My surgery is October 14th. I'm so scared. I'm not scared of the surgery or the pain afterwards or anything like that, I'm scared it won't work. I have tried every diet out there and I feel like this is my last chance. I don't think I can live much longer in the shape that I'm in and I have read so many that say they didn't loose weight. I'm not concerned with looking pretty. I never have been and I don't think that is going to change. Lol. I'm not worried about how my body looks either. Yes, if I could look like Jennifer Lopez I wouldn't argue but I so want my health. I am 51 years old and have been fat my entire life but once. I starved myself for 6 months, got boney looking and was still the fat kid. When I tried to start eating healthy I gained all the weight back. I have diabetes, high cholesterol, high blood pressure, pcos, and a bad thyroid. Who knows what else is hiding in me just waiting to jump out. I know I have to have this surgery, I'm just so afraid because this really is my last hope. I guess I needed to just get on here and vent my feelings. Maybe I need to write in a journal. Lol.

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This same thing has crossed my mind before too - that it just might not work! That is terrifying!! But then I just start googling "weight loss surgery success stories" and it sets me right back on track

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sending you Light, I haven't been scheduled but I understand your pain...your struggles, finally to feel comfortable in my own skin at 43. You will get through this, yes, a journal is a must. Meditation has helped me...we are here to support each other, you can do this. Believe it...Light and Love

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