<p>Hi everyone....I am new here and tis has all been so fast for me. I went to my internal specialist back in October and found out after he reccommended lapband that my ins. didn't cover it. So I gave up and just thiss month decided to be self pay. I went to see my internal doctor yesterday and he was more excited than I was that I was going to get lap banded. I went to consult with Dr. Spivak last night and he said he wanted to know what stage my sarcoidosis was before he performed surery and I would have to be done at the hospital because of my intubation dificulty but he would do it soon as I wanted. I go see my pulmonary doctor in the morning and hope he says go for it too. I am hopin to be banded sometime in June before change my mind. I am scared but excited that I can soon become healthier with my incurable disease. I am so scared that something will go wrong and I will leave my baby girl out there alone. Does the scared feeling ever go away?</p> <p>Worry Wart.</p>

Hey neighbor -

I think the fear that something will go wrong is just part of our psyche, especially for me as an overweight person dealing with bits and pieces of depression throughout the years.

What is working for me is looking into my two kids faces, ages 6 and 3, and getting slapped in the face with everything my emotional and physical body is limiting me to.

This procedure is not just a physical one for us. It is a complete lifestyle change - mind, body, and soul. It is one of the risks we have to take in life to get there, but for me anyway, it is one I have to take.

<p>Hi everyone....I am new here and tis has all been so fast for me. I went to my internal specialist back in October and found out after he reccommended lapband that my ins. didn't cover it. So I gave up and just thiss month decided to be self pay. I went to see my internal doctor yesterday and he was more excited than I was that I was going to get lap banded. I went to consult with Dr. Spivak last night and he said he wanted to know what stage my sarcoidosis was before he performed surery and I would have to be done at the hospital because of my intubation dificulty but he would do it soon as I wanted. I go see my pulmonary doctor in the morning and hope he says go for it too. I am hopin to be banded sometime in June before change my mind. I am scared but excited that I can soon become healthier with my incurable disease. I am so scared that something will go wrong and I will leave my baby girl out there alone. Does the scared feeling ever go away?</p> <p>Worry Wart.</p>

Welcome to the lap band community....I too am very scared about being banded, mainly about the anesthesia part. I think that it is a very normal feeling and I believe you are well on your way to becoming a healthier you. Congrats on your decision.

Hi

I am new here also. I am being banded June 27th I have ups & downs I get really excited !

You are going through all the normal emotions. You'll go through being happy to being scared to death! I read through all the threads on here and learned so much from all of them. I think it helped me a lot to know what to expect, and what others had went through. Good Luck!

You're normal! I even woke up out of the anaethesia and in my stupor said "Take me back in and remove it"...although my hubby says I never said it out loud. It's such amazingly quick surgery! I worried I'd die. I worried about permanently putting a foreign object on my body. I worried about feeling trapped. (I never worried about Spivak...I still think he's the best.)

But I'll tell you, now that it's done, I am nothing but thrilled. What a life changing journey....

Even after surgery you will be scared. Scared of what's normal... scared about eating too much/too little.... scared about throwing up.... scared about not losing weight... BUT, you will be happy with your decision

Thank you all for being there for me....I have been reading lots of threads here and somedays I feel real excited and then somedays usually at night I start getting scared and start to get panic attacks...I have been thinking about asking my doctor to give me something for the anxiety have anyone else done this.

I think anxiety is normal. I have "freaked out" too many times. I just look at it this way- If I don't have the band, nothing will change and I will still be obese and depressed. If I do have the band, there is a 99% chance that it will work and I will finally lose the weight and be able to live my life! Of course, it really may help to talk with your doctor about your anxiety, but I can assure you, most of us have it too as our surgery approaches!:star:

Thank you so much i really needed to hear that.... I appreciate everyone's support here. It is scary but I know in the long run it will be the best thing I could have ever done.

Hi I also just getting started, hopefully to be done in August(best time to be off work for me) and I think as time gets close I will be more nervous. There are a lot of uncertainties, until it actually happens, Good Luck and keep up the positive thinking.

Kaohinani,

Same to you good luck and I hope to see you on the other side.

Cat

I, too, am scared - Somedays excited and can't wait - somedays - omg what am i doing is this the right decision. I'm not too worried about going under - it's the band - I don't want to throw up - i don't want bping - i don't want slime - I want to lose weight and control my portions. I am sure the band will do this as long as I FOLLOW THE RULES. I also think that giving up our best freind FOOD is part of it too.

Good luck - this place is great, you couldn't ask for better people to help you on this journey.

Indiogirl55,

I know what you mean....it is scary and exciting at the same time....it is not the saying good bye to food as much as the fear of failing at this too....my ex doesn't know about this surgery but even last night when he came to see our daughter he told me "Gee you are so fat that nobody wants you" Boy will he be surprised to see I have lost my weight and still don't want him. HAHAHA

My biggest thing that I am going to miss is drinking water with my meals....tat is going to be hard for me.

Good luck and see you on the other side. When is your surgery scheduled for my was rescheduled for the 18t of June.

I am to be banded on June 20th. When ever I start to get nervous or scared about the surgery I just think of my grandmother who had diabetes and died while having a limb amputated. I think of my dad who is 65 yrs. old has had 2 heart attacks, quad by pass surgery, a massive stroke, and just had his leg amputated due to diatetes. My mom who had a stroke, high blood pressure and died from a blood clot at the age of 64. Then I think of my husband and 3 kids ages 18,16 & 13 and I know if I don't do something I will not be here for them. I realize that I can not do this on my own otherwise I wouldn't be doing this. All of this reminds me that even though this might be scary it isn't as scary as to what will happen to me if I keep going like I am. I look at June 20th as the start of the "NEW ME" and longer healthier life to enjoy....good luck to you...

hi i was banded on 6/4, also very frightened pre-op and i am a pacu nurse:). I wanted to rip out my IV and go home before they took me to the OR. I had a large hiatal hernia that needed repair also. I am also 66, much older than you. But, our weight is going to kill us if we dont do womething about it. The surgical staff will take good care of you, you are their only priority when you are in the OR. They will also, not do the procedure if they think it is unsafe for you. Courage girlfriend, you can do this