I have been carrying this around for 2 days and I have to get it off my chest! People and their comments can cause some frustartion. I am taking all the steps to get approval for sleeve surgery hopefully by March Spring Break time. So I have decided that I am only sharing this decision with my husband and 1 co-worker until day of surgey I might tell siblings and mother. Just discovered on Tuesday after my EGD that I have chronic active gastritis and peptic esophagitis all from GERD and the hiatal hernia that was discovered. I must admit that I have been on an emotional roller coaster about my decision to have the surgery. I have been surprised at the mental process taking place. Some days I am extremely confident and others I am full of doubt. Started this 2 years ago and when I mentioned it to family it was a total meltdown from everybody about why not to have it. Even my 14 year old broke down in tears about not having it. My fiance' now husband was totally against it to. So I did not poceed thinking I will do better.

Fast forward two years and there has been more health crisis, more medications added and about 10 more pounds. I am taking between 10-13 pills a day for hypertension, diabetes, high cholesterol, thyroid disease, pituitary issues and just discovered I have sleep apnea and that has been causing things to go out of wack! I may not have a very high BMI (36) but my co morbidities are no joke. People always say but you are not "big" enought to have that kind of surgery, just stop eating and start exercising. Well helllllooo if it were that easy we would all be in perfect health and form. Even my husband now is on board because of how he has seen me have health crisis. I am 5'8" and weigh 236 as of this morning.However no one else would be on board and I am not discussing this choice now because I don't need the negativity. I have been in mental mouring about the things that will change from the vain(clothes and shoes-i have thousands of dollars worth of clothing-over 300 pair of shoes) I battled a shopping addiction. I am wondering if this will flair up when I have to buy a new wardrobe. My daughter(now 16) saw me looking at a video and she freaked again and started with mom please don't do it. We can work out. I know they think they have my best interest but please support me if not my decision. A co worker overheard me talking about the surgery and she went ballistic about not doing it, no schedule it, she has this diet I can try, I am going to look like I am sick or on crack blah blah blah. It really did get to me.

Sorry it's long but maybe here some one can understand all these different emotions, thoughts and dilemma's. How can I be both full of doubt and anxious to just get it done. I know I do not have 100 pounds to give and believe my body will stop before I get to that point. But the thought of being diabetes free and possibly high blood pressure and cholesterol free makes it worth it I know. The weight loss is an added benefit. Thanks guys for letting em vent and keep me in your prayers and I move forward in this journey to a better and different life.

I told those who didn't support me because they were afraid what my life would be like 20 years down the road with the sleeve. I told them if I didn't have it done look what my life would be like then. I would probably be a diabetic with a leg amputated from unhealing ulcers, coronary artery disease probably a stroke and that's if I am still slice. That shut them up pretty quick. Good luck. Honey!!

That really sucks Lady. I'm sorry. After reading that I feel blessed to have have litteraly not one detractor. Co workers, family, firends - all on board.

I'm sure you see you have tons of us that support you even if we don't know you. Good luck and keep strong. You are your best supporter in the end.

IV in. Antibiotics started. 15 mins. Til my new life starts. Scared and excited at the same time.

Relax, you will do great!