Ive done all the pre op testing got approved by insurance and all of a sudden i got this huge wave of doubt. Everything moved so fast i dont think i really took the time to analyze my situation and if this really is THE BEST option. After doing some soul searching i know this isnt for me. Ive lost over 80lbs on my own before. For me its 110% mental and surgery doesnt wont fix my brain. So im going au natural. Its going to be the hardest thing ive ever done in my life but i know i'll be a better person because of it. Good luck to everyone this is a life long battel for most of us whatever it takes for you to be happy just do it!

Little tia

Cw :348 5'4

Gw healthy (170ish)

Edited July 8, 201610 yr by Littletiea

If you did not struggle with this decision, I would be concerned. It is a major life decision and I am always worried when people jump right into it. It takes a long time (at least for me) to mentally prepare for the challenges and the completely different lifestyle changes required for this to be successful and once you come to terms with that you will be successful. Best of luck to you! Please keep us updated! We are rooting for you.

Update...I decided im actually going to go thru with it. I prayed about it and asked God for an answer, all the verses i came across talked about help, and answering of prayer. I know i have fought long and hard i now believe this is a blessing. Im terrified to put in all the work AGAIN just to gain it all back AGAIN i cant take another cycle of that. The definition of insanity is to do the same thing repeatedly and expect a different result. I went threw alot of old photos and FB post and seen a weight loss journey i went on back in 2007 2009 2010 and so on! That was almost 10 years ago! And im actually about 70+lbs heavier then i was then. So F it i have to try something new. I had to tell myself this does not mean im a failure or a quitter im a WINNER for taking control of my life! I know now this is not the easy way out. And im ready already down 20lbs since i started this thread! Lets do it :-)

Little tia

I think you've made a very, very wise choice. Now I encourage you to start or continue with therapy to work though the emotions that drive you to overeat/make poor choices.

Update...I decided im actually going to go thru with it. I prayed about it and asked God for an answer, all the verses i came across talked about help, and answering of prayer. I know i have fought long and hard i now believe this is a blessing. Im terrified to put in all the work AGAIN just to gain it all back AGAIN i cant take another cycle of that. The definition of insanity is to do the same thing repeatedly and expect a different result. I went threw alot of old photos and FB post and seen a weight loss journey i went on back in 2007 2009 2010 and so on! That was almost 10 years ago! And im actually about 70+lbs heavier then i was then. So F it i have to try something new. I had to tell myself this does not mean im a failure or a quitter im a WINNER for taking control of my life! I know now this is not the easy way out. And im ready already down 20lbs since i started this thread! Lets do it :-)

Little tia

I think you've made a very, very wise choice. Now I encourage you to start or continue with therapy to work though the emotions that drive you to overeat/make poor choices.

You know the funny part about that i dont think its emotional at all. There is a book ive been reading called "brain over binge" that talks about how binge eating is a result of years of strict calorie restrictions and dieting. Im not an emotional eater. This book has been really helpful.

Little tia

@ There is definitely a lot of shame and stigma associated with WLS that makes us feel like we are "quitting" or taking the "easy way out". But, like you came to realize, doing the same thing over and over again and expecting different results is the definition of insanity. And there really is nothing "easy" about WLS. It requires just as much commitment, focus, dedication, and lifestyle change as losing weight any other way. The main difference is, it gives us a tool to make that all more realistic.

I am glad you put a lot of thought and careful consideration into your decision. It's not a decision to be made lightly. It will change the rest of your life.

Update*** about 11 days post op BEST thing ive ever done! This has NOT been fun or easy AT flippin all! Its actually harder then i expected. At times i miss my food i used to eat then i remember the aftermath. Without this surgery there is no way in hell i could have kept myself away from all the terrible foods i hate to admit i love. This has been a godsend. I look forward to the future.

@@Pinkberry2

I'm glad to hear everything is good going for you. I can't wait to experience the same!

Update*** about 11 days post op BEST thing ive ever done! This has NOT been fun or easy AT flippin all! Its actually harder then i expected. At times i miss my food i used to eat then i remember the aftermath. Without this surgery there is no way in hell i could have kept myself away from all the terrible foods i hate to admit i love. This has been a godsend. I look forward to the future.

I'm confused! You said yes to surgery after this no to surgery post?

Either way...good for you!!

Update*** about 11 days post op BEST thing ive ever done! This has NOT been fun or easy AT flippin all! Its actually harder then i expected. At times i miss my food i used to eat then i remember the aftermath. Without this surgery there is no way in hell i could have kept myself away from all the terrible foods i hate to admit i love. This has been a godsend. I look forward to the future.

I'm confused! You said yes to surgery after this no to surgery post?

Either way...good for you!!

Yes. Ultimately i decided to go thru with it.

Good for you! Either way. I just got confused.

To me this was a once in a life time opportunity. This surgery is not easy to get paid for not every company covers it. After i made this post i started dieting YET again and realized i was putting my body thru this AGAIN i needed to do something drastic and different. So i opted to go ahead with surgery.

It's a heavy decision to make. It changes the rest of your life in many ways. Like you I have done every diet under the sun. I've been successful at most, but not long term. There was always something missing, I believe it was this tool. Now I'm two days post op, in a bit of pain but still have no doubts I made the right decision. I'm happy for you and even more so that you took the decision seriously. Wishing you the best of luck on your journey.

Update*** about 11 days post op BEST thing ive ever done! This has NOT been fun or easy AT flippin all! Its actually harder then i expected. At times i miss my food i used to eat then i remember the aftermath. Without this surgery there is no way in hell i could have kept myself away from all the terrible foods i hate to admit i love. This has been a godsend. I look forward to the future.

Congratulations! You did it!

Was your gall bladder was taken out at the same time?

Good luck and best wishes with your recovery!

For me, the hardest part were the 1st two weeks, then it got progressively easier and better.

Happy recovery

Update*** about 11 days post op BEST thing ive ever done! This has NOT been fun or easy AT flippin all! Its actually harder then i expected. At times i miss my food i used to eat then i remember the aftermath. Without this surgery there is no way in hell i could have kept myself away from all the terrible foods i hate to admit i love. This has been a godsend. I look forward to the future.

Congratulations! You did it!

Was your gall bladder was taken out at the same time?

Good luck and best wishes with your recovery!

For me, the hardest part were the 1st two weeks, then it got progressively easier and better.

Happy recovery

Thank you :-) yes they took out my gallbladder too I also had a hiatal hernia they repaired. It does seem to be getting easier.

I'm happy for you. I don't think you've made a bad decision.

Congrats @Pinkberry2.