i'm sitting at my desk waiting for my doc's office to open so i can call them. i'm totally paralyzed right now. all i can think about is "please don't let this throw off my WLS journey", which i know is just keeping me safe from thinking about anything worse.

ugh. my obgyn is on vacation until tomorrow.

Do you have a PCP? I've got a lump in my breast that I've been having monitored with ultrasounds every 6 months for the past couple years. It doesn't look serious, but they want to keep their eye on it. Hope yours is similar and not serious.

you think i should go see my pcp instead of waiting until tomorrow to see the obgyn? i have no experience at this.

I would! My thoughts are with you.

Yes - I would too!

ok, thanks. i'll give him a call.

The PCP can order a mammogram or ultrasound for you if the lump seems suspicious.

1 day won't matter though except to your nerves. A lump is not an emergency. Even when it is something bad it takes 2-3 weeks to go thru all the tests etc. I know because I had a bad one and it took over a month to get all the appointments and tests and the waiting is the worst part. 4 years later I am doing great.

Most of the time though it can be a cyst or fatty deposit etc and hopefully that is it in your case.

thanks. i just don't think i'm going to get any work done today thinking about it. calling my pcp now.

FYI, 90% of breast lumps are either benign or "movement" of breast tissue.

I have lumpy boobies. It runs in the family. There's a great chance it's nothing, but seeing the doctor ASAP for peace of mind is worth it.

Sending out positive thoughts for you! I'm sure it is nothing serious. Keep us updated!

Did you see the PM I sent you?

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If you look on the right hand side of your messaging screen, you can see if the PM you sent was read or not. Just an FYI.

Just a reminder to have your mammos done every year ON TIME. I was going to put off my appointment for one back in 2000 due to my boss's pressure not to use any more sick leave. . Turns out I did have breast cancer. Due to all the improvements in imaging back then, it was caught VERY early. I had a lumpectomy; no lymph node involvement. Piece of cake. Ugh, shouldn't say that here(?)

All, thank you for your support. Your messages meant the world to me!

@@BeagleLover, i have my mammo every year around my birthday in october. well, this year's will be a little early.

here's the update. it's a doozy.

i called my pcp, who i have to tell you i adore, and was put on hold for a very long time. (the receptionist pays great attention to the person at her desk at the moment, so i knew i wasn't forgotten, just that they were busy.) while i was on hold, i was IMing a work friend about this, and she highly recommended her obgyn. i was not really thrilled with mine, and hers is much closer to my home, so i hung up on my pcp and called them. luckily, someone had just cancelled and they were able to see me within the hour, so i left work and headed on over.

i get there, sign in and fill out the new patient paperwork, and realize my blood sugar was feeling low. i'm a type 1 diabetic, fyi. so i tested my blood and i'm just on the cusp of low. and geez louise (not my actual words, censored for public consumption) i didn't have my glucose tablets with me. as a type 1, i am always prepared for anything. why today of all days did this anomaly occur? so, i turned off my insulin pump to stop delivery of any additional insulin and decided to ride it out. that should have been the first sign to me that my sugar was going low... irrational thinking is a big sign for me.

so the nurse takes me into the exam room and does a medical history, then has me undress and sends the doctor in. actually, a certified nurse midwife. anyway, to my great embarrassment, not only can't i find the lump now, but i can't even remember which breast it was in! and my blood sugar is now low enough to cause irrationality to set in big time, and so i don't tell her that my sugar is low and i'm not functioning. i just sat there and felt like an idiot. she couldn't find the lump. great first impression on my new practitioner.

she gave me a script for a diagnostic mammo, which i am having friday morning, and told me whether they find something or not, if i want she will send me to a specialist after the mammo. i went home, ate, and lay down in bed feeling reallllly bad, and then found the lump again. i can only feel it when i'm lying on my side, and on the table i was lying on my back. oy vey.

ANYWAY. i'm feeling better mentally, which is due a LOT to all of your messages and responses. i'm in the office today and feel like i can function, and will update you again after the mammo on friday. i love this forum, i knew someone would reach out to me. hugs to all of you!