****Do not read if you are on your pre-op or post-op diets!****

I hope this doesn't push anyone off the wagon, but I'm just coming down from a great weekend full of fun and food. I don't have a surgery date yet, but I suspect to hear something this week. So in light of my pending pre-op diet, I took the opportunity to enjoy what will likely be my last days of unrestricted eating...for the rest of my life. It helped that it was my daughter's 14th birthday...so I treated her and her friends to a weekend get-away. We had our fill of crablegs, crawfish, potatoes, corn and lots of butter at Calypso buffet inside of Isle of Capri Casino, Lake Charles, LA. To top it off we had an amazing marble cake with butter cream icing and later had dinner at my parents house...barbeque was over flowing!

I truly enjoyed all of the great food, but I'm starting to notice that I already eat a lot less than I normally would, I know it's psychological which gives me more hope about my ability to be successful on this journey. Anyway, I have my fingers crossed that I will have a definite answer on my surgery date this week so I can really mentally prepare for this change.

^{sound fun and most of us had a good bye to junk food gald you enjoyed and hope you hear this week...}

I was like that this past weekend I was eating food that I normally don't eat it was like everything I learned during my decision making went out the window I also went out drinking because I wanted to get wasted for the last time that didn't happen I ended up drinking 55 selects the whole night I had 5 total. I normally have like 8 bud lights and 5 shots when I drink. I agree it was like my mind was psychologically preparing me for what lies ahead.

Don't beat yourself up over it. I think we have all had our "last meal" and thoroughly enjoyed it, nothing to feel bad or,guilty over. It's funny how our eating habits change so much once we're banded and what we once loved to eat doesn't appeal to us anymore. You'll understand what I mean in the near future. I'm glad you had a nice bday with your daughter, her next birthday will probably totally different for you and you won't feel one bit deprived. You can have it all and eat your cake too, the piece is just going to be smaller.