I was having head hunger all day yesterday. About noon I gave up the fight and told myself to just do what you want to the rest of the day, and get it out of your system. The result of that decision was by 5 or 6 I was tired, grumpy, no energy, and sitting on the sofa eating goldfish ( I dont even really love goldfish, I mean theyre OK, but I dont love them). The old me really came out yesterday, and I did not like it! My 12 year old said, "Mom whats wrong with you"? Yes, a 12 year old noticed the mood change due to food before I did. It reminded me how good I am at ignoring myself. One good thing did come out of yesterday though, I got a glimpse of my past, and without a doubt can say "I WILL NOT GO BACK". I can't believe I used to be that miserable most of the time. I homeschool my 4 kids, and I don't think I have adjusted well to the schedule changes we have instituted in the past couple of weeks. Did I mention in the past couple of weeks I have only went to the gym once or twice a week? So, today is a new day. Ive got a great eating plan for today. I am going shopping later so I can be prepared for myself, because the last time I shopped I really think I had my family in mind and not myself. Lastly, I will go to the gym today and WORK! I'm looking forward to today and reaquainting myself with the new me!

You are doing great! Recognizing the old pattern is HUGE! By all means put your own well-being in the forefront! That's why you had the surgery! You can't effectively care for your family if you are not taking care of your self.

pre-surgery weight 325; surgery date 2/28/2013; surgery weight 307; 8 weeks past-op weight 281.4; 12 weeks post-op 274; 4 month post-op 266.2; 5 month post-op 262.6

Then you learned a lot! I have discovered that me and simple carbs are NOT friends. They are like nicotine to me... Best if I just keep away altogether!

thought i was the only one yesterday i caved half peanut butter jelly later one pc pizza sum pita bits and a waffle cone from wendys not very happy with myself feel like a failure...and did i say im only four weeks out...

thought i was the only one yesterday i caved half Peanut Butter jelly later one pc pizza sum pita bits and a waffle cone from wendys not very happy with myself feel like a failure...and did i say im only four weeks out...

I remember about 4 weeks out when I was allowed to eat a little more I went crazy for a couple of days. Then reeled it in got back to basics (3 shakes a day sensible dinner) and then proceeded to loose 35 lb over the next 2 months. It just goes to show we can all fall off the wagon, its whether or not you get back on track that matters. My slippery slope seems to be a giant drop off cliff!

I remember about 4 weeks out when I was allowed to eat a little more I went crazy for a couple of days. Then reeled it in got back to basics (3 shakes a day sensible dinner) and then proceeded to loose 35 lb over the next 2 months. It just goes to show we can all fall off the wagon, its whether or not you get back on track that matters. My slippery slope seems to be a giant drop off cliff!

i think this is the hardest thing mentally i have ever had to do.. i scared im gonna fail and the sleeve wont work...

"my slippery slope is a giant drop-off"

yeppers, it is HARD... but better than the alternative...

Yeah, last night I succumbed to eating about 5 bites of ice cream. I'm 5 weeks out and on soft foods. Regretting it this morning with an upset tummy.

This surgery isn't for the faint of heart!

I did awesome today, and had endless energy. 104g of protien, 60g of carbs, and 937 calories! Yea Baby!