Wt 168.8
Weight going down again. I'm doing my cleanse, and it is working! I am eating a little, I had a good salad last night and added a boiled egg to it so I could get more protein. yum.
Exercise - NOTTA, I suck! I didn't even try to get up today. However, I did bring my sneakers to work and I am planning on going down to the gyn and get on the bike for 15 to 20 minuites. I've got to start somewhere.
****UPDATE*****
I went down to the gym at work, I did 15 min on the recumbant bike, I even worked up a little sweat.
I also did 3 sets of 15 on the leg press. My weights were 30, 40, 50lbs
3 sets of 15 on the hamstring seated leg curl - 20lbs each
I will go down again at 3:00 and do the bike again, and maybe add some situps or some type of ab exercise!
I know 15 min on the bike is not much, but I'm trying to just start somewhere, fake it until I make it!
Last night, I'm sitting on my couch, just relaxing. Without thinking I crossed my legg, after I did it, I realized, I can cross my leggs now, comfortablly! Wow!:clap2: Its another NSV for me. I hadn't tried in so long to cross them, or I could cross them and it cut the breath out of me. But now, I feel so feminane when I can cross my leggs. I just had to journal this down.
A new month, a new week, and new focus, new goals!
My husband wants to get back to the gym, so we are going tonight. I also went down to the gym today on break and did 20 min on the elliptical machine.
I'm going to focus on exercise this month! I know I say it all the time, but I really really am trying, I don't know why I do so good for a week then fall off the wagon. I think if my husband gets to the gym, that will help to have a buddy.
wt was up a bit this morning 170.6 grrrrrr
I brought my lunch today, I brought some roasted chicken, i'm headed down to the cafe to get a small tosses salad to go with my chicken.
I also scheduled yet another fill. grrrr. I'm sick of fills, but I'm not giving up until I have my sweet spot. My next fill is next week at 10:00 am. Yay. I can't wait to get a fill and hopefully have my sweet spot. This fill is pretty good, I just think I need a tad more.
Wt 170.6
Exercise - 10:00 am - 20 min on elliptical
3:00 pm - 30 min brisk walk around my building spines a few time.
8:30 pm - upper body workout
30 min on elliptical
Today makes the 3rd day after my surgery. My soreness is still there and I notice it, however, it has gotten better. I was able to get off the couch by myself this morning.
My vision is the only thing really worrying me right now, it is all blurred. I am cutting out the demoral pain meds to see if that will help. I'm supposed to go have a lasik consultation on my eyes in a couple of days, and my vision being so blurred, not sure If I can do it.
I would say my pain level is around a 4 right now, and I notice when I take deep breaths I can feel the air going down, it hurts a bit, but not too bad.
My eating has been minimal. I can only sip a little on the broth, and I'm pretty much living off of sugar free popcicles right now to keep my hydrated. I'm also sipping on my water all thru out the day.
I weighed this morning just for the heck of it, but no more after this morning. My DH & daughter are going to hide the scales from me until 6 weeks is up. Anyhow, my weight this morning was 222.8. So, I'm glad I'm finally losing the surgery weight, I was 3 pounds over when I cam home from the hospital.
Well, I'm off to walk down my hallway to get me a little exercise.
The past 6 to 8 months I've not like posting my weight on my anniversary, as you can see, it has stayed in the same range. Today makes 17 months since my banding. I am still struggling to get my fill just right. I thought my 10th fill would be the perfect amount, but I still believe I need a tad more. I still can eat anything, bread, steak etc. some days are tighter than others, but I find that it is only about 1 week out of the month that I have perfect restriction - and that is during my monthly. sometimes when I ovulate I am tighter, but again, that is just a few days out of the month. I will be going for fill #11 next week, right before my cruise.
I know some might think I'm crazy, but I'm sick of not losing so I don't care if I am tight on the cruise. I don't want to gain on the cruise, I actually would like to lose a few pounds while on the cruise - this will be a first if that happens.
The average weight gain for a cruise is 10 pounds and I've always gained weight while on a cruise. Always, at least 5 lbs, last year, I think I only gained around 3 or 4, I can't remember.
