Hi everybody. I’m 18 days post op and so far I had one dumping episode because I ate to fast. But other than that, it’s pretty much smooth sailing so far (fingers crossed it continues to be) very thankful for that.
Today I realized more than ever I’m a food addict. And I admit today I’m a food addict. I was in denial. And I always didn’t understand why I went back to eating junk once I tasted it again after a long period of dieting. 🤔 and now today, I wholeheartedly admit I’m an addict!
I promised myself that I will never eat junk food again and drink fizzy sodas.
Once I go back to eating on bite, I will go back for more. Come on, who can eat one bit of a cookie and leave it in the cookie jar??? Nobody!! Why would I kid myself ???
I can’t allow myself to see me slip back in old habits. It’s not worth it, I feel imprisoned in my body, the layers of fat, hiding the real me. Feeling heavy every day, painful ankles cuz of the weight , social isolation and feeling ugly. It’s not worth it for that taste!
Just like any other drug, I have to completely stay away from it and I have to *accept* it.
Trust me , these passed couple of days has been hard with feelings of resentment and self pity. How life is unfair .... even flashbacks of eating junk. Thinking about junk food , even thoughts of sabotaging myself with eating “slider foods” I felt bad.
The gastric bypass was my last ditch effort , I can’t afford it to not succeed.
I hope you guys are doing well on you journey. I hope mine will be successful and stay successful for the rest of my life. Because that’s truly it, it’s a life long battle whether one has to admit or not.
When did you admit to yourself you have a food addiction? And what were the steps you took to overcome them?
Thank you for reading 🙏🏻