I know, I know weirdest thing ever. I know.

I think I'm in mourning of my old self, my fat, I don't know something.

It hit me the other day when I saw my skin in the mirror the other day. My thought was "wow. I'm really loosing weight."

I started the year at 272, preop (May. 28) at 258, current weight is 195.

I don't want this to get bigger than what it is. Has anyone else been through this before. Pre surgery I didn't care what changed my body went through as long as I lost weight now I'm getting bouts if sadness, and I'm not even 100% sure why

Any input is GREATLY appreciated!

I completely understand! I had my surgery back in February and I've lost a little over 100lbs. Like logically I know that I should be ecstatic and feeling on top of the world' date=' but I am quite depressed and have anxiety. I NEVER thought that I would feel this way afterwards. It sounds silly, but I think I was more comfortable with the old me, then the new me. Most of the time, I can't stand to look at my body. I feel like it looks like everything is melting. I exercise, but I still have extra skin (which I knew was normal before surgery, but to actually have it happen is a whole different story) and my boobs are basically gone, lol.

Another weird thing is that when I look in the mirror, I see my old body still. I don't see the smaller me, so I end up getting upset - thinking that I'm not doing enough. I talked to my family doctor about this the other day and she said it's actually common after the surgery. She's referring me to a psych that specializes in eating disorders/body image and depression (and we upped by anti-depressant). So...hopefully it'll get better. I'm hopeful that it will. I think that things just happen so fast physically, that it just doesn't give us enough time to adjust mentally, you know. Good luck to you and I hope things get better!! Thanks for sharing your story![/quote']

I really thank you and the person that started this post I myself was sleeved in February 2013. And having lost a little over 90+ I feel like I'm not doing enough.. Don't see what others see.. Talked to my team and they say I am fine mentally.. But to see that there are others feeling what I am feeling is really a good thing!! I pray we all can get it together soon.. And I also agree with the op.. It does seem like I'm going through post partum blues... Good luck everybody

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Wow, Fabsfluff......after reading your post, it made me realize that my original post on this thread was insensitive and lacking in compassion. For that, I am truly sorry.

You know what you described (and you are so good at putting those feelings into words) is a fear that I have myself which I keep stuffing down.

Like I said, I'm pre-op. However, I've already been on the thread about plastic surgery.

This is truly an issue w me already.

And, yes, there is discomfort in being fat. But, at least i'm comfortable with it mentally. This is who I am. This is what I am. This is how people know me. This is how I know me.

I'm glad that you brought up this discussion. Now, my head is reeling.lol