Whirlwind... 35 days out!

[Kella112 24]

New to this app and these forums!
In 35 days I am having my GS surgery. I’m not so much as nervous for the surgery, I’m more scared I won’t wake up from the surgery and will die.
Back in April I had a miscarriage, I didn’t tell anyone about the miscarriage including my bf. Which lead to me becoming depressed and pushing him away. 2 weeks into April I had the opportunity come up for me to be able to get surgery, meaning my aunt had money from when my uncle passed. My depression has gotten worse since the break up. He’s already moved onto a new relationship.
I’m going to therapy. Trying a new church out on Sunday (haven’t gone since I was 17, I’m 30 now). Starting a yoga class tonight and I have deleted all social media off of my phone. I also have started to share with people close to me about my miscarriage.
I hope I am mentally ready for this in 5-6 weeks.
My pre-op appointment is on July 16th and my surgery date is August 16th. I have to do 4 weeks of the pre-op diet.

[Dianne737 16]

I hope everything goes well for you. Sounds like you’re doing what you need to to take care of yourself.

[Ernie D 44]

I am glad you are taking care of yourself. It is good that you are at least saying out loud you hope you are ready for the surgery, that shows you are trying to do what you need to. Sorry to hear of your miscarriage . I will keep you in my prayers. Best of Health moving forward.

[domi 237]

We're here for you. I'm happy to see you are in therapy. It will help with your loss and eating. This is a scary surgery, but the risks are much lower now than they used to be. I was also terrified of not waking up. I went to far as to make sure everyone knew what to do if I did not make it. I made it through and I am so glad I did. Life is getting so much better. I continue with my therapy because I am changing physically and mentally as I become the person I am meant to be. Take care of yourself and know that these boards are here for you. Most members are extremely supportive and caring. Best wished to you on your journey.

[Kella112 24]

@domi I’m not sure how to quote on this thing.. thank you for encouraging words! I planned on letting everyone know what to do if something were to happen to me. Made sure to check into the life insurance i get from my work too. I will definitely keep working in therapy and turn to these boards for support!!