Well, I haven't been on here for awhile. Just as I was about to get insurance approval I was diagnosed with metastatic breast cancer in my hip bone on Jan 23rd after about 2 months of unexplained pain. Yeah...sucks, but it has really made me realize something. All my life I have worried about being fat. Now I worry about living long enough to see my son graduate from High School. I could care less about this extra 120 pounds that I have on me. It used to be 145 but I have lost 22 pounds in the last 8 weeks due to pain meds that make me sick to my stomach so that everything except ginger ale and soda crackers come right back up. I started radiation 2 weeks ago and have had 10 treatments so far. It has shrunk the tumor that had grown through my pelvic bone and was preventing me from walking without extreme pain. I can now walk almost without pain, but only for short periods of time.

I don't want to go on abou this, just wanted to let some of you who read my journal whats going on.

I Love you all and good luck in your quest. I know that God will do what he thinks is best for all of us.

God bless you and keep you, Donna. You can beat this.

Dear Donna,

Your courage and faith is truly inspiring and heart-breaking. I am so sorry you have this pain and fear to face right now. You are so right. I have also wasted too much of my life worrying about my weight. Those kind of thoughts are pretty useless.

I send you hope and prayers to add to that incredible faith of yours. You are never alone!

Donna, I am truly sorry to hear you are faced with this. If you don't already know about it, I wanted to mention that there is a website at http://www.bcmets.org which has a very active mailing list of other women dealing with metastatic breast cancer. The ladies there might have some useful advice and support on how to cope with things like medication effects. Some of them have been living with bone mets for years without any spread to the rest of their bodies, so there is hope.

All my best to you and your family.

You and your family are in my prayers

Donna, I too am so very sorry for your diagnosis - I will keep you in my thoughts and prayers that you will beat this. Thank you for reminding all of us of what is truly important in this world. Take care and keep us posted when you can - we all care and can help you on those down (and up!) days.

So sorry to hear about the return of your cancer. I hope you are doing okay and I hope you can get your lapband at another time. Good luck.

Hi Donna.

I'm sorry to hear about the journey you have to go on.

My thoughts will be with you!

I walk in the Avon Walk in chicago this june - know I'll be thinking of you as I walk.

Donna, you are in my thoughts and my prayers.

You CAN beat this! Yes you can!