Venting, Ranting, Raving

[Laya 0]

Hi Everyone,

I just need to vent a bit. This morning I woke up after about only two hours of sleep and had a practical meltdown. I haven't been having the best of recoveries. I had a bad reaction to the anethesia that left me nauseas beyond even the medication and dry heaving for the next five days. I finally had a day without a heave on Monday, but the nausea hasn't gone away. Absolutely EVERYTHING I put in my mouth makes me want to gag. I didn't get fat from eating sweets so all the Protein Shakes are making me sick and I can't seem to get the taste of them out of my mouth no matter what I eat. To top is all off I have nothing but liquid coming out of places of my body liquid isn't supposed to come out of. Then there is the tighness in my chest and the lump in my throat, which the dr. tells me is me feeling the band and once the swelling goes down I hsouldn't feel that anymore. I vascilate between being hungry and wanting to gag at the thought of anything going in my mouth.

I just had a meltdown. I started hating what I had done to myself. I felt like such a failure for not being able to lose weight without this. I lashed out at the person who had been taking care of me since day one. I lashed out at my band angel from my doctor's group. If I could have I would have ripped the entire device out of my body this morning. Everyone keeps telling me, week three you will start to feel better, but here I am at day 9 and the light at the end of the tunnel is DIM DIM DIM!!!!

[zukagirl22 1]

Wow i am so so sorry this has happened to you. Hope this part of your lap band experience is over soon.

[cutiecarol 0]

Hi there! I know whatever i can say to you can be easier said than done! I was banded on April 9th and i had a horrible time in recovery and was actually admitted to the hospital over night. The next couple of days i had changed my Protein Drink about 3-4 times, finally i found one that i like its made just for women and not chalky nor does it leave that nasty taste! Than i got out of that stage and went into solids and thought i had turned in to a bulimic person and throwing up after everything i ate! But trust me it gets better and i think to myself everyday i am so happy that i did this for MYSELf! You say you have failed, actually if you have failed you would not have taken this step to better your health and life! Girl, just think to yourself i can do this!!

[BeefromCalie 0]

cutiecarol,

do share the Protein info please,

[LoriLeeAnne 1]

I understand what you're going through. I was banded 6 days ago and had complications as well. The Dr. said a stitch bled into my stomach and caused a hematoma (filling up the space in my esophagus that Water would be going through), and also had severe swelling to the point that it closed off points of my esophagus. I had gas, and was hiccupping and burping (ouch!). I had to be admitted back into the hospital and connected to an IV for five days until the swelling and hematoma subsided. Last night, I got stuck in the recliner and couldn't get out without pulling and stretching my incision and abs where the port was attached. I started to get teary eyed and wondered what I had done to myself?? I cut myself up for this?? I feel ashamed that I couldn't lose weight on my own, resorted to this, and then feel so much pain right now. I just snoop around these pages to remember why I did this in the first place and try to remember that IT WILL GET BETTER- When I'm down to my goal weight, I'll look back on this last week and feel grateful for the gift I have given myself. It's just getting there.....