I struggled so much last night! I could not sleep. I tossed around in bed. I finally got up, ate an apple and some crackers! I asked God to send me a sign if I should do it or not. So far, I just feel it in my heart that I do not want to do it. I will try it on my own. I will try and eat better and excersise. That is the only way I can think of to loose weight. I started the preop diet yesterday and i felt like crap! i felt dizzy; i was at Walmart buying items and i thought i was going to faint. I dont' want to get mal nutrition later.

I don't know. Just real scared and i Just think i will be healthier if i am able to nourish my body with quantiites that are not so tiny.

If I loose 40 pounds, I will be happy: I am 200 right now. so if i loose 40, I will be at 160 and I can live with that.

I kinda feel like a failure for not being brave enough to do this, but the minute that my heart told me not to do it..my heart felt happier! It seemed like my stress level went down.

It took me 10 years to make the decision to have surgery. I went to more info sessions than I knew what to do with. I wish I had been emotionally prepared at 18 to do this instead of having to wait until almost 28- but I'm so glad I waited because looking back I know I wasn't ready to make the commitment back then. Hell, I struggle every single day with the commitment now- but in two short months I've lost 41lbs- that's not something I ever could have done on my own.

You've got to do what's right for you right now. Maybe later on VSG will be the right choice, or maybe something else will come along and that will be the right choice- either way be happy <3

Better, I've had moments exactly like that - I guess for me, the voice in MY head isn't my own - it's the voice of ALL of the ladies and gentlemen who are older on this forum, in their 50s or 60s, who are having the surgery now, saying they sooo wish they'd done it 10 years ago. I am 42, not THAT over weight (obese but not morbid obese and need to lose about 60-70 lbs) and am PERFECTLY HEALTHY. It is very very hard to get my head around the fact that I am CHOOSING to remove over half of my stomach. What keeps me going at this point is "listening to my elders": I'm not sick yet. But in 10 years? I could very possibly have diabetes or high blood pressure or any of those things. For me, this is pre-emptive so that I can hopefully keep this weight off and NOT develop the diseases I watched my other obese family members develop as they aged.

Someone said it perfectly on here: ever seen an overweight, old, healthy person? Nope.

Take your time with this as it's a life changing decision for sure! But know that you are not alone and others feel the same way. I decided a few weeks ago that I was NOT having sx either, went to the store to stock up for Atkins (AGAIN) and broke down, knowing in my heart I'd been there too many times and would fail at dieting again.

So postpone and make sure and when you're ready, you'll do whatever you decide is best for you!!!