yup, i am about 70-80 pounds from my first huge goal (180/190 lbs) and i have a PS consult tomorrow. i actually completely forgot about it with everything going on until they called to confirm.

i have the appointment for arms and LBL. hopefully he will say "i can do the arms now" and give me a goal to hit for a LBL. dont think i will go with this guy though - no insurance whatsoever... how discouraging... i dont even know if my insurance will help me out, but it would be nice to be able to go to someone who accepts insurance.

here we go ..

unfill went fine, im completely unfilled now.

looks like we're going to postpone the surgery due to higher blood count levels...

im ok with it though... really... i am .... honest

LJM, I'm so disappointed for you, you're handling it so well, but like I mentioned before, if it wasn't going to cost me so much to cancel, I know I would have, but of course, now I'm glad I didn't.

Hugs, please let us know what's up.

unfill went fine, im completely unfilled now.

looks like we're going to postpone the surgery due to higher blood count levels...

im ok with it though... really... i am .... honest

OH NO! I am so sorry hunny. I am glad though they are being on the safe side and making sure you are ok before surgery. We couldn't live without you hear, so better safe than sorry!

I do know exactly how you feel, and it sucks. I am here if you need me!

HUGS!! WE LOVE YOU!! :cheers2:

ok... long story (details are posted on my blog - dont feel like retyping or posting here for that matter)... its long and depressing.

still uncertain on what im going to do.

LJM,

HUGE hug to you, I can't begin to imagine how confused/frustrated/upset/unsure/host of other emotions you must be feeling right now.

You just have to take a little bit and figure out what's best to do for you and for your family.

Sending you tons of virtual love and virtual chocolate chip cookies and virtual tequila if that's possible. (self medication works for me sometimes :wub:

faith,

yes, again ... fun stuff. :wub:

and who said anything about virtual chocolate??? :tt2:

i think im going to go forward with the plastics... not 100% sure though.

LJM,

Sorry you're going through this, ((HUGS))

I am so sorry! I just read your blog. My heart and my love goes out to you. Big big hugs.....I wish I could help you!

LJM - my heart goes out for you. I can't imagine the roller coaster of emotions you are going through right now.

Very Sorry ~ Hope you find comfort knowing your a real inspiration here, good thoughts going your way:)

Losing,I just read your blog, and it's unimaginable what you're going through. But just as you said, everything happens for a reason, even if we don't know what that reason might be. My heart broke for you when I read what you've been dealing with.

Know that you are in my prayers as you weigh this difficult decision. You have a good head on your shoulders, and you'll make the best decision for you when you're ready to decide how to proceed.

You're in our thoughts, you and hubby both....big hugs!

ljm, know that whatever you chose to do is the right decision for you and that we are all behind you. you are a great inspiration and so generous for sharing your blog with us. your journey has been amazing.

*hugest hugs* You and your family are in my thoughts. Take all the time you need to make the right decision for YOU.

**sigh**

thank you so much. i truly appreciate it.

as of right now, im saying PS is on. i need to take care of this, heal and then we'll see what happens.

early last week DH and I were content on only having DD (we even had the talk about preggers after TT)... this kinda made us want to not try to not try if that makes sense ... we arent really going to be trying (or thinking about trying, we'll be doing the fun schtuff ), but thinking about it just stresses everyone out...

whoa, where did this go... TMI!!

so, unless i hear from PS that it's off, it's on... will probably update my blog more than here though...