I just wanted to share this with you all. My husband I went on an 8 days 7 nights cruise; we left Sept. 13^th and returned Sept. 21st. This was the first cruise we had ever been on. I just knew we would have a good time and enjoy each other. Don't me wrong I did have a good time; but I was so uncomfortable. I know I am a big girl, I have been this way almost all my life. Even as a big girl I have always been comfortable with myself. But this time it was different; I felt fat and wasn't happy with myself at all. I just kept telling myself hopefully this will be the last vacation you go on as a big girl. I went yesterday for my 3rd supervised weigh in (have 3 more to go); I had gained a pound but I am still under my starting weight. My nutritionist think everything is going well. I just don't know why I felt so uncomfortable and sad on the cruise. In all I was feeling I still kept a smile on my face. People who have not walked in our shoes don't have any idea how it feel to be fat and not understand why you are this way. It's not like we all just lay around and eat all the time; this is truly a disease. Again I just wanted to share this experience with you all.

I understand. That was one of the reasons I had the surgery - I has tired of "standing out" and not in a good way. It WILL get better! When are hoping to have your surgery?

I'm so sorry this happened too you. I do understand what your saying.

I just wanted to share this with you all. My husband I went on an 8 days 7 nights cruise; we left Sept. 13^th and returned Sept. 21st. This was the first cruise we had ever been on. I just knew we would have a good time and enjoy each other. Don't me wrong I did have a good time; but I was so uncomfortable. I know I am a big girl, I have been this way almost all my life. Even as a big girl I have always been comfortable with myself. But this time it was different; I felt fat and wasn't happy with myself at all. I just kept telling myself hopefully this will be the last vacation you go on as a big girl. I went yesterday for my 3rd supervised weigh in (have 3 more to go); I had gained a pound but I am still under my starting weight. My nutritionist think everything is going well. I just don't know why I felt so uncomfortable and sad on the cruise. In all I was feeling I still kept a smile on my face. People who have not walked in our shoes don't have any idea how it feel to be fat and not understand why you are this way. It's not like we all just lay around and eat all the time; this is truly a disease. Again I just wanted to share this experience with you all.

Hi Barbcute,

I have 3 more months of the supervised weight program (insurance required 6 months); my last weigh in will be January 2015. I am praying since the holidays will be over with, I will have the surgery in February 2015. I don't know how long it will take BCBS to make a decision on whether to approve me or not. As soon as the BCBS make a decision I hope it won't be soon after.

Thank you #9grammy; I knew you all would understand how I was feeling.

I feel your pain too