angry and betrayed

[jrmoseley 101]

What an exhausting journey you've had. That you are throwing back the sheets and getting out of bed (most) mornings is a major victory, please don't discount how hard that is.

I've not had my bariatric surgery yet, but I did have a hysterectomy w/ both ovaries out when I was 42 years old, and the best I can say is that it was a miserable experience. Every woman I know who has had a similar surgery will tell you that the recovery time is always much more than expected, and the residual exhaustion as your body struggles to cope with major hormonal changes can be truly debilitating. Mine kicked my clinical depression into high gear.

The only good news is that it doesn't last forever. Be kind to yourself. Just know that it's hard right now, but it won't be hard forever. Surround yourself with support, both emotional and physical. Allow yourself to fall apart occasionally. Have a plan in place for how to put the pieces back together afterward.

Peace be with you.