Butterflies getting the best of me!

MADE IT 2 MY GOAL..OH YEAH · August 10, 2008

Hey everyone. This may be more of a blog thing instead of a thread but I am needing some serious help here. It is now 1 week and 1 day until my surgery date. It's 12:11 a.m. and I can't sleep. I am so nervous right now, that I am just about sick at my stomach.

I want so bad to have this surgery. I look at the before and after pictures of the men and women on here and I can just picture myself thin again. I can see myself a happier person, a better wife, and a better mom. I don't want to be afraid to look in the mirror anymore because I know that when I do, I will feel nothing but disappointment in myself for letting my weight get so out of control.

So what's with the butterflies you may be wondering? Well, basically, I am worried that I wont wake up from the sugery. I have said this before but the only thing worring me is blood clots. Here, I am. Other than my weight, I am healthy. My doctor and his nurse was surprised that I don't have high blood pressure or any other health condition caused by being overweight. I don't drink or do drugs but I do smoke (I know, I should quit and I want to but it is really hard).

I was laying in bed with my husband before getting on the computer to write this and just about broke down crying cause I am so scared. He tells me that I shouldn't worry that everything will be fine. That in a few months I'll be down alot of weight looking for new cloths and running circles around him. But I can't seem to get this fear out of my head. Has anyone else gone through this? I mean it is so bad, I have had thoughts about canceling this surgery, yeah, it's that bad.

Can someone please help me out here? Can someone please say something or do something to calm me down? Is there some kind of test that can be done to make sure I have no markings in my blood for blood clots or what? This is so frustrating, here I am 1 week away from doing something that will make me feel so much better about myself and I'm so nervous that I can't stand it. What's wrong with me?:crying:

poohprecious · August 10, 2008

I was in your shoes last week this time. I was so nervous I wanted to cancel my surgery. I was crying and I kept trying to convince myself that I did not need the surgery. I am healthy as a cow with no problems besides being overweight. You have the pre-surgery jitters...........and it is common but I am here to tell you that you will be fine. My surgery was on Tuesday and it was a piece of cake....all of that worrying for nothing. Someone gave me some great advice the day before my surgery............LET GO AND LET GOD!!! Good luck and I will be praying for you

MADE IT 2 MY GOAL..OH YEAH · August 10, 2008

Thanks alot, I feel a little bit better now. I have my pre-op testing Wednesday, I think I'll ask the nurse for something to help with the nerves.

sirvine89 · August 10, 2008

nothing is wrong with you. i actually have been feeling exactly the same. my surgery is on the 14th. i smoke but i told my doctor that i quit june 10th. BUT..i only had one and a half ciggs in two days!

but im getting nervous..what if i dont wake up or what if i die on the table? my mother doesnt want me getting this because of all the possible side effects..but if that happened..how would i feel because i chose to get this despite what she has said. im just so scared im not going to wake up

tcbeau · August 10, 2008

you need to take a deep breath and remember why you wanted to get this surgery. You know that your health will decline overtime being overweight, it happens to all of us. This is a surgery about regaining your health, the skinny part is a PERK!!!!!!!The surgery is short and blood clots are caused from immobility after surgery. It will be your job to walk, walk, walk. It also helps with the gas too!!!!!!!Best of luck to you and I cant wait to read your post surgery post.

HarleyNana · August 10, 2008

I know exactly how you are feeling, I felt that way before my TT, but as for the band, I couldn't get it done soon enough. The surgery is quick and so is the recovery. Just keep thinking about the new healthier, smaller you!

Good Luck, just think about the positive and keep looking at those before and after pictures.

carletonhoward · August 10, 2008

My surgery is on August 18th. I am nervous to. But I am thinking of the positive things. Not being tired all the time. Evertime I get invited to an event the struggle of what to wear. I want to run with my daughter and teach her the proper choices in food. When I think of those things it makes me want the surgery today.

marynascar · August 10, 2008

Hi All - It is as if you all are in my head. I am having the same exact fears. My lap band surgery is scheduled for August 19 and the thing that terrifies me most is being knocked out with anesthesia. If I could stay awake through it I don't think I would feel this scared. I know the odds of something going wrong are slim but the fear is still there. I had all the blood work-ups and clearance from a cardiologist and this week will get clearance from my primary. I actually get palpitations when I think too hard about it. I also have asthma though and am afraid of having an attack while under. Previous threads say that once you are given the "happy juice" before being knocked out, things are all hunky-dorey. I think maybe we have too much time until our surgeries to think about it. I can't wait till it's just done and over with. Good Luck To All !