Feeling Empowered

I'llsucceed · August 10, 2005

I just got back from the Doctors & recieved my second fill. I got an additional .5cc. So my total is 1.5cc I was really nervous going in because i had been putting it off for awhile. To worried I wouldn't be able to eat enough.

Yeah - how stupid was that- isn't that why we get the band to not eat too much?? But really I was scared of being to tight & not being able to feel full. Anyhow- I am only doing liquid today & tonight so hopefully tomorrow will be better & when I eat I will feel fuller longer. Right now even after pure Protein I am hungry within an hour or so.

I had been gaining & losing the same 3 pounds for the last month. I sure hope this will jump start some weight loss. I also promised myself to start exercising TODAY! But I always seem to disappoint myself. Hopefully if the scale moves just a pound I will be more motivated.

I will say when I was driving home I really felt empowered by the fill. Like I have control of my gut. It felt like when I was a teenager & used to take diet pills. Like I know I won't be has hungry as much as I was before with this much fill. It feels great to have control. I hope it really workd tomorrow when I try solids.

Isn't funny how sometimes we put off getting a fill because we know it may work?? I mean I may actually have to eat less now. I don't know why its so hard to get my brain to let go off the past & big size proportions. Also about always thinking about what I'll eat next.

La_madam · August 10, 2005

I always feel rejuvenated after a fill ,it is like a new beginning a fresh start, gets me motivated again . I hope this fill make a difference for you. Good Luck with it

KarenB · August 10, 2005

Hi Christina, hope your fill helps you find your "sweet spot". Just out of curiosity, does your doc use fluoro? My TJ doc does, & my Long Island fill person doesn't. The both do a great job accessing the port, but she only gives tiny fills here on LI. It's a good thing I paid her for a year's worth of fills, or else I'd be broke by now!

Let us know how the solids go.

lovecats85 · August 10, 2005

Off subject but Karen - you are an inspiration to me! When I look at my numbers and your numbers you are probably the most similar LBT person to me #'s wise. I hope I'm where you're at soon!

I'llsucceed · August 11, 2005

Thanks Michelle & Karen.

No my Doc does not use Flora. He uses a sonagram thingy to locate the exact location of the port.

But today he didn't he just pushed on my belly drew a circle & said your port is so easy to access.

He numbed the area & in one try nailed it like a bull's eye. No muss no fuss.

By the way i couldn't make it through liquids tonight & had a salad w/tuna. I was very careful to chew to I couldn't chew any more. All went fine. Hopefully I won't eat anymore tonight or if I have to I'll do sugar free Jello.

I even went walking tonight!

momof4 · August 11, 2005

Christina -

Good luck with this fill. It doesn't matter that you put it off, all that matters is that you got it! I hope that feeling of empowerment stays with you because we all know we could use that extra help. You're always so encouraging to everyone else, so I just wanted to say Good Luck to you!!! Stay Strong!!:rambo

Tricia H