I checked in to a local hotel, am watching the 49ers game, and just drank the bowel cleansing liquid (yuck).

I have been telling myself that on October 15th I have a scheduled car accident.... When it's over,I'll recover and have a new set of restrictions to live with.... But for the first time in years, I will truly LIVE!

I am getting more nervous by the minute.... Worried about complications..... High blood pressure, and this may sound silly, but being naked on the operating table.

I am fidgety and even though my wife is here with me, I feel an odd sense of aloneness. I know I am doing the right thing, I just am so worried about the pain....

I've been reading these forums for awhile and could really use some encouraging words to talk me off the proverbial ledge!!!

With love for my fellow sleevers,

CG

U have worked so long and so hard for this. sometimes I have similar to the same feelings u r having now I am a religious person and believe this feeling is The Lord thereto protect me from harm.

I totally remember having those feelings before my surgery. I was very worried about the operating room as I had surgery at the hospital where I work. Very weird to think that I was going to be naked on the table and people that I have known for years were going to see me. I really just put it out if my mind and prayed that I would have peace about it. I will say everyone was very professional and I was under anesthesia before the took the gown off and didn't wake up until I was in my room so I don't have any memories of anything happening in the OR. I am one month out and have no regrets whatsoever. Good luck.

I think we all experienced those feelings ...I know I did and on the morning of my surgery after not sleeping at all the night before panicked and told my husband I didn't want to have it...but he put his arms around me and calmed my fears and reminded me of the hard work I had put in for this change and how much I was really going to benefit from it. My surgery was Sept 10, 2012. I was on high blood pressure meds before the surgery but not anymore. I am 28 pounds down and feeling very good. I have lots of energy. The pain I experienced was not unbearable. I stopped taking pain meds after 3 days out. I attribute my success to my doctor. I have followed her directions to the "T". I was scared to death...yes...but I have no regrets. As each day goes by you will get better. Good Luck and just take it one day at a time.