I'm sitting in the parking lot at my work, ready to leave for the day, but in tears. I work in insurance and just spoke with a customer. In high school, I was good friends with his daughter and would go over the house once or twice a week. I asked him if he remembered me...he said he did, and said, you were at my house all the time, of course I remember you! You were always hungry! Just for the record, for anyone that is not aware of my past, I weighed about 125 pounds in high school. But only because my mother really watched what I ate, and had me gping to the gym with her. I would fluctuate 10 lbs up or down based on how much sneak eating I did.

It hurt so bad to hear that from someone, that's what he remembers about me. It really made me sad. I'm so embarassed of what I have become, and what I have allowed something as simple as food to control my life. It just brings up so many emotions that I can't even explain. But I want to thank you guys for being here, because I honestly can't even bring myself to tell my family this happened.

If I had a dollar for everytime I heard, "you've got such a pretty face, if only you'd lose weight." I'd be rich. Too many people don't know when to just shut up. Try not to let it get thebest of you. I'm a work in progree myself and I've come to the realization that no matter who hurts me, I have to keep moving forward. I have to live wth me the rest of my life, not them.

Love you all!!!! We can do this! I had to face this man today, and write an auto policy for his daughter...he came into the office and told a stupid story and we all made fun of him when he left. It felt good!

I'm sorry for what happened *hugs* people sometime don't have that filter from the brain to the mouth, I hear all the time "you carry your weight well" oh well jeez thanks I guess! What the heck is that suppossed to mean???

And in regards to family (esp grandmothers) I think that's the way they are, the last time I saw my grandmother (about 3 years ago) she said to me "boy you paid all that money and you look the same, for what you paid you could've got plastic surgery" um, thanks happy holidays to you as well.

Anyway, you will be looking hot soon I promise!

Honey, you probably WERE hungry all the time if you were at 125 lbs and your mom was monitoring your food intake! I'm sure he didn't mean the comment to be insulting or hurtful, but I understand why it upset you. Try not to let it get you down...keep moving forward towards your new self and don't beat yourself up for being who you are now.

Good luck on your surgery, I am also scheduled for Jan 30. We will have to keep in touch.