AngelaIsReady

I am feeling very antsy today. My drive time into work was doubled, the roads were slick (it is winter now), and I am tired. Actually wore out is probably a better way to describe how I am feeling right now. This two hour drive to work literally has just wiped me out. I am wondering if it is going to have this same impact after my my surgery. How long will it take for the smallest things to stop tiring me? I am also starting to feel afraid right now. The date is getting closer and fear is trying to wrap its arms around me. Questions of self doubt are creeping in. Being super busy at work isn't helping because I am trying to focus on getting things done there, but my WLS is interfering with my concentration. So...I am going to try and stop and step aside and remember my goal for 2015. Step away from the things that you can not control and let it be free. Continuing to struggle with things you have no control over is a losing battle. Let them free and try to just relax and get done what needs to be done.

As we prepare to enter 2015, I have completed the first four months of my insurance required appointments. I successfully passed my psych evaluation and have been steadily meeting with my dietician and exercise physiologist. I have come so far and I am ready...well mostly. My next two weight loss dr. appointments are scheduled with my last one scheduled for February 11th. Pre-op is scheduled for January 29th. So I could go any time after February 11th. I have been ready. I am prepared and then this little thing called a career popped up and may have seemingly gotten in my way. After years of trying to figure out what I want to be when I grow up did it finally come to me in October. I started doing research about advanced degree programs and found one that was going to work perfect. I enrolled and much to my surprised joy I was accepted into the program. The program is online so it is going to work with my schedule both before and after WLS. However I have to take two classes at a time to maintain my full time financial aid status. Did I mention that I am already in an MBA program? Of course I didn't lol. Well I understood that I had 18 months left before completing it. Because of that I had decided that I was just going to stop and take the other program in its place since the completion time was the same. I called my adviser at the MBA school and explained that I had a career change coming and what my plans were. His response was, "You do realize that you can complete the program by April 6th right?" I was astounded. I couldn't understand how this could be. He explained that a few years ago there were changes in some of the requirements and I was not required to enroll in the concentration classes. So I could graduate in just a few short months. So I decided right there and then I needed to finish. However I was also already enrolled in my other two classes that are set to start January 22nd. So here I am in a quandary. Do I wait until April to have my gastric sleeve or do I do it in February/March as originally planned? I want to achieve success in both of these. But I am afraid to wait until April and I am afraid if I don't. Happy New Year everyone!!! Welcome to the rest of our lives!!!

Thank you for posting this. I am two months away from completing my insurance visits and am getting nervous and already filling in all my "free time". This is helping to remind me of where I want to be!