<p>Hi everyone....I am new here and tis has all been so fast for me. I went to my internal specialist back in October and found out after he reccommended lapband that my ins. didn't cover it. So I gave up and just thiss month decided to be self pay. I went to see my internal doctor yesterday and he was more excited than I was that I was going to get lap banded. I went to consult with Dr. Spivak last night and he said he wanted to know what stage my sarcoidosis was before he performed surery and I would have to be done at the hospital because of my intubation dificulty but he would do it soon as I wanted. I go see my pulmonary doctor in the morning and hope he says go for it too. I am hopin to be banded sometime in June before change my mind. I am scared but excited that I can soon become healthier with my incurable disease. I am so scared that something will go wrong and I will leave my baby girl out there alone. Does the scared feeling ever go away?</p> <p>Worry Wart.</p>

Cat & Everyone

I don't have a date yet - Right now am going throught my marathon of doctors to clear me for surgery - Hopefully all these appointments will be done by the 1st of July and then i can schedule a date.

Went to a LB support group meeting last night it was GREAT!!! - I got to meet a girl from this site Pamela aka Kity - She was banded in April and omg she is such a fun person - Since we had emailed previouse and had met here on this site - It was like seeing an old friend - we had 2 other banded people there one older & one younger and 3 of us pre-banders - the Doctor was there to answer questions and his assistant. OMG it was really great - I want my surgery today...

I was going to blow off going to this meeting as it's a tad of a drive (aobut 30 minitues) it at 6 p.m. I have worked all day and am tired.. But I said No you need to go. And do you want to know some thing I had an AH HA moment during this meeting and after reading the material given - I HAVE BEEN ISOLATING MYSELF FROM THE WORLD. The reason i did attend was cuz i knew that there would be "fat" people like me, who understood my struggles with the weight - who wouldn't look at me as a non-person. I declared last nite and today - I WANT MY LIFE BACK..

I am tired of isolating myself and that's what i am doing as i AM ashamed of myself for being fat. You know if you asked me this question before - I would have told you No i'm not ashamed - I am me except me as i am (fat or skinny) but you know what - I am a different person fat than if i were skinny. My weight does affect who i am.- OMG i really am having some great revalations as i write this. I think a wall was broken down last night - I am free - free at last...

Advice - if you have support group sessions - go to them they are a great inspriation, insight, probaly almost as good as a shrink expecially if your shrink is skinny - she/he really can't relate to your fat issues. Were as support group can - and since this support group is made up of people who are reclaiming their lives and comming to an understanding about their issues and food.

This site is great for the support and i will continue here but it is so nice to have actual people to interact with and meet.

Not nervouse any longer.... This is what I need to do and my conviction that this is the right thing for me is 1,000,000%...

Was anyone scare to fail the band? I'm really not scare of the surgery, I'm really scare I'm going to be the one person its not going to work for. I want to loss weigh so bad, but i always think what if is that normal?