I had a meltdown at the gym early this morning (Saturday). I'm on the treadmill listening to music and all of a sudden I started thinking about the surgery on Tuesday and I got so emotional and started crying on the treadmill. I immediately left the gym, drove across the street to this restaurant, ordered a coffee with sweet n low, a cup of grits, 1 bacon and english muffins and I ate it all. Then I went to the grocery store to finish buying all the foods I need for after I come home from the hospital and the liquids I need for the day before surgery.

My 10 day pre-op diet consists of 2 Protein shakes, 2 fruits, tons of Water and 2 healthy choice/smart ones/weight watcher meals per day.

I hope I didnt mess myself up by eating that piece of bacon and the english muffins. I stopped crying once I ate that food. I wonder why did that happen to me like that. It happened so suddenly.

My friend, you're about to undergo a life altering surgery...you're on an emotional roller coaster . Mostly, you're just normal! My crying breakdown was 2 days pre-op when I started imagining what would happen to my son if I died (single mom, dead ex)...drama much? No more breaking diet rules though! You're too close to blow it now! Keep your chin up and keep on rolling, you'll be home and on the road to a healthy you in no time (FYI I was pretty much an emotional mess for 6 weeks post-op, cried easily, sad for no reason, it's the weight loss hormones and anesthesia, and stress, and major life change, etc...at about 6 weeks the fog lifted and I was me again)

HW 312, pre-op (RNY) 255, current weight 204.6

You've been doing fine....I doubt that small meal is going to ruin your progress thus far. Just stay focused from here on out and remember why you started this process. We are going in the same day.....wooohoooo

You will be just fine. The surgeons all have different diets. Mine did not allow any solid food except a small salad once a day. I would have killed for a frozen dinner! LOL. I didn't stick to the diet completely either. I have heard a lot of people that slip up. Just shake it off & do the best you can! Good luck

I had a meltdown at the gym early this morning (Saturday). I'm on the treadmill listening to music and all of a sudden I started thinking about the surgery on Tuesday and I got so emotional and started crying on the treadmill. I immediately left the gym' date=' drove across the street to this restaurant, ordered a coffee with sweet n low, a cup of grits, 1 bacon and english muffins and I ate it all. Then I went to the grocery store to finish buying all the foods I need for after I come home from the hospital and the liquids I need for the day before surgery.

My 10 day pre-op diet consists of 2 Protein shakes, 2 fruits, tons of Water and 2 healthy choice/smart ones/weight watcher meals per day.

I hope I didnt mess myself up by eating that piece of bacon and the english muffins. I stopped crying once I ate that food. I wonder why did that happen to me like that. It happened so suddenly.[/quote']

Well, that's the definition of emotional eating, and I think we can all relate. Just know you can do this, and we've all got your back!

I had a meltdown at the gym early this morning (Saturday). I'm on the treadmill listening to music and all of a sudden I started thinking about the surgery on Tuesday and I got so emotional and started crying on the treadmill. I immediately left the gym' date=' drove across the street to this restaurant, ordered a coffee with sweet n low, a cup of grits, 1 bacon and english muffins and I ate it all. Then I went to the grocery store to finish buying all the foods I need for after I come home from the hospital and the liquids I need for the day before surgery.

My 10 day pre-op diet consists of 2 Protein shakes, 2 fruits, tons of Water and 2 healthy choice/smart ones/weight watcher meals per day.

I hope I didnt mess myself up by eating that piece of bacon and the english muffins. I stopped crying once I ate that food. I wonder why did that happen to me like that. It happened so suddenly.[/quote']

I've struggled some even post op. I haven't always done as well as I should have and I've had to learn tomorrow is a new day. I even went as far as having a breakdown and telling people I loved them just to make sure I'd told them in case I died!! It's emotion for sure!! It's almost here and the emotions run high but u are worth this!! It doesn't always feel easy post op. I've been emotional and had some times of confusion with sadness but overall I feel 100% grateful for this life change. I'm a slow loser and it isn't easy to see other losing by leaps and bounds but its steadily building into a healthier and happier me! Good luck and we are here for u for any help or support u need!!!

