Hello everyone! I’ll try to get straight to the point, and give my backstory after...

I’m 2 years post-op, lost over 210 pounds, but I’m slipping back into old habits, and have already gained 15 pounds. I’m petrified of becoming what I once was. Here are the details of my journey:

I had gastric sleeve surgery September 28, 2016. I started at 348 pounds and the lowest number I’ve seen on the scale was 135. My goal weight was under 145 but I kept pushing it . I couldn’t stay at 135 very long (about a week), I would fluctuate back up to 140 and attempt to get back down to 135. My friends and family told me I looked gaunt at that weight (and they were right) so I eased my anxieties and decided that between 140 and 145 pounds was right for me. But ever since I reached that initial goal of less than 145 and hit the “maintenance” stage I feel like I’ve been spiraling. For a good year and a half I consistently exercised 5 days a week, now it’s been two weeks since I’ve worked out. I binge, and can consume 5,000 calories easily in a day (eating around the sleeve of course). Every time I try to get back on track I fall off the horse. I will admit that I think I was able to lose so much weight because I was obsessive. I have diagnosed OCD and I’m medicated for it. I don’t know if that’s related. Right now I’m 151. I took a “week off” from my exercise and proper diet for my birthday and went from 145.6 to 152. I tried to reset this week but yesterday and the day before I went on a spree again and ate 4,000 calories each day. I don’t know how to reel myself in and just be normal. My whole life I’ve either been dieting or gaining. I don’t know how to maintain. I’m so scared to revert to my old self

Thank you lovie, I need help. I think I'm ok when really I'm not, again thank you for responding :]

8 hours ago, amandalp1021 said:

I think it did start once I reached my goal. A sort of panic set in where I didn't know what to do anymore. All I know is dieting and gaining weight. So maintenance is a totally new world for me.

I don't know if this is going to help you but did you ever read about "goals" - like what happens when you reach one?

People need goals. Best is to be prepared in advance: "What will be my next big and challenging goal once I have reached this one?"

Weird as it sounds but sometimes people fear reaching their goals because they fall into this big hole once they reached it.

So what's your next big goal? It doesn't necessarily have to be fitness or health related but it should be big and challenging.

On 10/26/2018 at 7:38 PM, harmony love said:

Were all human and don't beat yourselves up we mess up. You've done so amazing on your weight loss and gaining a couple pounds isn't the end of the world. You made it just don't let yourself get to you. You've done it before and you can do it again easier said than done just be proud and be happy with yourself. I'm sure you'll get back to a better you again.

Thank you so much. Your encouragement really helps ❤️

On 10/27/2018 at 2:53 AM, summerset said:

I don't know if this is going to help you but did you ever read about "goals" - like what happens when you reach one?

People need goals. Best is to be prepared in advance: "What will be my next big and challenging goal once I have reached this one?"

Weird as it sounds but sometimes people fear reaching their goals because they fall into this big hole once they reached it.

So what's your next big goal? It doesn't necessarily have to be fitness or health related but it should be big and challenging.

I'm definitely going to set another goal. That's something I really need.

Hey everyone! Sorry I haven't responded. Just an update...I went back to my therapist on 10/30/18 and we're going to start sessions again. I used to see him pre-surgery and he specializes in eating disorders and OCD. I'm hopeful and will keep you posted. Thank you so much for all the feedback

I love the suggestion of a next big goal. I am within 10 lbs of goal and I’m struggling to get there. I am missing that high of losing weight every time I get on the scale. Maybe you could make a fitness goal?