I think I have replaced my several unhealthy habits with another. I used to smoke, chug soda like no ones business, binge eat disgusting foods that were no good for me and never exercise. Hence, why I needed surgery... Now, post-op... I have another unhealthy habit... not particularly unhealthy to my body, but to my mind...

Has anyone else experienced themselves being drawn to watching "Mukbangs" or eating shows? I stumbled across these videos when looking up "weight loss" channels... Alot of the channels I found were of morbidly obese people like I, so I subscribed thinking someone was in the middle of or beginning their journeys. Well, they kind of were.. But, they were the type of person I used to be. start a diet, stick with it a few days and give it up and back to old habits. I think we have all been there. Scratch that. I know. Maybe some of us still struggle there. Well, for youtube views there are mobidly obese people who eat LARGE amounts of food for Youtube views, despite all the evil people in comments giving them hate.

The reason I bring this up is because I am obsessed with watching them. I think I watch them solely for the purpose of knowing I will be disgusted. Hoping people never saw me that way when I ate similar to that.. Thinking about how sad that person must be and seeing a little bit of my old self in them. It breaks my heart at times, but makes me rage other times. That they would continue to do this to themselves. and then I feel compassion because I once did it, too. & I think about the hole I was trying to fill and try to figure out what hole they are trying to fill.

I think I need to see someone professional about this. I was just wondering if anyone else has experienced this? If not, what would you do if you did come across something like this and began an unhealthy obsession with watching people self-destruct, knowing it will bring negative feelings to you. Also, is it like a healing thing? Is it something that will keep me in track? I have no idea.. I would love some input.

I think I have replaced my several unhealthy habits with another. I used to smoke, chug soda like no ones business, binge eat disgusting foods that were no good for me and never exercise. Hence, why I needed surgery... Now, post-op... I have another unhealthy habit... not particularly unhealthy to my body, but to my mind...
Has anyone else experienced themselves being drawn to watching "Mukbangs" or eating shows? I stumbled across these videos when looking up "weight loss" channels... Alot of the channels I found were of morbidly obese people like I, so I subscribed thinking someone was in the middle of or beginning their journeys. Well, they kind of were.. But, they were the type of person I used to be. start a diet, stick with it a few days and give it up and back to old habits. I think we have all been there. Scratch that. I know. Maybe some of us still struggle there. Well, for youtube views there are mobidly obese people who eat LARGE amounts of food for Youtube views, despite all the evil people in comments giving them hate.
The reason I bring this up is because I am obsessed with watching them. I think I watch them solely for the purpose of knowing I will be disgusted. Hoping people never saw me that way when I ate similar to that.. Thinking about how sad that person must be and seeing a little bit of my old self in them. It breaks my heart at times, but makes me rage other times. That they would continue to do this to themselves. and then I feel compassion because I once did it, too. & I think about the hole I was trying to fill and try to figure out what hole they are trying to fill.
I think I need to see someone professional about this. I was just wondering if anyone else has experienced this? If not, what would you do if you did come across something like this and began an unhealthy obsession with watching people self-destruct, knowing it will bring negative feelings to you. Also, is it like a healing thing? Is it something that will keep me in track? I have no idea.. I would love some input.

I personally have never seen those videos BUT I have a bad habit of looking in people's carts while at the store. My mother literally had to snap me out of it because I guess I was making a face.

Unfortunately, it is human nature. I think about how not that long ago it was me.

I haven't caught myself doing that.. Then again I have anxiety in stores so I try my best to get in, get what I need & get out.

It's a bad thing that I do. And usually I can catch myself, but I literally catch myself judging and I literally had surgery a little over a month ago and am nowhere near where I'd like to be. I don't even think I'm like thinking of them as a fat person, just someone whom truly can't control themselves

I think that's what it is with me too. Also, I want to give them all this knowledge I have acquired.. But from personal experience I know they will have the same reaction I did and they won't accept until they are ready to on their own time. I just hate that I am so "judge-y" about it. Because I know there were people who were judge-y to me. Congrats on the surgery btw!!! It's an amazing feeling, isn't it??? I am 5 months out, 130 lbs down!!!

I think that's what it is with me too. Also, I want to give them all this knowledge I have acquired.. But from personal experience I know they will have the same reaction I did and they won't accept until they are ready to on their own time. I just hate that I am so "judge-y" about it. Because I know there were people who were judge-y to me. Congrats on the surgery btw!!! It's an amazing feeling, isn't it??? I am 5 months out, 130 lbs down!!!

It really is! I hit the dreaded 3 week stall but today I stepped on the scale and was down 2 pounds! I'm ready for more lol.

