2 days! I miss coffee

[katieroybal 183]

In 2 days I start the first day of the rest of my life- God that sounds cheesy, doesn’t it? Hahahah.

Seriously though, in 2 days I get sleeved and I’m sitting here kinda freaked out.

At this very moment in time, I’m sitting at a makeshift desk in a command center in AZ starting my 12 hour shift. We are monitoring NCAA events. Mind you, it’s mostly a bore in my section with hours of downtime and only spurts of activities when reports come in for triage. So, lots of time for boredom. Boredom is when I eat. Right now I have my go bag loaded with healthy fruits and Protein Drinks (my doc doesn’t require a liquid diet). Next to me is a guy with bags of delicious salty chips, pretzels and the most delicious smelling coffee. I cut out all caffeine in prep. I swear I can smell coffee from a mile away.

All I can think about is how I want to be separated from this food addiction, from this big ole body, from this constant thinking about food. I know half the battle is in my head but I also know I will do really well with this procedure. The few times I tried diet pills, I did great while on them. My hunger was gone and I had no problem eating low carb and healthy. I lost tons of weight before I stopped and it came back on.

My point is, I’m going to make it through this boring/stressful day without stealing my neighbor’s chips and in 2 days I’m going to get a new chance with a new tool and I’m so very excited.

[MowryRocks 679]

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