She's 14 years of age and I believe that she is dyeing. she is having trouble breathing normally, collapsing in her own pee (I've gotten her a reusable dog diaper and some pads for the floor.)

This weekend she's got some antibiotics and it's 'wait and see' if she turns around she just might. But she is 14 and the average lifespan is no more then 15 in britney spaniels.

She's been through my 20's which were awful (I used to self injure, but went away to http://mercymultiplied.com/2016/03/hannah-2013-graduate/ Mercy for seven months in 2012-2013.)

I sobbed into my pillow last night and wasn't able to place why until this morning (when you're half asleep sometimes things are not clear.)

In short she's been in my family for the 2000's and 2010's and it's just hard to see her suffering. Even if she does improve this weekend she's nearing the end and none of my family or myself want her slowly shut down breathing wise. It's inflammation was all the vet said we ran some tests and she's perfectly healthy xray wise and blood work wise.

Inflammation in her case could just be her little organs not being able to function any longer. End of life is difficult in humans and in animals.

It's hard in the sense that I have high functioning autism and she has been such a companion for me. She's a very affectionate dog, and has been able to see my sister's two children up to age one in a sense she got to mother later on in her life there are some funny stories related to the kids (she sat on both of them when they began to crawl and they were like 'wut' so they didn't get into stuff that'd harm them it was so freaking cute. )

At any rate, I'm sure there are folks here who've had pets pass on and know how heavy emotionally it is.

These are tough times. So many of us have been there.

We and our pets deserve all the love we give each other.

And we deserve to love and be loved again.

Hugs.

@@Hannah83 Minnie will be forever grateful for the love and kindness you showed her - especially in the End. Although her body has left this Earth - her Spirit will be with you always!!! Godspeed, Minnie! My thoughts and prayers are with you and your family Hannah!!!

Dear Minnie,

I keep glancing over the spots your dog beds used to be. I keep expecting to hear your tap dancing toe nails across the kitchen floor to beg for whatever I am eating. I look over my bed in habit to check and see if if you're upstairs or downstairs so you can be let out on the deck. (She used the bathroom on on our deck)

I keep expecting out of habit to save bags in order to pick up your poo's. When I am walking Wally (The bloodhound I'm dog sitting for a family friend) I think on our walks. They became shorter as you aged, but you didn't mind. This past winter are cherished memories of the last walks with you.

I regret not walking you more. But now you are running with God's creatures above and eagerly wait for your family to someday join you.

I thank God you were able to see me 'well' in your last three years of life. I am glad God gave me you. You walked with me through a lot of darkness with the assurance of your cold nose.

You always made me laugh. Be it dragging your rear across the carpet or hiding under a table with your furry butt sticking out when things became emotionally tense. You were the emotional barometer that made all of us laugh and forget why we were upset in the first place.

You touched a lot of lives, but you know that now. You can now see our family that is in heaven. You've gotten to see Mr. Belle, Best a Mor, Ken, Hazel, Howard, Nelson and all the others that are the cloud of witnesses.

You ran the race well Minnie, you finished strong. Well done good and faithful dog, enjoy Glory until we meet again.

-Hannah C.

Edited July 13, 201610 yr by Hannah83

Thank you all for your lovely support! I mean that, if I could physically hug each and all of you I would.

well because I've allowed myself to cry and I mean cry, the sting of the grief is gone. I've asked the Lord to take that painful ache away and He has. Again, I thank you all for your support, on this side of the screen I now with bittersweet tears can honer her memory and the support I've gotten here has been a major part of that. thank you BP for your unflinching support. It's been a blessing.

@@Hannah83 I'm so sorry for your loss. It's very difficult. I have had dogs and cats since I was 1 year old, have lost many over the years, it never gets easier. She had a good life, and she is with you in spirt, and lives on in your heart and memories. I believe my animal babies are in heaven and that we ill all be reunited again one day, this gives me comfort.