Well, it hurts, but I have to be honest with myself - so here is my weight history since banding......month by month. I am still determined to finish this race by my 2 year anniversary! I want to lose and hit my goal, I will lose and hit my goal! I will not give up and I will not quit until I reach my goal!
Highest weight - 248
1 mo post op - 206.8
2 mo post op - 198
3 mo post op - 193
4 mo post op - 184.2
5 mo post op - 178
6 mo post op – 174
7 mo post op - 178 - went on vacation and ate big (7 day cruise)
8 mo post op - 174
9 mo post op - 170
10 mo post op- 167
11 mo post op - 170 - haven’t even been trying
12 mo post op - 174 - again, not trying. But finally refocused - exactly where I was at 6 mos post op – so basically no weight loss in the past 6 mos
13 mo post op - 183 - Ouch! started taking steroids and made my weight go up, along with not eating right and no exercise!
14 mo post op - 185 - grrrrr
15 mo post op - 180 - weight is finally going down, but inches are actually coming off faster since I've been exercising a lot.
16 mo post op - 178
17 mo post op - 175
Bfast - 3/4 container of SF Yogurt with some granola
snack - 15 almonds
Lunch - 4 wholewheat crackers and somewhere between 1/4 & 1/2 cup of hummus dip
Dinner
Exercise - 15 min on treadmill durring break 3.0 mph, 109 cal, 3% incline, .74 miles -
Water -
Supplements - 1 viactiv multi-Vitamin, 1 liquid B-12
Notes - I went to my regular physician today, I broke the news to her that I had the Lap-Band, I was happy she was supportive and she told me she is thinking about having it done. She looked at my chart and said we show you gained 11 lbs, but then she saw the date of my last visit (over a year ago), I explained to her that I always yo-yod and on my last visit to her I weighed 200 lbs, that was May of 2006, By November 2006 I was up to 248 lbs. Anyhow, I had the Prealbumin (Malabsorption test) done, I won't know the results until Friday, and I will pick them up to take them to my surgeon and discuss a fill on March 1st. I should not have the Malabsorption test since I did not have Bypass, however, my surgeon requires it with all his patients, even lap-band.
Sad note, my great aunt who is 87 years old is dying. She has never been married nor does she have any kids. Matter of fact, she has never even been on a date. So, needless to say, we are her kids/grandkids. So, we've been taking turns to be by her side during the time of passing. Hospice has been called in and they will stop giving her fluids beginning tomorrow, only pain meds under her tongue to help with the pain and keep her comfortable. Anyhow, I know there will be lots of food from the church, family & friends, so I'm trying to get prepared and not cave in to all the goodies. Stressful times and grief always makes me want to eat, I turn to food so I'm working on not turning to food during this time.
Breakfast - 4 oz cottage cheese with 4 tblsp of lc yogurt mixed in (12 grams of protein)
Lunch - grilled chicken (left over from the salad yesterday) and 2 slices of avocado
Snack - string cheese
Dinner - 1 FRIED chicken breast (I took the skin & crust off)
TRUE CONFESSION TIME - I overdosed on girlscout cookies - I'm so mad at myself. I had 5 trefolds (150 calories - 20 g of carbs), and 3 thin mints - about (110 calores - 11 g of carbs), 1 cup of 2% milk - BAD BAD
Water - 50 oz - not enough
Supplements - 2 Therno Dynamx before breakfast, 1 multi vitamin, Liquid B-12
Exercise - NONE
Notes - What in the heck did I do to myself? I feel miserable, I ate way too much tonight, and the cookies did not help at all. Now I am in pain, my port area hurts. I know I have over ate and I WILL NOT do this again. I can't believe I did this to myself. I need a fill - BADLY. And I must deal with my emotions rather than turning to COOKIES (MY weakness is sweets). I'm glad today is over, tomorrow will be a better day!
