band is too tight, and then feeling no restriction when loosened. Proponents of banding believe that there is an ideal point, or green zone. My experience has shown that this exists for some people. For others, the band can be frustrating to both patient and provider.

Baba Wawa

Baba Wawa

 

Tomorrow= One Month Post Op

I can't believe it's been a month already!! Life is so much like normal now. I can eat out, go to parties with no issues, etc. I am down 29 pounds and feel great. I went to a communion yesterday and was able to find enough friendly protein to eat. I think the hardest part this week has been to eat enough! My calorie intake is not high enough so I have hit a plateau. I ate some shredded cheese in between lunch and dinner today, let's see how that works. It's very hard to make yourself eat when you really don't want it .... I guess that's always been my issue though. Does anyone have any snack ideas?

Joy Graz

Joy Graz

 

Waiting on the Calendar...

It has been a ruff couple of weeks. I'm taking this food funeral thing a bit too far, and I've felt like crap and been depressed because of it. I know that the way I feel is because I'm eating the wrong things, not exercising like normal, and the scale is going up.   I'm not sure if others out there are sugar addicts as well (meaning one of something is never enough, and you feel like a junkie when you haven't had sugar...but as soon as you do you are "all good" and can think straight again)....but I am so ready for this surgery. I'm ready for the pain and misery with having to deal with my food addiction in the weeks that follow, and that will be my "come clean" time. When I make it past about 7 days sugar free, I feel "normal" again...happy. But these days I can't seem to make it a day. (And I've been in counseling for 5 months now with no avail.....)   Being that weak and lacking in self control feel so humiliating...but it's truth. I had planned to lose 10 lbs before going to Hawaii in a few weeks, but I feel so powerless right now, that I don't know if I can. I need to get back to "clean eating" even if just for the next two weeks to detox my digestive system (and brain). So starting tomorrow I'm going to.   I hate the way sugar makes me feel. I seriously need this "intervention"....come on June 7th!!!

rebecca_dsu

rebecca_dsu

 

PreSurgery Question

Hello All,   I am new to the site and still in the pre-op process. AS of tomorrow I will have completed all the tests required to submit my packet to my insurance...wish me luck:)   One question I have is what is the average stay overnight in the hospital? I will be having the procedure using DaVinci and have had multiple (4) abdominal surgeries with only one overnight stay (dont like that idea)   If you can provide an idea of the number of nights, I will work to get my head around it. I know we are all different but any advise would be greatly appreciated.   THANKS!!! GG

Gatorgal

Gatorgal

 

Instant Gradification Junkie

I have a serious problem with wanting instant gradification. I think I've always been this way. My mom says patience was never my strong suit. I guess this is way gaining weight was so easy for me. You eat, it taste good, instant grad. Where the calories don't build up to pounds quickly so I don't see the negive consequence so fast.   I went into this surgery knowing that the loss would not be instant, however I did believe I would have lost more by this point (only 55 lbs in 10 months). I did well the first little bit, but then it has taken me 4 months to lose 10 lbs. I worry that I've lost all I will lose, a co-worker has told me over and over that with lapband you only lose 50 to 60 % of your excess body weight, and I am right there.   With exercise I also find it hard to keep on schedule. Due to my desire for instant gradification I find it difficult to say walk, do the elliptical, lift weights for x length of time because I see no result afterwards. Now, I love cutting my grass (I push mow my .28 acre), working in my flowers, even cleaning my kitchen and house because when I am done I can see a difference- instant grad. I know I need a regular exerecise plan, but I am having a really hard time sticking to one. I can go a month maybe two then I slack off due to other obligations that get in the way. Once I don't do it one day it makes it hard to get back at it. The hubs fusses at me for this, but he does the same thing. At one point we were walking the dogs on the trail behind the house every night, but long hours at work rain, we don't do that now.   My eating I think I am doing well with. I am making good choices, eating small portions, and drinking water. I know that limiting my carbs more than I have already done may help me get it down even more, but I worry I wouldn't be able to keep that up long term. I am a meat and potatos girl, always have been.   I think basically I need to suck it up, put on my big girl panties, stop wining and do something!!! I find it easier to cut carbs than I think, I had a much easier time letting go of soda than I thought I would. The exercise may still be an issue, but maybe I will be more apt to do it if I get a gym membership- I don't like to waste money.   I am in contemplative mode right now, the pity party is over, I am planning now to get over this hump. I want to kick my want power into high geer!!   Please any one who want to kick me in the seat of the pants, bring it on. I want to move forward!

Kime-lou

Kime-lou

 

My Fork Is Neptune's Trident

I’m trying a few things to see if I can get my weight down on my own. Not like I haven’t tried a thousand times before but whatever. I measure out my food in increments – 1/4 cup, 1/2 cup, 1 cup etc. I try and eat half of what I’m used too – 1 egg instead of 2 ( or 3), 1 soysage pattie instead of 2; 1 slice of toast or maybe none at all. I use tiny plates, bowls, forks, knives, and spoons. I set my fork down between every single bite, I chew everything at least 30 times, and I try and make sure my meal lasts at least half an hour. It’s all much harder than you would think! Yesterday I made a snack of 3 little peppers cut up and 2 tablespoons of hummus last an hour. Here’s my breakfast today, eaten at 10:30 but I was pretty busy this morning. I also had 2 cups of my favorite coffee. One egg, one Morningstar Farms maple soysage pattie. I didn’t eat the quarter. But I wanted too… It seems to be working. I’ve lost 3.6 lbs since I got home from Florida last Friday night, and I’m down 6.8 lbs since my all time high just a month ago. Sure this sounds good, but I still have so far to go. I know that this is basically how I’ll have to eat if I have the Lap Band surgery. But so far these changes seem to be working better than Weight Watchers ever did. Some weeks I would only lose 1/4 or 1/2 a pound. Ridiculous!

