I'm so excited to be this close to surgery. I don't have a date yet. I go back to the surgeon on Jan. 8, 2014. I expect we will set a date then (hopefully). January 29 ends the 3 month "diet" period. So I think I'm looking at surgery in February.

I want to run after my daughter and not feel like I'm dying. I also want three more babies! But I would settle for one more. I want to get back to exercise. Right now I feel self-conscious and physically ill when I workout. I haven't been this inactive in years.

I don't wanna look at a picture of me and cringe. Or see myself in the mirror and think "omg am I really that big?" I want to be comfy on a plane or in a movie theater. I want to shop all day with my daughter like I did before I got hurt. I look forward to seeing my BF's face in July when he'll see me for the first time after surgery. Hells yeah.

Great I Wants. Any more? Keep them coming.

I want to be able to eat a small portion, feel full and push the food away feeling satisfied.

I want to out live my hips (I had both resurfaced due to arthritis). I want to walk and move pain free.

I want to stop getting rashes under the folds.

I want to flaunt it!!!!!!!!! Yes at my age I can still flaunt it when I'm at my goal weight. LOL

I want to look decent in a swim suit.

I want to not have a panic attack when my family says "let's go on another cruise."

I want to say fuck you to my in-laws.

I don't wanna look at a picture of me and cringe. Or see myself in the mirror and think "omg am I really that big?" I want to be comfy on a plane or in a movie theater. .

Omg, YES YES YES YES.

When I go to a restaurant I don't want my ass to be bigger than the chair. I'd love to not have to squeeze in a booth with my boobs sitting on the table on display. I wanna wear a dress that isn't " Coleman-tent" sized. I'd love to wear heels, I'd love to dress up as a genie for Halloween. Sure I could do the genie off Aladdin but I'd prefer the "I dream of genie" outfit. Lol

When I go to a restaurant I don't want my ass to be bigger than the chair. I'd love to not have to squeeze in a booth with my boobs sitting on the table on display. I wanna wear a dress that isn't " Coleman-tent" sized. I'd love to wear heels, I'd love to dress up as a genie for Halloween. Sure I could do the genie off Aladdin but I'd prefer the "I dream of genie" outfit. Lol

Seriously. We're totally twins. I can't wait for ALL of this. Lol

Girl, I fell asleep for just a couple of minutes. Nodded off. I swear I woke thinking I had cheated on my pre-op diet Bc I dreamed I'd walked to the fridge and pulled out some pizza and ate it. I woke in a panic Bc I thought I had.

Girl, I fell asleep for just a couple of minutes. Nodded off. I swear I woke thinking I had cheated on my pre-op diet Bc I dreamed I'd walked to the fridge and pulled out some pizza and ate it. I woke in a panic Bc I thought I had.

Buahaha! #bariatricproblems

Had EGD yesterday. Dr. was pleased. I have a small hiatal hernia that he will fix during surgery. Took some biopsy's. He said to start my liquid pre-op diet today. Now I just wait on insurance. Still shooting for February 24th or March 3rd. The waiting is killing me smalls!!!

Girl, I fell asleep for just a couple of minutes. Nodded off. I swear I woke thinking I had cheated on my pre-op diet Bc I dreamed I'd walked to the fridge and pulled out some pizza and ate it. I woke in a panic Bc I thought I had.

Wouldn't it be some sh!t if you were a sleep walker/eater?! Oh man.

Hey SJ and SF, check this out.

http://www.buzzfeed.com/michaelblackmon/21-signs-your-relationship-with-food-has-gotten-wa-9hu9?bffbfood

#2 is us last night! HAHAHAHA! And let's be honest, they've all been us at some point! Thanks for the fun late night chats. That's when I'm most anxious and you guys definitely help alleviate that.

And Shersun, I loved that you re-directed us to our "want to." That was awesome!

Hey SJ and SF, check this out. http://www.buzzfeed.com/michaelblackmon/21-signs-your-relationship-with-food-has-gotten-wa-9hu9?bffbfood #2 is us last night! HAHAHAHA! And let's be honest, they've all been us at some point! Thanks for the fun late night chats. That's when I'm most anxious and you guys definitely help alleviate that. And Shersun, I loved that you re-directed us to our "want to." That was awesome!

Omg!!! Where's my Mac n cheese?

• Your welcome JenC.

Now lets do the I WANT not the I don't wants. The I'm going to not the I can't. Example I'm going to be able to walk up the stairs w/o breathing heavy.

. I'm going to walk a mile and feel energized.

I'm going to be able to look in a mirror and smile at how good I look.

I'm going to pass up example donuts............fill in the blank........... and feel good walking away from them. I will enjoy eating healthy food in small portions. I will pat my self on the shoulder for every positive step no matter how small.

How many can you think of? Remember to put a positive note on it with I will, I want, I can, I plan,

We're close to surgery so lets get positive. We can do this and will do it.

The Secret is an excellent easy book to read if you guys haven't read it. Here's a url for comments and info on the book from Amazon http://www.amazon.com/The-Secret-Rhonda-Byrne/dp/1582701709/ref=sr_1_1?ie=UTF8&qid=1392142131&sr=8-1&keywords=the+secret There is also a DVD of it.

Came down with a cold so am working to get rid of it before surgery Mon.

Bahahahaha hahahahaha. Omg. So was us. And now I want mac and cheese you beotches. Hah. Although, let's be serious. I always want mac and cheese. It's probably my favorite.

Jencovi- when is your surgery again?

I'm a night owl. I'll be happy to squash the anxiety with my awesomely witty humor. (I'll just go ahead and brush my shoulder off) hahahaha

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