On the bright side, I had my 6 week follow up appointment with my doctor. He said How well I've been doing on my weight loss, I explained to him, most of my weight loss came from my 1st two weeks, then he said "Oh, well, I guess your not doing too well after all" - He told me I need a fill - duh. So, I'm scheduled for my fill on Tuesday, March 6th at 12:30. I have to fast before my fill. It will be with the radiology dept at the hospital. It will be interesting what my first fill will do for me. I hope I can get back to losing weight. I don't want to gain - I need to lose. I think that is why I turned to cookies tonight. i was feeling so down - but I must learn to deal with my emotions. I have to change my behavior.
Exercise #1 - 25 min on treadmill (would have done 30 min or more, but the darn thing came unplugged and then couldn't get it to work again - so left)
Exercise #2 - LBWO
M1 - SF yogurt mixed with lf cottage cheese
m2 - coffee & cream
m 3 - 3 whole wheat crackers & 3 oz of pink salmon
m 4 - grilled talapia and broccoli sald (the last of it - getting sick of it now - lol)
Notes - I've started tanning and I tried on a shirt I bought last year on clearance for $4.00, it was way too tight on me, but I tried it on, it fit! I'm wearing it today and I feel so good in it! I guess I feel so good becaue I remember how tight it was on me, and now it slips on with ease.
Okay, since my accident, exercise has been pretty much slim pickens'. As I stated in my earlier post, my knee has really flared up again. So I go to my therapist today for my PT, and they took it easy on me because I had a lot of swelling. They ordered me off my knee all weekend.
I wish I could exercise. I'm ready to start another BFL challenge, I know I can do wonders with another challenge. I really miss exercise. I feel like my life is in limbo, I know I can shed these last 20 lbs if I could only kick some butt at the gym. Its just so frustrating. I keep having setbacks with this darn knee.
I'm wondering if this is going to be a life long challenge for me, will I ever be able exercise? Will I ever be the same again? I'm ready to do some dumbbell lunges, to work my booty, I'm ready to do some squats, some hard core cardio, I'm ready to sweat. I just feel so much better about myself when I have exercised.
Okay, just venting today. Sorry if anyone reads and It such a downer. I am just discouraged about my set back. grrrrr.
Okay, todays menu:
Bfast - had some iced coffee from McD's. Just wasn't hungry after drinking it.
Lunch - ate a breakfast burrito, without the flour tortia. Just the eggs out of it, good.
Dinner - grilled chicken (3 oz or less probably) and salad
Suppliments - Quickslim 30, 2 flinstones.
Exercise - not much, did only 10 min on recumbant bike. Taking it easy to help the knee heal.
51 more days until my cruise and a long way to go to get my body in shape :thumbdown:
I had such a good workout last night, I'm convinced that circuit training might be the way to go! I worked my upperbody so hard, I could not even hold my purse last night. I think I burned over 600 calories last night.
Woke up this morning, cramping, bloated and just felt like - crap. Weighed in, even though I didn't want too, felt too fat to even step on the scales....to my surprise, down another pound from last week, even with TOM! So, I was pleased, even though it was only a pound, I'll take it, yes I will, I will take every ounce I lose these days.
Wt - 177.3
Exercise
Circuit training - lower body/elliptical
Well, starting my 10th week of the BFL challenge. It seems the last few weeks I have not been doing very well, I've lost that drive, that MOJO.
So last night I had another talk with myself, and looked at myself naked in the mirror (its a mind game I play with myself at times - lol). I asked, is the way I want to look? Of course the answer is NO, so I got my butt to the gym and was there for 2 hours!
So, I'm back in the game now. The next 3 weeks I will be working my ass off - I'm going to give it 110%!
I am only 33 lbs from goal! I can't believe it, NOW is not the time to slack!
I did pretty good with my food yesterday. I turned down some homemade peanut butter cookies, I felt so empowered when I did. It felt good just to say "no thank you". I walked away from the cookies with a huge smile on my face!
Todays focus - drink water, lots of it. I am not getting enough water in and I think that is causing some bloating problems. So, today, I will focus on WATER.
