I stayed within my protein/calorie goal this holiday weekend but felt like I was eating a lot. After reflecting, I think it wasn't really a quantity issue but more of an off-routine issue which made me feel less in control.

I asked my fiancé if he thought I was eating too much after we had dinner on Friday at his parents house. They had served lasagna which is not something I would've chosen at home. His response was, "I think you barely eat anything at all. If I had to eat what you eat, I think I'd die."

So even though I felt like maybe I was eating too much, I think maybe it was just that I'm so used to weighing and measuring my food and because I ate an unmeasured portion, I was getting scared that I was pigging out when in reality I wasn't. Had this happened to anyone else?

I feel like I eat "a lot" at times too. I hope it is that I am just adjusting to my new small portions since I still serve everything in a 1/2 cup size bowl or very small plate and I am 10 months out. I'd prefer that my calories be around 800-900 but they are usually 1000-1100 usually though

Yes this happened to me at Thanksgiving because I kind of put a lot on my plate because I was self conscious and then I just pushed the food around. Kind of silly. But also scary because I had no idea whatsoever of the quantity I ate. My MIL is obsessed with what I order at restaurants and she doesn't know about my surgery, so I mostly did this to placate her. I'm glad I'm back to my usual tracking because I felt a little out of control.

There are definitely days when I feel I've eaten a lot, and then I log it and discover I'm still low on calories. Unfortunately the other way around has also been true.

Although I'm getting better at it, I still need to weigh or measure my food. I feel out of control when I can't do that. I also feel out of control if I eat 5-6 things at a meal. It "seems" like a lot even though it might only be a few tbsp of each. I'm hoping this gets easier for us with time.

This is one of the harder things to get used to. I actually spent a few minutes beating myself up over eating 900-ish calories today. And then I had to stop and say WTF to myself…a 900 calorie day is just fine, especially when balanced out over my last 7 days. As a matter of fact, because I'm cleared to start back to exercise later this week, I will probably find that I need to keep it around 900-1000 calories.

I don't know if it's that I don't yet believe this will work, or what. I'm still my own worst enemy here.

I think our heads are definitely playing tricks on us!! I expected a lot of mental/emotional adjustment but this one is weird to me. Glad I'm not alone!

I'm doing it now also.

I know due to TOM I'm eating more carbs but I'm trying to not notice that for a few days. HA

I thought my plate looked over full but couldn't eat it all and I know I measured my food to my 1/2 cup portions.

Our over active brains are a strange thing.

We still have Apple pie in the fridge untouched....I told my husband today that if he doesn't eat what he wants tonight it goes in the trash in the morning. He thankfully understood.