Hello everyone, it has been a really long time since I posted but I must say that I was doing quite well until I walked away from the support of this site.

I am writing this because I met many wonderful people through this site and wanted to let my friends here know that I will be on a reality T.V. documentary called, "What's Eating You" on E!, November 3rd. It is about extreme eating disorders and I was one of the people they picked for the show. I have been baned since December of 2007 and had lost 150 pounds (with 100 still to go) but then gained back almost 50. Since starting therapy on the show, I have lost about 25 pounds of the 50 that I gained back.

Unfortunately, I got the band but never worked on why I was overeating in the first place. I have a 14CC band with 12CC's of Fluid in and can't really eat a lot, yet I have learned to eat around the band with slider foods. I never really ate because I was hungry but because I get some sort of emotional release or "high" when I eat. The band has really helped me to control the portion size but unfortunately, I did not use it the right way.

I do believe that without the band, I would have probably been over 500 pounds by now. The band has helped me to be in control, even when I didn't want to be BUT there is a problem when a person GAINS 25 pounds and can only eat 1/4 cup of food at a time.

I was one of the "cash pay" patients that did not receive proper aftercare and I think that has contributed greatly to my demise. I controlled my own fills and did not receive any follow up care about nutrition, etc.

I hope that the episode will help others who are banded not to make the same negative choices that I have made. I am determined to battle my binge disorder and I will overcome it but I just need to deal with the reasons I am binging.

I just autotuned the show! I can't wait to watch it tonite. You're so brave for telling your story so publicly - I hope that doing the show will REALLY be beneficial to you! Looking forward to "getting to know you" this evening on the show

I will watch. You are an inspiration. Stay strong...and HEALTHY! Try not to beat yourself up over past choices; you can only move forward now. I just joined this site last night, and I already feel so welcome and supported. Keep up the good work; YOU can do it!!!!

I just watched the episode, Mona. I'm so glad you're back and track and looking good kid. Thank you for sharing so much personal info about yourself. You inspire and keep it up!

Thank you to everyone who watched the show. I appreciate the support.

I really wanted to watch but had a school concert to go to for my little grandson. Is there a place online I can watch?

you are a beautiful person inside and out Mona!

Mona,

I just watched the show - I think you voiced how a lot of us feel! You did so good and were so brave. Thanks for sharing your story.

One day at a time right?

Mona I think you are brave for doing the show, and I think you have helped many by sharing your story. I was so worried when I saw the doctor tell you that you can rupture your esophagus by throwing up so much. I throw up a few times a day, not because I want to eat more, but because some foods get stuck. I really can't remove any fluid because I only have 2cc's in a 10cc band. My doctor had told me that my unusually ristriction is may be caused by stomach irritation and or the consequence of having my hiatal hernia reparied during surger. I thank you again for sharing your story.

I really wanted to watch but had a school concert to go to for my little grandson. Is there a place online I can watch?

Go to E!.com I just watched some of the clips she sure made me think!

Mona I think you are brave for doing the show, and I think you have helped many by sharing your story. I was so worried when I saw the doctor tell you that you can rupture your esophagus by throwing up so much. I throw up a few times a day, not because I want to eat more, but because some foods get stuck. I really can't remove any fluid because I only have 2cc's in a 10cc band. My doctor had told me that my unusually ristriction is may be caused by stomach irritation and or the consequence of having my hiatal hernia reparied during surger. I thank you again for sharing your story.

Can you give me more info regarding the repair of your hiatal hernia repair and the level of your restriction please. Thank you!

Go to E!.com I just watched some of the clips she sure made me think!

Can you just watch clips, or can you watch the entire show online?

I had a hiatal hernia repair during my surgery. The doctor told me that just a hiatal hernia repair would give me restriction, and on top of that I had the band placed, and then add the 2cc's of fluid to that. He said that all of that together was why I was feeling so much restriction. He explained that no everyone is the same, he said some people with a 10cc band need to have 7cc or 8cc to feel restriction, and others need much less. I guess I am one of those people that don't need much fluid in the band in order to feel restriciton.

Hi Mona. I am writing to you as I am watching you on "What's Eating You?". I just wanted you to know that you are a very strong, courageous, beautiful, amazing woman. I wish you the best!

Mona I just found your post but had watched your episode and didnt know you were a member of LBT.I just wanted to say thank you for putting yourself out there, I know you have and are helping people by doing this show. Those who need support and those who need to be educated on food and eating disorders. I wish you the best in your recovery!

BTW you have an amazing voice!

Hello everyone, it has been a really long time since I posted but I must say that I was doing quite well until I walked away from the support of this site.

I am writing this because I met many wonderful people through this site and wanted to let my friends here know that I will be on a reality T.V. documentary called, "What's Eating You" on E!, November 3rd. It is about extreme eating disorders and I was one of the people they picked for the show. I have been baned since December of 2007 and had lost 150 pounds (with 100 still to go) but then gained back almost 50. Since starting therapy on the show, I have lost about 25 pounds of the 50 that I gained back.

Unfortunately, I got the band but never worked on why I was overeating in the first place. I have a 14CC band with 12CC's of Fluid in and can't really eat a lot, yet I have learned to eat around the band with slider foods. I never really ate because I was hungry but because I get some sort of emotional release or "high" when I eat. The band has really helped me to control the portion size but unfortunately, I did not use it the right way.

I do believe that without the band, I would have probably been over 500 pounds by now. The band has helped me to be in control, even when I didn't want to be BUT there is a problem when a person GAINS 25 pounds and can only eat 1/4 cup of food at a time.

I was one of the "cash pay" patients that did not receive proper aftercare and I think that has contributed greatly to my demise. I controlled my own fills and did not receive any follow up care about nutrition, etc.

I hope that the episode will help others who are banded not to make the same negative choices that I have made. I am determined to battle my binge disorder and I will overcome it but I just need to deal with the reasons I am binging.

I've fought a similar battle. My band and port broke, and I dove right back into the same behavior as pre-surgery.

I have a long road ahead, and luckilly repair surgery is next week.

I'm starting from ground zero. I know we will overcome this addiction.. I have to.

Thanks for sharing your story