summerset

So I may now call myself a neuroradiologist. 
😁 🧠 🍾

I need to put things into boxes because I'm moving on Tuesday.
I need to study because I need to be prepared for exam.
I need to put things into boxes because I'm moving on Tuesday.
I need to study because I need to be prepared for exam.
I need to put things into boxes because I'm moving on Tuesday.
I need to study because I need to be prepared for exam.
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Feels like panic-ping-pong somehow.

Things are overwhelming right now. I expected it, but anyway... *sigh*
Got a really short fuse today.

Really tired today after 24 h shift. Saturdays are the worst. My last 24 h shift will be next week. While I won't miss the working hours I will for sure miss a lot of colleagues.
 

The local medical association approved my papers!
Just got the information yesterday evening when checking my mailbox. I guess the exam will be in January. They have to tell me the exact date at least two weeks in advance.

Anxiety is through the roof today. Things are overwhelming when looking at it in sum at the moment. The big picture is just, well... too big.
We walked the dog today and just like yesterday I wasn't really in the mood.  Today even less so than yesterday because I knew what was going to happen. I tend to mull over things in my head and start ruminating when walking in quiet. The conversation with my husband will inevitably turn to these things, raining my anxiety even more.
It's different when going for a run or a bike ride. Thoughts are not as present then. I don't know if it's the higher heart rate, the fact that I need to be more aware of the movement when running or needing to be more aware of the environment because of moving faster when riding a bike or a combination of it all.
Fact is, I hate walking for this reason, even when not alone. I start ruminating and start to feel like crap when there's something going on.

Temperature still normal. No symptoms. I guess having this kind of "diary" will be the new normal for medical staff working with ER patients because the corona tests are not fast enough for a quick screening at bedside.
It kind of gives me the creeps when thinking about how many colleagues and other patients could've possibly been infected by one patient only with unknown corona infection. Yes, we all wore N95 or FFP2 masks and the patient wore a simple mask but anyway...

Infection rates are soaring. I was a contact person again (and a fellow colleague who assisted me) and now we've gotten some sheet where we have to take note of any symptoms and we have to take our temp every day for 14 days. Luckily so far we're both alright.
I guess this will be the new norm until we have a test fast enough so patients without symptoms can be isolated sooner.

Test yesterday was negative. So we now have a patient with symptoms of a respiratory tract infection, a negative-positive-negative test constellation and nobody seems to really know how to proceed further from there and referred to the public health department. 
🙄

Meh, almost 10 PM here. I wanted to go to bed an hour ago, lol.

We're home again! Luckily I have another week of vacation left.

GL, I feel like a hammer has hit me on the head. Sunday's 24 h shift was beyond awful and one day of recovery is not nearly enough. I hate that jet lag feeling I often have after these shifts. Everyone deals with it but I doubt something's going to change.
I'm leaving at the end of December. No more of this **** after that. Time to bring in the new **** then though, lol.

I hate that heat!
It's not so much that it's hot outside but the houses and flats are heating up as well and that's what I hate too boot.

Stumbled across this picture and I think it hits the spot.
 

Stumbled across this picture and I think it hits the spot.
 

Sun came out after all! 🌞
Bike ride time. There they are. Planning on getting an e-bike for pure fun rides. 
 

Yay! Finally hit onederland! My weight loss was stalled for a couple of weeks but the last week or so it has been moving again. Because I'm tracking in kilos I didn't actually realize that I am now under 200 pounds. I'm so happy! Next goal to hit, probably this week, is for my BMI to hit the lowest obesity level (class I). After that I'll be gunning for just overweight, but that probably won't happen until summer, provided I can keep from snacking during all this working from home!

Since yesterday I crave sweet stuff. Luckily most of the protein stuff comes sweet. It's kind of interesting because the days before I craved more salty stuff.

Feeling quite tired today. The weather is matching my mood. Cold, rainy, windy.

Since yesterday I crave sweet stuff. Luckily most of the protein stuff comes sweet. It's kind of interesting because the days before I craved more salty stuff.

I want rice with vegetables and tofu. Never thought I would crave something like this. Another wee to go on liquids and puree.