Good Evening All,

It is the "Eve of my Sleeve" surgery and I had no idea I would be this emotional! My surgery is tomorrow and I am one big ball of tears! :Cry:

They are not tears of fear or even tears of joy. Today, I have a deep sense of what it has been like being overweight my entire life. Many were surprised when I announced I was considering Weight Loss Surgery (WLS) because I have always been the pretty fat girl who is the life of the party. I had no problem getting boyfriends, making new friends, and have had an extremely successful public career. No one really knew that I had started not to like the physical part of who I have become.

I can even remember frowning upon WLS and not understanding how people could do it! It wasn't until I looked at pictures of myself that I begin to say "now you are just too fat!" After quick weight loss, weight, watcher's, sugar buster's, and a million other diets, I realized I needed real help. Then, my uncle died in February of this year, basically from complications as a result of being obese. It was then that I declared war on the weight!

Now, here I am at 36, just a few hours away from a life changing moment. To say I am overwhelmed is an understatement. I am nervous and excited. I can't wait to meet the new me!

Thanks for listening ... Pray for me. Surgery is at 9:30am tomorrow!

I felt the same way as you. I was so excited about the surgery but couldn't stop crying the weekend before the surgery and almost cancelled because i was so afraid. I wasn't afraid of something going wrong just afraid of the changing my life. I'm 4 weeks out and beside a few days early on I am so happy with my sleeve. Your emotions are all over the place but you will be fine.

I 'll say a prayer for you,

Janine

Natalie, I was the same way I was also reading "signs" in everything. To this day I am still amazed that I was able to go through with it. But here I am 13 weeks later loving my sleeve loving the fact that my blood pressure was 93/69 this week without drugs, loving that I have lost almost 40 lbs and loving how sexy my husband is finding me.