Menu today
Breakfast
coffee w/cream
mid morning
water at least 8 oz
15 minutes after my water
yogurt w/granola (SF yogurt)
lunch
salad w/cheese & chicken
Dinner
grilled fish
veggies
suppliments - quickslim 30, flinstones
Exercise -
Okay, my weightloss has really slowed down, I weighed 167 this morning. I've only lost 3 lbs this past month, but thats okay, I lost right? I didnt gain. And 3 lbs is making a BIG difference in my size. Peaple are noticing every pound I lose now. Before it took 50 lbs before people started noticing. Inches are falling off quicker than the weight. I'm okay with that too.
Here is how my weight has gone:
Highest weight - 248
1 mo post op - 206.8
2 mo post op - 198
3 mo post op - 193
4 mo post op - 184.2
5 mo post op - 178
6 mo post op - 174
7 mo post op - 178
8 mo post op - 174
9 mo post op - 170
10 mo post op- 167
My activities for Wednesday 7/23/08
I started another BFL challenge on Monday, it is 84 days and I'm hoping it will get me back in the grove of exercising.
Today was the lower body workout, I went to the gym and gave it my all. My knee just wouldn't let me do some of the stuff, and when I felt pain, I had to stop because I didn't want to damage it further. I was afraid pushing myself/my knee/ would cause a set back, so I held off on some of the stuff I wanted to do
Quads - leg presses
Hamstrings - lying leg extentions, straight leg dead lifts
Calfs - calf raises
Abs - ab crunches with 10 lb weights, and inclined sit ups
Menu
bfast - cottage cheese mixed with yogurt
snack - 3 strawberries
lunch - whole wheat tortia, 3 oz chicken breast and hot pace picante sauce
snack - necterine
dinner - 3/4 cup of pinto beans
wt - didn't weigh, trying not to focus on the scales for the next couple of weeks and really focus on feeling better and exercise.
Yay, I did it! I got my happy fat butt up and went to the gym at 5:00 am this morning and did my cardio. Per the BFL challenge, I am to do my cardio 3x's per week first thing in the morning.
So, today was cardio day, I sure didn't want to get up, but I forced myself up and did it. Feels so good to have won this morning! I didn't let my evil twin talk me into staying in bed, lol. Usually I get this little voice in my head and that says "oh, come on, you don't have to get up, you can work out tonight". But this time, I just got up and did it. Yay!
Menu today:
Bfast
cottage cheese mixed with yogurt
Meal 2
hummus (2 TBSP)
carrots/tomatoes
Meal 3
Turkey meatloaf
edamame beans
Meal 4
peach
string cheese
Meal 5
Stuffed Bell Pepper
Wt - Didnt weigh this morning.
Well, I checked into the hospital yesterday at 11:00 am, They finally came to get me for surgery a little after 1:00 pm. But they didn't start on my until around 2.
My blood sugar was really low, and since I had my surgery late in the afternoon, they kept me at the hospital. I was finally realeased the next day at around 7:00 pm CST. I'm glad to be home, however, still haveing quite a bit of soreness. Hopefully this will go away soon.
I weighed the day of my surgery so I could track my weight after surgery. My weight going into surger was 226.0.
I watched the biggest loser show last night, all I can say is WOW. It was the finale, and I just can't believe how these people changed thier lives. They all looked sooooo good. It really inspires me.
After the show, I went to the gym and had a really good workout.
Tomorrow will mark 23 months since banding, and its getting so hard to lose a pound. It takes everything in me to lose a pound. One binge and I'm up 5 lbs. so frustrating. I need to stay focussed to lose the rest of my weight!
Plan today:
Bfast - just had some coffee
Lunch - chicken breast and small spinach salad
Dinner - chili - made with extra lean beef and Venison.
Exercise - 3:00 PM - 20 min on eliptical
9:00 pm - circuit training and working lower body with weights - 1 hour
Wt - 170.6 (down a pound from yesterday)
Breakfast - 1 container of SF Yogurt with granola mixed in
Lunch - 2 chips & salsa, a taco salad (just ate the grilled chicken off of it) and a small portion of quacamole (we went out for lunch to Mexican)
Dinner - 5 little mini sugar free brownies - the new girl scout ones, 1/2 cup of salad, 1/2 cup of popcorn - I know (where is the protein?) Had a bad problem tonight with just putting stuff in my mouth - see notes
Exercise - Treadmill (PM) 50 min, 359 calories, 2.48 miles, speed varied 3.1 to 3.2 mph.
