I feel the need more than ever to binge. I used to do drivethrus, McD's then BK, then TB.... all within an hour of each other.

That's how I got fat.

Now, I'm on maintenance and my niece is in the hospital this very instance, fully dialated now...pushing.

Just spoke to my mother, she stopped breathing and help is on the way. (she's been on hospice a while now and it's no shocker it's happening...but now? Today?)

Don't want to sound selfish...but I'm at closest 10 hours away by plane or 2 days drive to BOTH my niece and mother....they both reside in states on the east coast.

What to do? I want to eat...

Im so so so sorry I know this difficult Ive been were you are before. The first thing is to breath. food isnt going to make you feel better.

Are you waiting by the phone? Can you get outside with a cell and walk around the block?

I feel the need more than ever to binge. I used to do drivethrus, McD's then BK, then TB.... all within an hour of each other.

That's how I got fat.

Now, I'm on maintenance and my niece is in the hospital this very instance, fully dialated now...pushing.

Just spoke to my mother, she stopped breathing and help is on the way. (she's been on hospice a while now and it's no shocker it's happening...but now? Today?)

Don't want to sound selfish...but I'm at closest 10 hours away by plane or 2 days drive to BOTH my niece and mother....they both reside in states on the east coast.

What to do? I want to eat...

*big hug* Im not sure if I understand right but are you trying to decide if you go to either and if so which? If you can afford to make the trip I personally would go to say good bye rather than to say hello, there will be plenty of other chances to meet the new baby. Sorry to hear about your mom.

Sorry to hear about your mom. I agree with Ang, if it were me, I would go to my mom, and later meet the baby... My Thoughts and Prayers ae with you

Hi, thanks so much for your thoughts and prayers.

I couldn't go now, even if I wanted to, I am a single mom of three...2 in college- but young.

If, when Mother passes, we already have the 'plan' on what to do, who calls who.... bag w/ funeral dresses is packed...I text my kids and they have 1 hour to email all their professors and get to a certain location for pickup.

My thing was....the stress.... I wanted to stuff my face so badly. And hate to say it, I did. I ate a hotdog, well, half of one, some tots, soda, candy. I was a nervous wreck.

Fortunately, the band had my back and wouldn't let me eat all that mess.

Being banded is a lifestyle, and I usually don't call on my band but it's nice to know it's there when I need it.

Mother was given oxygen and put on bedrest. DNR is her code. Do not reccusitate- however you spell it.

The baby is a girl, 8 pounds.

What a day. I'm going to bed - it's 7pm. But I think I deserve some good rest!

Grace Utah, I will be praying for everyone, including the baby. My mom is in the hospital with congestive heart failure and pneumonia. Your family is in my prayers. don't think of food, think of how good you look and how far you came, nothing tastes as good as skinny feels.

I'm so sorry to hear this. I'm sending some get well wishes!

Sorry about your mother Grace, and congratulations on the new baby.

Just keep in mind, food isn't going to help anyone.