out of control

[want_so_bad 0]

first off i want to say i know this is similiar to the thread "the "voice" is back". i didnt know if i should post this there or start my own, so i started my own just in case.

i have another fill scheduled, but its not for a couple weeks. i am just out of control. i cant stop snacking.

i tell myself stop! no more. and i throw whatever it is away. but then, shortly after i find something else in my hand on its way to my mouth! it is driving me nuts.

i feel hungry all the time, even though i know i am not. i had a hysterectomy in october. i am now on replacement hormones. would/could these be having an effect? i am also on an antidepressant. it used to be if i forgot to take it i could tell because i would want to eat everything in sight. maybe it needs adjusted now too?

this is all so frustrating and upsetting. i was a slow loser, but at least i was a loser. now i am a fast gainer. and its making me more upset and frustrated which in turn makes me want to eat more...its a bad cycle i have fallen back into. and on top of that my back is killing me again. is that from the regain too? i dont know! but i know by the time i get home from work i can barely move some nights. and then its take care of the kids-dinner, boxing practice, baths-i just have no energy. i collapse on the couch when i get the baby into bed! my house is a mess, i am not cleaning like i should. i barely exercise anymore. and i know all this is part of if not the problem with my weight gain. but what do i do? instead of getting up and doing something i sit and whine.

i have an appt for the regular doctor this thursday to see about adjusting my meds. i hope that will help.

anyone with any advice please please respond. even if its a kick in the butt, i need that too!

Edited January 13, 2009 by want_so_bad

[babbs3772 1]

Wow, it sounds like you have a lot going in your life.

I do wonder about the antidepressant because the first thing I thought of was wow, that would sure mess up my emotions and hormones sending me for a loop.

Good luck to you and take good care of yourself, I imagine you are still healing after that surgery and you just need some tlc time for yourself I will think good thoughts for you, Barbie