Warning! This is definitely a rant and a whole lot of whining!!

Ugh, I am in rough shape emotionally this week! I'm on day three... yes, just three measly days... of the liquid diet and I feel like it's the end of the world. Even typing this, I see how ridiculous that is. People have much bigger problems in the world than this, but I'm miserable. I've been treating my husband like crap all weekend and I've been snapping at my absolutely adorable kids (3 & 5 years old). Right now, my brother in law has cancer and he and my sister are going through so much more of a hardship than I am, but I still can't seem to bring myself out of this. food is my only vice, and it's just GONE... cold turkey. Yes, I'm committed to the lifestyle post op, yes I'm committed to making healthier choices, but at least those involve food. My husband thinks I'm just anxious about having surgery, which may be a part of it, but mostly I am just pissy because I can't have food (and my surgeon's plan is zero food... Protein shakes/diet drinks only). I feel antsy, my stomach is in knots, I'm edgy. I'm just in a general BAD mood.

Did anyone else experience this? I've attended OA, and I know I'm an addict, so I feel like this must be what it's like for an alcoholic or a smoker to give up their drugs of choice. This is nuts, though. It's food! It's not drugs or alcohol or cigarettes... it's something as basic and every day as food. Still, I feel like I'm going to go crazy before my surgery on the 13th. I'm just in the worst mood I've ever been in!

Probably time to visit my therapist, lol! Thanks for taking the time to indulge my whining!

My nutritionist said that I can either do a shake at breakfast and lunch or breakfast and dinner I chose the second option, so I have my shake in the morning then eat something like a chicken salad or tuna salad with greek yogurt then after work I go home and have my second shake for dinner. Im only on day one so wish me luck.

I'm ending my 6th day pre-op diet (I get two shakes and one meal at dinner with a Protein, veggie and carb) and I find myself counting the hours of the day until I can eat that dinner. It's awful. I have bitten my husband's head off more times than I'd like to count, and I've been going to bed early simply because I don't want to think about food anymore! I ordered the Emotional Eating book that has been recommended on this site and started reading it last night.

I'm scared for the journey ahead. I know it will be worth it, I know my health will improve, I know that I will have to make modifications and exercise (which I loathe). Gotta keep on keeping on.

Can you tell about the Emotional Eating book? I am new to this site. Thank you

Can you tell about the Emotional Eating book? I am new to this site. Thank you

Sure . . . I found it on this site! Here's an amazon link. I really like it.

http://www.amazon.com/The-Emotional-First-Aid-Kit-ebook/dp/B0054RXXS0/ref=pd_sim_kstore_4?ie=UTF8&refRID=02T8K553GZ4YJS06M0PR

I have been seeing a counselor for the last year that deals with food related issues to prepare for my surgery. I quit smoking 3 years and food replaced smoking. So I can commiserate. It is almost like going through withdrawal. :-( and you are right, it is only food. But that food has been your friend. Counseling is helping me and might be something you consider. Either way, don't be so hard on yourself. You've got this!!!!