SO, TODAY IS DAY 4 AND ALTHOUGH I FEEL TOO TIRED TO TYPE, I FEEL THE NEED TO HERE SOMEONE TELL ME ITS GONNA BE OK. MONDAY WAS SURG. CAME HOME TUES. FELT OK TILL YESTERDAY AND NOW IM SO WEAK I CAN BARELY THINK.. OH, AND DEPRESSED, DID I MENTION DEPRESSED, I WAS SITTING ON THE BED LAST NIGHT AND STARTED CRYING WITHOUT WARNING, I FELT GUILTY FOR TAKING A PERFECTLY GOOD ORGAN THAT GOD GAVE ME AND ALTERED IT BECAUSE I CANNOT CONTROL MYSELF. I AM GETTING APPROX. 11 OZ OF EAS MYOPLEX 42 GR PROTIEN, AND IN BETWEEN SIPPING ON POWER ADE AND VITAMIN WATER WITHOUT SUGAR. THE DOC SAID V8 JUICE BUT IM AFRAID OF THE ACID. DID I MENTION I AM HAVING PANIC ATTACKS BECAUSE I AM AFRAID OF A LEAK? OMG, I FEEL SO MESSED UP RIGHT NOW, MY HEART IS IRREGULAR, USUALLY HAPPENS WHEN IM SICK, SO NOT TOO SURPRISED, BUT JUST ANOTHER THING TO ADD TO MY LIST OF WORRIES...I HAD A DREAM LAST NIGHT THAT I TOOK SOME COOKIES FROM A BAKERY, TRUE , BUT SAD...HOW MUCH LONGER BEFORE I FEEL BETTER?.....SORRY, I JUST FEEL SO AWFUL...

Let's face it we all abused are good organ and basically we put it back to how it started. It seems like that statement makes sence, but I've been lightheaded this morning. Vicki, refried bean cake ewww, LOL. I'm excited to have an egg on my birthday. And by the time your birthday comes you can have some protein (?), so their will be a lot of stuff you can eat when you go out.

Feel better, Janine

Vicki I hope you're feeling better by now, it's incredible how after surgery are hormones go mad, and like you say all the feelings of guilt, not being able to have done it on our own. You will feel so much better each day, and you will end up loving your sleeve, regardless of the pain, the guilt, I'm loving it and so will you

Vicki I hope you're feeling better by now, it's incredible how after surgery are hormones go mad, and like you say all the feelings of guilt, not being able to have done it on our own. You will feel so much better each day, and you will end up loving your sleeve, regardless of the pain, the guilt, I'm loving it and so will you

Thank you Chilo, and everyone who responded to my post, i hope you all know the diference it makes when some one hears you and responds with compassion and understanding. :grouphug:

Vicki, refried bean cake, that doesn't sound like a good birthday cake for me LOL. I'm supposed to go back to the doctors next week, but now they have to work with my schedule unlike before when I jumped through hoops with them. They don't have appt. after four so they have to get back to me. I can have cream soup and yogurt (I will never have broth again) but I just can't wait till I have an egg next week. Its all I think about, I can't stand this liquid diet no more, I'm not hungry but my body needs real Protein.

I know were going to do good we just need time. For your birthday you can maybe order some real food. I'm afraid of a leak also but my doctor said he never had any and he teaches other doctors and med students how to preform this surgery so I'm not going to worry about that. And I'm sure you have an excelland doctor.

I'm starting to get excited about Thanksgiven and Christmas, this is a fun time of the year. So we can look forward to many good times coming up. I cannot wait for turkey, did I tell you I'm obsessed with food.

Take care of yourself, Janine

Vicki, refried bean cake, that doesn't sound like a good birthday cake for me LOL. I'm supposed to go back to the doctors next week, but now they have to work with my schedule unlike before when I jumped through hoops with them. They don't have appt. after four so they have to get back to me. I can have cream Soup and yogurt (I will never have broth again) but I just can't wait till I have an egg next week. Its all I think about, I can't stand this liquid diet no more, I'm not hungry but my body needs real Protein.