Notes - Didn't weigh this morning:clap2: - I was glad I had enough will power to stay off the scales - I dont ever want to see 200 AGAIN, so I'm waiting until I know I'm down to the 190's before stepping on my scale. Hopefully by Monday I will feel skinny enough to step on them.
Okay - I noticed tonight I was eating every time I turned around, was I hungry NO. I figured out tonight that I must work on this "grazing". I need to not eat just because its "dinner time", but wait until I'm actually hungry I think. I'm not sure why I was eating, I think it was out of boredome, or just the need to put something in my mouth. I will be making a conscious effort to not graze and not just put JUNK in my mouth.
Last night I had a small pig out, I was worried about the scales jumping way up.
I had ham, mashed potatoes, corn, dinner roll and dessert. I was so full I thought I would puke. Even the ham was only 3 oz, and everything I ate was smaller portions, I ate too much. Miserable feeling.
I was worred about stepping on the scales, pre band, I would have gained 3 or 5 pounds in one night, no kidding. But I was only up .3 ounces, scale read 168.1. I was so glad not to see the 170's.
I am hoping to be at 165 by my 10 month band birthday which is 11/18. My goal is to be at 160 by my 11 month band bday, and 155 at my 1 year - 155 is my doctors goal, 145 to 148 is my goal.
I just so happy that I am losing again.
Todays menu
Bfast - Weight smart oatmeal
Lunch - lean ground beef with diced tomatoes, onions.
Dinner - 3 oz of ham, salad
Supplements - 2 multi flinstones vitamins, 1 quickslim-30
Exercise - 2 session of 10 min on recumbant bike - still working on my knee, it really hurts lately.
I weighed this morning at 179.6 YAY! I now weight LESS than my husband (he weighs 181).
I still can't believe I saw 179 on the scales - but I did!
This weekend is a busy weeked, I'm attending a convention with my church, it was all day yesterday, and all day today and tomorrow, but I love seeing all my friends there.
I've been eating good healthy foods, and exercising so its paying off. I just don't want it to end! I want to get to my goal within a year of 145, but if I don't I will still be happy because I've already almost lost 70 lbs! In about 6 months!
Fear of losing the weightloss battle - author unknown
You won't lose the battle if you are willing to work with the band and do your part. But I can almost guarantee:
You will have plateaus when you first switch to solids until your body gets used to being fed instead of starved (most likely one-two weeks but could be three like mine.)
During many plateaus you will lose inches not pounds and then finally a larger loss.
Your loss in the first 30-40 days is a "never to be repeated" experience so enjoy it. Then you begin the long slow journey downward.
You will learn the fine art of "PBs" and what causes them for you, it is swallowing air when you eat. Eating too fast....NOT chewing well or too big of a bite. Eating the wrong food for you...and not recognizing the "no longer hungry" after 1/2 cup (satiation) versus an "I WANT TO EAT MORE CAUSE I CAN or IT TASTES GOOD" or I crave it [head hunger].
You will watch your body shrink and will walk a bit taller-literally- and figuratively...start slipping into booths in restaurants. Sit in chairs with arms, stop worrying about how strong the chairs are, not having to ask for an extender belt on airlines. Finding it easier to, and you have more energy to walk/go up stairs. Clean house and do a million other day to day activities. Slip in and out of bath tubs where the water goes all the way around you instead of damming up and it doesn't kill you to stand up from sitting on the floor. Watch the years fall off your face and drivers license picture...got to a restaurant and order an appetizer and still end up with leftovers to take home.
Go through doubts and several fills/unfills until you hit the "sweet spot" fill level for you.
You will have to stop several times along the way to reassess your eating habits (I could eat certain foods and get away with some cheating a bit quantity wise at 359 and still lose...that had to go at 250).
