Is it hear yet?

I am feeling very antsy today. My drive time into work was doubled, the roads were slick (it is winter now), and I am tired. Actually wore out is probably a better way to describe how I am feeling right now. This two hour drive to work literally has just wiped me out. I am wondering if it is going to have this same impact after my my surgery. How long will it take for the smallest things to stop tiring me?

I am also starting to feel afraid right now. The date is getting closer and fear is trying to wrap its arms around me. Questions of self doubt are creeping in. Being super busy at work isn't helping because I am trying to focus on getting things done there, but my WLS is interfering with my concentration.

So...I am going to try and stop and step aside and remember my goal for 2015. Step away from the things that you can not control and let it be free. Continuing to struggle with things you have no control over is a losing battle. Let them free and try to just relax and get done what needs to be done.