So my surgery is monday the 3rd. I cant believe this is actually happening. But im completely terrified. Im 34... i have a 6 year old...what if i die?? What if something goes wrong. What if i get to skinny and my husband isnt attracted to me anymore? Oh God... what if i have sooooo much loose skin that he isnt attracted? I have kind of the apron stomach already so i know i will have to have the pannaectomy (sp) after i loose. But i just have this mental picture of havkng so much loose skin it like hangs down to my knees. And its like flappppin away during sex and like hits me or him in the face :/

And my boobd are awesome but they sag a little now after the dear daughter breastfed. So after this they are gonna be so tube socky.

I will prob be able to tie them in a knot and throw them over my shoulder as my stomach is flappin in the wind.

But seriously..... i can NOT leave my precious beautiful daughter without a mother.... just because i dont want to be fat anymore!

Anybody with me??

Terry1118,

Thank you for sharing your story and your thoughts. You are right. I do know nothing will change if I don't take this step. Sure I will stick with the "diet" for a while but when nothing at all happens...then what? I know this surgery will give me the tool and motivation to do this for myself and my family! I do not want to be the tired mom who always JUST wants to cuddle, I want to be the active mom who takes her kids on hikes, and bike rides (something I've never done in all their lives) I want to not be too embarrassed to go to a Water park n go down the slides with them.

I pray with all my heart, this is my answer, my freedom to this fat shame I carry with me all the time. My new life, my new attitude and a better me!

I really do appreciate everyone on here and their support. Having a place to come and be real and honest and scared with those who understand has been so helpful.

Terry thank you for your wonderful post. I am so happy for you.