AnonyMouse

AnonyMouse

 

Bariatric Class #2

So today I have my 4th appointment which is my second Bariatric class. I'm excited as this only leaves me with two more sessions before my paperwork is submitted to the board for approval. This process has gone quicker than I thought it would. Oh, and I've also decided to start attending an over eaters anonymous meeting. I never really thought of myself as an over-eater, however, I do eat when I'm bored so I guess that could be considered over-eating. I hope to get to the root of the problem and find some tools that I can use now and after surgery. I don't want to get the surgery and have the same issues that I started with. I have been doing a lot of life planning over the last couple of months and I'm just ready to get everything in order. Although I haven't gotten the surgery yet, just knowing that I'm going to get it has given me a second wind to get things going in the right direction. I'll write another blog to let you know how my class went. I'm not sure what she will cover, but I think it has something to do with the things you can and cannot eat after surgery.

SamG

SamG

 

the dreaded three week stall!

OK so I knew it might happen, but hoped it wouldnt!! it has!! the dreaded 3 week stall, no weight loss for a week now so whats going on?!! I am consuming all my water, protein is up in the 70's i am exercising. Please someone give me some hope that this will end soon?? I have 5 weeks until I go on a cruise and really want to be 14lb down by then!! its very very frustrating (also not constipated!!)   many thanks for any support or advice!

ainsworth1

ainsworth1

 

Update 2 Months Since Surgery

Hi Everyone!   It has been 2 mo since surgery and I wanted to give an update on how I am doing. I find I am not at all hungry as I use to be but I am still eating to relieve stress. I have not had diet soda for over 2 mo. I have kept to a low carb diet. I am drinking water. I am however eating more meals just smaller but spread out over time. I have gone down in my scrub sizes and people comment that my face and tummy look smaller but I am not progressing like I want to. I am starting a food journal tomorrow which I have always resisted to do. In my mind when doing a journal, I always felt I was restricting myself which just made me even hungrier. I am walking again at the gym but I have not started any weight training as my incisions have not healed all the way yet. I feel that will definitely help. I am still glad I did it but need to focus on working out, losing weight and eating less. (Gee... I guess it is just that simple!)   Take care!   Steve

Steve007

Steve007

 

Excited and scared as I am one step closer

I started this journey two years ago with mostly wishes. I had no insurance at that time but I researched every option anyway. I have three grown kids and 6 at home. One of my six is a foster baby. The others range in age from 10 - 17. I have to live to see everyone grown. In order to attain this goal, I had to do something drastic.   I am currently on 3 blood pressure medications, prilosec, 2 anti-depressants, have sleep apnea and moderate limiting arthritis. Most of all, I am too fat. I started putting on the pounds about 25 years ago, just after a complete hysterectomy. Those pounds have stubbornly held on no matter how hard I try to get them off.   I enjoy cooking and eating and sometimes eat for comfort. I am not really an overeater, just not a healthy eater. This is Texas and we fry everything.   I now have insurance and am driving 500 miles round trip to the only surgeon that will take Medicaid in Texas. He and his team are awesome. I have done all of the dieting, studying, tests, procedures and have a "go" from Cardiology, Pulmonology and my surgeon. Now, it is in the hands of Medicaid. They tell me it will be about 2 weeks for an answer. Then, I meet with the doctor one more time to set a date for surgery.   I am soooo excited. I am sooooo scared. My dream is finally coming to pass. What if I don't loose any weight? I will be able to lean over and pick something up off the floor. What if something goes wrong? I will be able to buy clothes from a regular store. What if I miss food too much? I will be able to walk more than two blocks without panting. Where will my comfort come from? (I already have a plan but it is still scary.)   So, here I am my new friends.

judysbabies

judysbabies

 

Tree Work 4/24/2013

I help my husband with his tree business, and today we had our first job of the season. I actually look forward to helping. I really love being outdoors, it’s good exercise, and I like to talk to the homeowners. I would like it better though if I could bend over and do all the walking I have to do if I didn’t feel like I was going to die. It’s hard work, and I am just too fat. Blah. Plus, I get really hot. For some reason, I don’t really sweat. My face just gets super red. Yes that’s about as attractive as it sounds. It would be better if I drank more water, but I never know when my next ‘restroom opportunity’ will be. I could use the owner’s bathroom (they always offer) but I don’t feel that’s professional. Although it’s probably more professional than having an accident in their lawn. Ha! It was a really nice drive. See the windmills in the distance in the photo above? I love them. This is a new facility – it ‘pushes’ natural gas and distributes it. It’s really pretty in person. The job was across the street from a State Park. I thought this sign was funny. Not a huge tree. It was about 60′ but was starting to get rotten in the middle. Not good as it’s right next to the road. The machine of death aka my wood chipper. It’s huge and loud and could suck me in and make Mouse confetti out of me in an instant. I give it a LOT of respect, and have nightmares about it. It chops up big trees whole and I make sure I am always on my guard. I track my calories and exercise on My Fitness Pal, and 7 hours hard labor burned a lot of calories. I’m keeping an eye mostly on protein, as that’s what would be important if and when I have lap band surgery. This day was 58 grams and only 910 calories. I was too busy to eat!   Share this:
 

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