I've struggled some even post op. I haven't always done as well as I should have and I've had to learn tomorrow is a new day. I even went as far as having a breakdown and telling people I loved them just to make sure I'd told them in case I died!! It's emotion for sure!! It's almost here and the emotions run high but u are worth this!! It doesn't always feel easy post op. I've been emotional and had some times of confusion with sadness but overall I feel 100% grateful for this life change. I'm a slow loser and it isn't easy to see other losing by leaps and bounds but its steadily building into a healthier and happier me! Good luck and we are here for u for any help or support u need!!!

I wrote letters....didn't have the guts to say it to them felt like an idiot when I came home and saw the envelops laying there :/. Glad no one had to read em!!!!!!

HW 312, pre-op (RNY) 255, current weight 204.6

I wrote letters....didn't have the guts to say it to them felt like an idiot when I came home and saw the envelops laying there :/. Glad no one had to read em!!!!!!

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Omg!! I wrote my son a letter the rest I was telling them on the phone and texting lol they got really scared. One of the PA's I worked for got really nervous and asked did I have an impending sense of doom? I was prepared for the worst but hoping for the best. I have a clotting disorder so I was half prepared even with all the lovenox to have a clot. Thank God I didn't. Now I feel silly but..it's really a high emotion time.

Omg!! I wrote my son a letter the rest I was telling them on the phone and texting lol they got really scared. One of the PA's I worked for got really nervous and asked did I have an impending sense of doom? I was prepared for the worst but hoping for the best. I have a clotting disorder so I was half prepared even with all the lovenox to have a clot. Thank God I didn't. Now I feel silly but..it's really a high emotion time.

Lol, you're the only other person I've seen confess to the 'oh my God what if I die' freak out . Makes me feel better that I'm not the only crazy one out here!!!!

HW 312, pre-op (RNY) 255, current weight 204.6

Lol' date=' you're the only other person I've seen confess to the 'oh my God what if I die' freak out . Makes me feel better that I'm not the only crazy one out here!!!!

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I don't even have a date yet and I already have my letters written to my kids, hubby, mom and brother...sure hope they go unread! I did spend a lot of time on them, though, so I think after the surgery I will stick them in my safe deposit box...

I don't even have a date yet and I already have my letters written to my kids' date=' hubby, mom and brother...sure hope they go unread! I did spend a lot of time on them, though, so I think after the surgery I will stick them in my safe deposit box...

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wow!!! You're prepared!!!!

HW 312, pre-op (RNY) 255, current weight 204.6

Lol' date=' you're the only other person I've seen confess to the 'oh my God what if I die' freak out . Makes me feel better that I'm not the only crazy one out here!!!!

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I told u we would be in trouble in we got together lol I'm always the "lively" one of the Bunch where ever I go. Apparently there's no such thing as TMI with me too I've heard haha

I told u we would be in trouble in we got together lol I'm always the "lively" one of the Bunch where ever I go. Apparently there's no such thing as TMI with me too I've heard haha

Yeah...I have a bad habit of saying whatever comes to mind....I spend all day talking sex, bowel movement, snot, etc, really have lost all boundaries at this point in or out of work

HW 312, pre-op (RNY) 255, current weight 204.6

I didn't write letters but I told everyone I loved them the night before. I also made sure to hold my nieces tight since I knew I wouldn't be able to pick them up like that for a while. My sister was a little irritated because I picked the baby up out of her bassinet after bedtime but oh well. Lol

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Yeah...I have a bad habit of saying whatever comes to mind....I spend all day talking sex' date=' bowel movement, snot, etc, really have lost all boundaries at this point in or out of work

HW 312, pre-op (RNY) 255, current weight 204.6[/quote']

I think the right word for us.."unfiltered" that's what my friend calls it. Thank u for talking about bowel movements lol I thought About it and realized I think I've commented on every single post about poop since I've joined this site my career kinda makes me that way tho. I did also buy these Cookies my mama had told me about they are flaxseed with oatmeal And cranberry and pretty decent tasting. Only like 6grams sugar but omg don't eat more than 2!! I will be shocked if I don't notice some weight loss tomorrow!!!

I didn't write letters but I told everyone I loved them the night before. I also made sure to hold my nieces tight since I knew I wouldn't be able to pick them up like that for a while. My sister was a little irritated because I picked the baby up out of her bassinet after bedtime but oh well. Lol

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That's sweet!!