I have also found that I have to keep reminding myself 1/2 cup of solids three times a day--only--and drink my water (1 hour after meals until the next meal but not with meals).
Eat protein first...fruit and veggies second, and non-complex carbs last. (Keep the fats, sugars, and non-complex carbs low...still have them but keep them low).
And believe it or NOT a plateau that indicates that you need a fill is:
1. No weight loss for four weeks.
2. You are following all the band rules (8 out of 10 of us want to be able to break the rules and still lose figuring if we get a fill it will miraculously start us losing without us having to do our parts).
3. You are hungry an hour after eating (really hungry not cravings) and the 1/2 cup doesn't stay in the band for 2 1/2 to 4 hours.
4. You are drinking 60+ ounces of water a day and not drinking with your meal or for at least an hour after.
5. Once you move from mushy to solids--as much as possible get your nourishment from food that is solid. If you have problems with it sticking in your stoma, try it again chewing it well. Cut it up finer or chew it with other foods to keep it from recombining in your pouch and forming a plug (i.e. potatoes).
6. Try to avoid soups and/or protein drinks if possible (if you are able to eat your protein you will be full longer--some people have tight bands in the morning and can't eat so have a protein drink).
7. Whenever you hit a plateau, keep a diary and log everything, including water, which goes in and measure your 1/2 cup of solids. (Mine grew twice from 1/2 a cup to almost a full cup without noticing).
8. Try weighing in once a week to begin with, not daily. Later move to once every two weeks or once a month. When you are losing slowly, weight fluctuates daily with hydration levels, etc. At least this way you normally will see a loss and not a fluctuation or gain. Yes the loss is smaller but they are down not up.
9. Measure yourself monthly, often you lose inches before you lose pounds.
10. Don't compare yourself to others. We all lose at different rates based on age/metabolism/food choices/activity level...but we can all
Well, my restriction is staying pretty good. I have loose days, and I have tighter days. It even changes from meal to meal. Some mornings, I just stick with oatmeal, this morning, I woke up starving, so had to eggs over medium and 2 slices of bacon. Normally, I would only eat 1 egg.
Last night I noticed I was hungry and very lose around 7pm, but then around 9, got very tight again. Strange. But its something I've learned to accept and deal with.
Eating has been going great, sticking with my proteins first, exercise, not so good. I know what I need to do, so just need to quit making excuses and DO IT! As Nike says "Just Do It".
Menu today:
Bfast
2 eggs, 2 slices of bacon
Lunch:
baked chicken - 3 oz
few carrot sticks
Snack:
yogurt
Dinner
fish - baked
green beans
Went shopping today (spent way too much money) but it sure felt good to pull a size 10 and 12 off the rack and they fit.
I bought me two new pairs of jeans, very cool jeans I might add, at a hip store in the mall. I felt like a million dollars when I was able to wear a pair. I loved buying them and walking out of the store with a bag in my hand. In makes me feell like I've finally made it. Even though I'm not were I want to be, I'm moving closer and closer every day.
I am sooooo close to getting out of the 170's, I just cannot wait!
Anyhow, gotta run.
Wt this morning 172.7:thumbup:
I didn't weigh this morning, I'm trying not to look at the scale except for 1 x per week. I also didn't get up to exercise, it was raining hard this morning and I just didn't feel like dealing with it.
Menu today
Breakfast
weight control oatmeal
coffee with cream
lunch
taco soup
snack
string cheese
1/2 piece of sausage link
dinner
sf jello
turkey breast
Sometimes being a woman is just hard! I'm not sure what in the world is going on but 2 weeks ago on the 7th, I got my visit from TOM, which was 10 days early! Now, two weeks later, I get it a gain. This makes two visits in 1 month! I hate that. Heck, no wonder I can't lose weight. I keep having my monthly which bloats me up. No wonder my cravings are so intense. It all makes sense now.
Its frustrating but what can I do about it. I've got horrible cramps today too. No wonder I felt so wide open this past week. I think I might get on the b/c pill just to regulate me, but I sure don't want to gain weight with b/c pills.