I think I have replaced my several unhealthy habits with another. I used to smoke, chug soda like no ones business, binge eat disgusting foods that were no good for me and never exercise. Hence, why I needed surgery... Now, post-op... I have another unhealthy habit... not particularly unhealthy to my body, but to my mind...
Has anyone else experienced themselves being drawn to watching "Mukbangs" or eating shows? I stumbled across these videos when looking up "weight loss" channels... Alot of the channels I found were of morbidly obese people like I, so I subscribed thinking someone was in the middle of or beginning their journeys. Well, they kind of were.. But, they were the type of person I used to be. start a diet, stick with it a few days and give it up and back to old habits. I think we have all been there. Scratch that. I know. Maybe some of us still struggle there. Well, for youtube views there are mobidly obese people who eat LARGE amounts of food for Youtube views, despite all the evil people in comments giving them hate.
The reason I bring this up is because I am obsessed with watching them. I think I watch them solely for the purpose of knowing I will be disgusted. Hoping people never saw me that way when I ate similar to that.. Thinking about how sad that person must be and seeing a little bit of my old self in them. It breaks my heart at times, but makes me rage other times. That they would continue to do this to themselves. and then I feel compassion because I once did it, too. & I think about the hole I was trying to fill and try to figure out what hole they are trying to fill.
I think I need to see someone professional about this. I was just wondering if anyone else has experienced this? If not, what would you do if you did come across something like this and began an unhealthy obsession with watching people self-destruct, knowing it will bring negative feelings to you. Also, is it like a healing thing? Is it something that will keep me in track? I have no idea.. I would love some input.

Not quite the same thing but I watch My 600lb Life every week. I don't 100% know what I get from it, but I do empathize and feel grateful I am not that far gone. Maybe it does help healing. Interesting perspective.

On 4/8/2017 at 1:05 AM, Christina.Rose said:

Not quite the same thing but I watch My 600lb Life every week. I don't 100% know what I get from it, but I do empathize and feel grateful I am not that far gone. Maybe it does help healing. Interesting perspective.

I watch My 600lb Life every week too! I started watching it months before I had surgery. I see some similarities with some of the stories and what I was experiencing, even though I didn't weigh anywhere close to that weight. I could identify with them. After my surgery (mini gastric bypass), I can identify with them more because I understand how hard it is sometimes to stick with the post op diet and not give in to my emotional eating cravings (which I won't, because it's simply not worth it). But I get it now. And like a lot of them, I am successful. But I also get upset with the ones who fight the doctor's plan, don't take responsibility and accountability for their decisions, or just down right refuse to do anything the doctor says. Now that I'm on the losers bench and have to make these decisions for myself, it almost makes me angrier when some of them choose not to follow the rules. It helps me to watch it.

I watch food cooking shows on Facebook ...like I'm never going to make chocolate croissants but I'll watch the video!!

Not quite the same thing but I watch My 600lb Life every week. I don't 100% know what I get from it, but I do empathize and feel grateful I am not that far gone. Maybe it does help healing. Interesting perspective.

That's the same here.. I don't know what I get from it. Like I know how it makes me feel and all kinds of emotions go through me. I'm glad I'm not at my heaviest and also glad I didn't get that far gone. I'm angry that people self-destruct like that but then I stop myself and am like well you were there too. And then I cry happy tears when they have their surgeries. Lol.

I watch My 600lb Life every week too! I started watching it months before I had surgery. I see some similarities with some of the stories and what I was experiencing, even though I didn't weigh anywhere close to that weight. I could identify with them. After my surgery (mini gastric bypass), I can identify with them more because I understand how hard it is sometimes to stick with the post op diet and not give in to my emotional eating cravings (which I won't, because it's simply not worth it). But I get it now. And like a lot of them, I am successful. But I also get upset with the ones who fight the doctor's plan, don't take responsibility and accountability for their decisions, or just down right refuse to do anything the doctor says. Now that I'm on the losers bench and have to make these decisions for myself, it almost makes me angrier when some of them choose not to follow the rules. It helps me to watch it.

Yes!! That's what gets me. Is they seek out the help of a doctor and should by some small measure know what they are getting into. It's the ones who throw tantrums about food that get to me. Once I started my program I tried my very best to stay on my program and yeah I'm not gonna say I didn't fall off the wagon a time or two but they are so quick to just give up sometimes. I was like that at one point too but the surgery in and of itself stopped that I give up attitude. I wanted the surgery so bad that's the only thing that didn't keep me from letting one screw up sabotage my whole process. Used to "diet" and have a slip up and then say to myself, "well you screwed it up. Might as well just keep eating bad". But the surgery gave me a reason not to do that. So I would slip and fall right back in. And still do to this day.

I started watching 600lb life and seeing some of my own bad habits woke me up to the fact that this was my future if I did not take some action. I still watch it now I think as a reminder to keep on track because this is what the alternative is. I have also caught myself looking at how my close friends and family eat and sort of judging them on their bad food choices. I REALLY have to work on that because I don't won't to be that person. You know, the new skinny girl that is Ms. Super-know-it-all about weight loss and fitness. I can't be her, lol

Yes! I'm so obsessed with watching Mukbangs and My 600 pound life...it's so weird!

I don't know. I'm obsessed with watching my 600 pounds life and other weight loss shows. I think it's just a form of not wanting to feel alone in this journey. As long as it is not getting in the way of completing other necessary tasks, don't worry about it too much. I am sure it is just a passing phase. On the other hand, having a professional to talk to is not a bad idea in general.

Honestly now I'm going to have to look up mukbangs.