Folks who know me will tell you that I am generally a Pollyanna, glass is half-full kind of gal. But, friends, I have to tell you the one area I am struggling to stay positive in is my weight loss. Trust me, I am thrilled that I have lost almost 110 pounds and most days I am pretty sure I will make it to my goal weight. The creeping, negative monster in my mind is that I will someday screw up and gain it all back. That I am doing little things now that will ultimately destroy all I've worked for, etc.

Literally, this is the stuff my nightmares are made of. I feel as though I just escaped prison and I am waiting for the Marshalls to find me and haul my a$$ back in. I don't want to be a fugitive in weight loss. I want to be confident and self-assured that I have finally learned my lessons when it comes to nutrition and health, but I have a history of losing 80-100 pounds on four other occasions and then doing everything in my power to sabotage myself. How can I convince myself this time is different? To those who've also battled these demons and succeeded, how did you do it? Any tips?

I will keep fighting the good fight. I truly believe that failure is not an option, but the fear is real and it does affect me.

Thanks for listening.

Amanda

Thank u