I know were going to do good we just need time. For your birthday you can maybe order some real food. I'm afraid of a leak also but my doctor said he never had any and he teaches other doctors and med students how to preform this surgery so I'm not going to worry about that. And I'm sure you have an excelland doctor.

I'm starting to get excited about Thanksgiven and Christmas, this is a fun time of the year. So we can look forward to many good times coming up. I cannot wait for turkey, did I tell you I'm obsessed with food.

Take care of yourself, Janine

HAHAHA!!! Janine, you are hysterical, but i get everything you are saying. i just want to eat, even if its a refried bean cake LOL.... are you going back to work or something. you said you can only get in after four. do you have a drain, its a pain in the a**..but i get it.

Thank God no drain, I asked my doctor he said he only does that in 2% of the surgeries, all doctors are different. When does your drain come out? Yes I'm going back to work tomorrow. I have a day care and I need to be there, it's only for teachers so I work a school schedule. It's perfect and I can fit in two hours of homework while there. This week I'm having an extra helper so I hope I will be okay.

When can you start to have real fool. OMG I freaking can't wait for real food. I'm having my egg in 6 days and 14 hours.

By the way while I was having my surgery my daughter was in the emergency room. She was in extemely bad pain with her mouth, turns out on Thursday she had to get 4 wisdom teeth taken out and she has also been on a liquid diet. So we complain together and try to help each other.

Your doing great, give yourself credit for making it this past week.

Janine

Thank God no drain, I asked my doctor he said he only does that in 2% of the surgeries, all doctors are different. When does your drain come out? Yes I'm going back to work tomorrow. I have a day care and I need to be there, it's only for teachers so I work a school schedule. It's perfect and I can fit in two hours of homework while there. This week I'm having an extra helper so I hope I will be okay.

When can you start to have real fool. OMG I freaking can't wait for real food. I'm having my egg in 6 days and 14 hours.

By the way while I was having my surgery my daughter was in the emergency room. She was in extemely bad pain with her mouth, turns out on Thursday she had to get 4 wisdom teeth taken out and she has also been on a liquid diet. So we complain together and try to help each other.

Your doing great, give yourself credit for making it this past week.

Janine

OMG Janine thats terrible/funny too...your poor daughter, so a major bitch fest huh? how old is she. I cant believe your going back to work already do you work with the kids, how old? I am getting my drain out wed, and i cant wait to see what hes going to let me have, i will take dog food at this point LOL...really, i was looking at the butter today and thinking hmmm. i wonder how that would go down, is that desparate or what...

Hope your having a blessed Sunday When I was in the hospital and felt so bad, I had the what did I do moment. ONe minute I felt great and the next I'm hitting the morphine pump every 6 min, lol. I'm two weeks out and other than wanting to be off liquids, I thank God that He brought me through this safely. He gave me a new clean slate and the tool to be the woman He wants. Keep your eyes upwards and don't let fear over take you. We can do this and in the end it will be all worth it!

Vicki S

Wow, I had all the same feelings and thoughts as you do now. I am 3 1/2 weeks post op and believe me, it's a lot better. I am looking so forward to getting to the soft foods on Wednesday. I still get weak toward the end of the day. I am hoping that goes away soon. Hang in there and follow Doctor's instructions and you will be glad you did this when you see the scale!

Jeri

Wow you all are doing great with your weight loss. It is true we are so blessed to be were we are now.

Vicki, I have one 18 months they rest are 3 and 4. I feel ready for work. Yes my daughter she's 20 we do fight ALOT, but she has really been their for me. I asked her if gravy can be considered cream soup. She said no. But gravy and butter would go down, right?? LOL I read a few people get egg drop soup and strain it that sounds good.

We better try to keep busy, I have tons of homework to catch up on I think I will start doing too. Find something to distract yourself and before you know it will be Wednesday.

Good luck,

Janine

Vicki, I just wanted to cheer you on! I hope you are feeling better. From all I've read on the boards, the first weeks are hard and then it gets easier! Hang in there!