Since I got the band I have had a strong adverse reaction to it.

Instead of feeling joy or relief, I find myself getting more and more depressed.

I'm allready thinking about having the band removed.

I keep telling myself that this is the worst decision I've ever made.

I can't sleep anymore, and usually end up crying for hours each night.

It got so bad the other night that is someone gave me a scapel, I would have attemped to take the damn thing out of me.(of course I know this isent really possible)

All you guys seem to love your bands, what went wrong with me?

I was in therapy for about 1 1/2 years before I got my band dealing with family issues and depression. Since the band, I have been having many of the same feelings as you. My therapist reminds me each appt. that it is not a surprise. He warned me that if I had the surgery I would have no choice but to deal with feelings. I have stored anger in my fat cells til this time and self medicated with food and over eating. Now that I can't over eat I have to deal with FEELINGS. It's not easy. Perhaps you can find someone to talk with and work through your feelings. I have no doubt that my weight has been an example of "stuffing my feelings" to this point. Good luck. Be Blessed and hang in there! Kelly

I had surgery 4 days ago and I have felt like you but in a mild way. When I woke up from the surgery I felt a small amount of panic and thought what the hell did I do to myself and in these few days I have had the ocassional feeling of why did I do this? due to seeing my family enjoy food like normal and I can't.

I know I did this because w/o it my weight and health will get worse and before I know it I will be eating "normal". I have already lost 13 pounds since the liquid diet.

Hang in there. Skinny does taste better than anyting you can put in your mouth.

I hope you are feeling better by now.

PS I have had lots of dreams with food I am not eating it but I am preparing it or surrounded by it

Thanks again everyone for all your support!

I'm feeling alot better with each day.

I think it's that the pain is finally settling down, and I can no longer feel the port(like, before, i could feel it in me) unless I press against it.

I felt alot better when I stepped on the scale and saw a bunch of weight had come off(I allways loose quickly for the first while)

I'm still having madd food cravings(not to be confused with those mothers against drunk driving cravings...lol)

Thanks for all the support! I'll be sure to keep in mind all your postive words.

I think before the surgery I never realised how bad my addiction was. And how much I needed food as a support...

But, in reality, it's good I did this, because, I sure know continuing on like this would have shortened my life.

And, just the other day i got invited to a fashion event by a friend, and of course, couldn't find anything to wear. And for a bit allmost thought I wouldn't bother going, because of being over weight. I can't wait for the day were my weight no longer impares me from doign things I want to do.

And, just the other day i got invited to a fashion event by a friend, and of course, couldn't find anything to wear. And for a bit allmost thought I wouldn't bother going, because of being over weight. I can't wait for the day were my weight no longer impares me from doign things I want to do.

I am glad you are feeling a little bit better. Just wait until you have nothing to wear because it is all too big. That nothing to wear feeling is great!